Chapter 450 Lan in Central Continent
He will not let him down - Zhan Lan knows this very well.
She knew how reliable Zhang Jie was in important moments, and she also knew how much fragility and pretense was hidden in her previous strength.
The moment she entered her personal space, she dissolved the fusion with the shadow and stood on the ground again with her own feet. The next moment, the dizziness caused by weakness and dizziness knocked her down. If Yingying hadn't helped her in time, she would have fallen to the ground.
What a woman of misfortune I am - she thought.
Looking back in memory, she seemed to have returned to a distant time before entering the world of reincarnation - she was not an unattractive woman, and had had many suitors in the past. And among them, there was indeed someone who she thought might be worth a try, and she almost had to consider giving him a chance to pursue him.
But that person failed to do so, not because of emotional conflict or personality incompatibility. It was a simple accident, an accident, a car accident that happened before our eyes, a sacrifice of life to save a stranger, and then, a young life turned into dust from the earth.
That person died, and before that person died, she was about to accept his date request for the first time.
It was just an accident, a love affair that ended before it even began. No one thought it was her fault, not her best friend, her friends, or her parents who were honest people and cried heartbreakingly at the funeral. She had nothing to do with the accident, and she did not take any action that might have affected the accident. Everyone was comforting her and apologizing to her. Except for herself, everyone hoped that she could get out of the nightmare caused by the accident as soon as possible.
But she didn't come out. She had always believed that she was solely to blame for that incident.
She could no longer remember the name of that righteous man.
But she remembered that when she was a child, when she was playing with her children, if anyone got injured due to a fall or fall, she would definitely be the one who was unharmed. When I was in school, I encountered motorcycle robbers on the road with my best friend several times. My best friend was taken down by a motorcycle and almost snatched away by human traffickers. And I won't even get a trace of dust on my skirt.
I am always lucky.
But unlike those purely lucky people who survived the disaster, their own luck must be accompanied by the misfortune of the people around them. And that time, she witnessed with her own eyes that someone beside her paid an irreparable heavy price because of misfortune and her own choices.
The cost of life.
The good and honest man dies, but the woman who brought misfortune remains unscathed and reaps all the apologies. After realizing this clearly, her conscience broke her mind.
She stopped interacting with people. She left all her besties, friends, and even relatives. Come to a remote and unfamiliar city and settle in it. She specially found a remote apartment where the landlord could go somewhere else and pay the rent once a year, which was even negotiable. And she even wasted her academic diplomas and thick certificates, hiding in the apartment, using the Internet to earn income, so as to maintain her simple life.
Living in the city, isolated from the world, this is the modern hermit. She thought this would not bring any disaster to others. However, one day, she saw on the Internet the unfortunate record of a stampede accident involving her book fans at a promotional event hosted by an Internet company, in which several people were injured, and the company was ordered to rectify as a result.
She finally collapsed completely at this moment, no one blamed her, no one resented her. But she firmly believed that there must be her own mistakes behind this unfortunate incident.
——I am the woman who brings misfortune.
——I am a bird chasing misfortune.
The pain is accumulating deep in her heart, she is the murderer who will kill herself. When the Lord God's selection pop-up window appeared on her computer screen, a noose for suicide had even been arranged in her room.
The main god was a little faster than her, so she arrived in the world of reincarnation. And when she first arrived, she was even a little happy. Because in the world of reincarnation, everyone is always in disaster. Her innate characteristics finally won't cause any trouble for others. She can hold her chest high and live an upright life, no longer suffering from any torture of conscience.
She likes days like this, she enjoys them. Time and time again, I faced hardships with my comrades, and shared all the disasters with them. Then, with his own hands, he would defeat all these disasters that come like sharp swords.
Facing and defeating fate, what a romantic life it is.
And on this unique romantic road, she gradually felt her emotions stirring.
She likes that kind of man, the kind of man who can face disaster and defeat it. And if this kind of man can overcome disasters himself and at the same time help those around him to resist disasters, he will be more favored and paid attention to by her.
She likes a guardian, someone who can shield others from the wind and rain, and of course, it is best to be a path breaker who can shield herself from the wind and rain. And this person had better be a few years younger than himself, and he would show his clumsy cuteness in unimportant places outside of battle, but he would never be ambiguous or let down the important things. And such people...
Well, she likes Jiang Yu.
She couldn't remember exactly when it started. Maybe it's an alien ship, maybe it's the ritual ruins of gods and ghosts. One day, the psychic user's gaze was attracted to the back of the man holding the shield. And when she realized this, she responded almost immediately. She is not good at it and does not want to be the third party. So she hid this feeling, transferred it, and put it somewhere else.
Until Zhao Yingkong's actions in Jurassic World broke this false illusion - she almost immediately found an excuse and participated in it without hesitation. Anyway, one sheep is being driven, and two sheep are being herded. And she would definitely stop at the sibling level - that's what she convinced herself.
Evidently she would soon realize her self-deception. No matter what the reason was, intervening was intervening, and her actions resulted in bitter consequences that she had long forgotten.
That time in World 4, Jiang Yu almost died. Relying on his own ability and determination, he miraculously walked out of death.
But this time, he used his own death in exchange for the team's victory and the liberation of the world. He achieved such great achievements, and his price... was naturally equally profound.
He was dead and could never wake up on his own.
——I was the one who caused it, at least... there was a part of me.
Pain surged in her heart. If she could exchange her own death for Jiang Yu's life. Then she would immediately thrust the sword into her throat without hesitation. But...she has no reason to do that now.
——I want to live.
——I want to find a way to resurrect him from the dead.
——And when that time comes, I will...
Zhan Lan doesn't intend to give up. I don’t intend to give up this renewed love.
If she is a kind, weak, sentimental woman who is good at empathizing and thinking about others. Then she might choose to give up after the resurrection process is carried out. Use your own distance to exchange for the well-being of the person you love and send you blessings for his future.
If it were in the past, Zhan Lan, who had not yet entered the world of reincarnation and had not yet understood his own heart, might really do that.
but now……
"I won't give up." She stood up and left Ying's support.
She has looked directly at herself and has become a solitary person. She will not betray her heart, even if she brings disaster to the person she admires - she will resurrect him and then tell him everything. And after that, personally face the consequences of success or failure created by your own hands.
She won't give up.
Her outer clothing was dyed by her will, and her goddess-like clothes were dyed a solemn black. The dark gauze dress restrained her waist and lapels, while a black veil hung from the flower-shaped hair ornaments on the side of her hair, covering her pretty face.
"Zhan Lan?" - Ying made a confused voice, and she immediately turned her head.
She watched her own escape, her own failure, her own self-deception - she didn't dare to love in the past, so she used Jiang Yu's aesthetics to create a replica of herself. There is basically no difference between Kage's inner self and his self at that time. At that time, Ying inherited all his love for Jiang Yu.
——You will love him on my behalf, and I will stop at the level of my sister.
This is the mission and concept when the film was designed, and although she is restrained, she has always executed it very well. And now, she can't even tell whether Ying's sincerity is her own shaping or the identity that evolved in her heart.
She was useless—her existence was her own fault from the start.
But now, he has adapted to her time around him. She had become a part of herself, an extension of herself. Just like Jiang Yu's Xia. Cannot be erased.
So……
"The person I like died, and I want to mourn for him." Zhan Lan exhaled silently and tilted his head.
"You... go change your clothes too. Shadow."
Jiang Yu's offline time will be very short (