Chapter 746 The Definition of Fear
"How do I know?" Qi Xia asked.
"It's obviously your own "echo" and something you've done, but you pretend not to know?" Chu Tianqiu asked.
After hearing this, Qi Xia shook her head helplessly: "Chu Tianqiu, don't say I don't know, even the "Sky Snake" can't read my own mind."
"oh……?"
"He is much more awake than me." Qi Xia said.
Chu Tianqiu frowned slightly after hearing this: "So when I wrote these two notes, were you also confused by your thoughts?"
"You have to ask yourself." Qi Xia replied, "I'm not you, and I have no idea what you're thinking. Maybe I'm not hiding anything, but you're just crazy."
"Am I... crazy?" Chu Tianqiu nodded, "That's right. I didn't become crazy after killing Wen Qiaoyun. I went crazy long before I killed her."
After finishing speaking, he looked at Qi Xia again and asked, "Then when did you become crazy?"
"I'm not crazy." Qi Xia replied, "My spirit has never been as good as it is now."
"That's it." Chu Tianqiu laughed dumbly, "A real madman never thinks that he is crazy. It seems that I am worse than you."
"You can't say that." Qi Xia shook his head and said, "You have a natural advantage over me. As long as you are "echoing", you can become a rational madman, but I can't. If I don't put all my psychological defenses It would never be possible to destroy it and rebuild it with the most horrific things.”
"Destroy all your psychological defenses...?" Chu Tianqiu was slightly startled, "And then use the most terrifying things to rebuild...?"
"That's right."
"Is this something a normal person can do?"
"Are we...still normal people?" Qi Xia asked.
"We..." Chu Tianqiu smiled bitterly after hearing this, "Yeah... maybe we don't even count as "people"?"
"Yes, no one can go out here." Qi Xia said.
"Then how did you destroy your "psychological defense"?"
"Have you... ever felt fear?" Qi Xia asked again.
"'Fear'?" Chu Tianqiu thought this word was a bit meaningful. He stretched out his slender fingers stained with blood and pointed at the dark red sky here, "Qi Xia, do you know why the sky is dark red?"
Qi Xia raised his head: "Because there are the rotten flesh and blood of all the people who have been turned into powder for decades floating there."
After hearing this, Chu Tianqiu pointed to the corpses scattered on the playground: "Then do you know why those people are lying there?"
"Because someone needs them to die, they're going to die."
"That's right." Chu Tianqiu said, "There is neither "common sense" nor "law" in this place. Everyone can kill people for their own preferences. We live here to die, but the purpose of our death is to Live. People who want to protect you may want you to die, and people who want to kill you may want you to live..."
"That's right."
"Walking on this land where even the streets are sticky, you ask me if I have ever felt "fear"?" Chu Tianqiu grinned, "Qixia, every day I am here, my back is cold. My scalp is numb, I’m really scared.”
"oh?"
"But is that useful?" Chu Tianqiu shook his head, "Many people have placed their hopes on me. I can only pretend that everything is fine, pretend to be stronger than anyone else, and then tell everyone that there is hope ahead. Wandering in this hellish city, you ask me if I have ever felt "fear"?
"But that's not enough." Qi Xia said, "Just because the back has been cold for decades and the scalp has been numb for decades, how can it be considered "fear"?"
After hearing this, Chu Tianqiu snorted, turned to look into Qi Xia's eyes and asked, "Then tell me... what is 'fear'?"
Qi Xia said expressionlessly: "The fear I'm talking about is about people in love."
"Ha." Chu Tianqiu laughed dumbly after hearing this, "The person you love? The person you love is kidnapped? Or the person you love is killed? Is this a very scary thing for you? Qi Xia, I killed Wen Qiaoyun with my own hands."
Qi Xia took a deep breath and said: "If Wen Qiaoyun is copied into countless uncontrollably, one of the eyeballs is "giant" and then hangs in the sky as the sun, and the others are dismantled into flesh and bones and recast. It became a city, her flesh became the ground, her bones formed the walls, and her blood formed the river here. Even the fish cannot breathe in this kind of river, and you step on it and walk on it every day. Every step you take tramples on her broken flesh and blood, causing her immense pain. You can smell the rust every day. This city is pulsing all day long, as if it is a huge living thing, but you. I don’t know how to save her, and she doesn’t know how to save you. In order to prevent you from going crazy, Wen Qiaoyun, the only one who can act, pretends that nothing has happened, and carries maggots to himself every day. I’ll use my flesh and blood to make food for you... How about this?”
Chu Tianqiu fell into a long silence after listening to Qi Xia's words.
If what he was talking about was "fear", then the scene Qi Xia described could no longer be described as "fear".
There is no accurate word to describe this feeling in the dictionary.
How would you feel if you were standing in a city made of Wenqiaoyun's flesh and blood?
Shocked? Thriller?
No, that feeling cannot be described at all.
"Qi Xia, do you still say you are not crazy?" Chu Tianqiu asked.
"Perhaps I have passed the "crazy" stage." Qi Xia replied expressionlessly, "I feel that I have reached a realm that I have never set foot in before. When dealing with the thoughts of this realm, I have become "crazy". It’s not enough.”
"Is this what you said... after destroying all your psychological defenses, you built it with the "most terrifying things", and those things are Yu Nian'an's flesh and blood?"
Qi Xia nodded after hearing this: "Yes."
"But even the Echoer can't do this." Chu Tianqiu slowly frowned, "How on earth did you do it?"
"It's really a long story. I definitely can't do this kind of "miracle" by myself. Not only do I need a "god" who can destroy the entire city, I also need a "god" who can rebuild it. "Dream" of the city.
"The two people you mentioned..." Chu Tianqiu was slightly startled, "No, this is obviously one person, right? "He" can do it all by himself... Not only did you control "Qinglong", you even planned "Dragon"?
Qi Xia slowly closed his eyes: "Chu Tianqiu, we have several "battlefields". I can't control the other "battlefields", only one is under my control."
"The battlefield under your control...?"
"This has nothing to do with you, it is my own business." Qi Xia said.