Chapter 2: feeling alive
For several nights in a row, Gu Yuqi slept unsteadily. After falling into the water, she had a fever, her forehead was terribly hot, and she was confused, sometimes awake and sometimes in a coma.
She seemed to be trapped in an endless nightmare.
Like a movie, the past flashes before my eyes one by one.
She still remembered that she was standing in red under the peach blossom tree in the backyard of Huguo Temple. The peach blossoms all over the mountain couldn't compare to her sweet smile, and that smile made the hearts of princes and sons drunk.
At the royal banquet, she danced all over the city, with long sleeves flowing clouds, curling up between the slender waists, and stepping on lotus flowers, like a nine-day fairy coming to the world.
On the Qiuwei hunting ground, she was dressed in fresh clothes and angry with horses, her long bow was like the moon and her arrow was like a shooting star.
So most everyone remembered a Gu Yuqi, the daughter of Dingyuan Hou's mansion, Yunwen Yunwu, who was as beautiful as a peach and plum.
The person who came to ask for marriage almost stepped through the gate of Dingyuan Hou's mansion, but she fell in love with a man who was as cold as frost.
She clearly knew that he didn't like her, but she didn't know what evil she had committed. She just wanted to marry him, even at the expense of the imperial court. he.
She thought that what she gave would be what he wanted. With her talent and beauty, there was no man she couldn't conquer.
But she was wrong. She planned for him, tested medicines for him, shielded him from arrows, and helped him take the throne, but he only sealed her as a talented person.
She doesn't care about status or status, as long as he has her in his eyes, she always comforts herself like this, but in the end?
Gu Yuqi felt that she used to be a fool, and in the end, only his gentle and lovely cousin could catch his eye. He has always liked the kind of gentle woman. His back seat was always vacant, and he was always waiting for someone, maybe it was the woman who suffered a little grievance, and she was implicated in being imprisoned in the cold palace. , set fire to the palace.
But is that woman really gentle as water? Others can't see Gu Yuqi, but they can.
She clearly remembered the scene of that night. She wore the red clothes when she first saw him, drank the poisonous wine brought by the woman, wore her hair and bare feet, and danced for the last time on the Shuiyue Pavilion. This dance was magnificent, poignant and beautiful. It was specially danced for him, and she put her whole life into this dance. She also knew he was watching, because she could feel the focus in his eyes, even though Taiye Pond was separated. He had never looked at her so seriously, and when the fire ignited and the flames soaring to the sky were about to devour her, she saw a crack in his icy eyes.
She heard his cry from across the water, "Little Rain, come here, there is still room for negotiation, I order you to come here!" She smiled miserably, and she vowed to the sky aloud that if she could do it again in this life, she would definitely Will not love him, protect him, she would rather never know him!
"Yunke, I, Gu Yuqi, today use the light of fire to illuminate the way, use my blood as a guide, and the gods in the sky as a testimony. If there is an afterlife, I will never meet you again and again."
Gu Yuqi sighed and woke up from her nightmare, her mother's anxious eyes were still in front of her eyes, but her mind was clear.
She really couldn't understand why someone like her who was bent on dying was born again.
"Nang's fever has finally subsided." Mrs. Liang touched her forehead, revealing a tired and relieved smile.
Only then did Gu Yuqi realize that her mother seemed more haggard than she remembered.
Her relationship with this mother was not very deep. In her last life, she came across because the original Gu Yuqi fell into the water and died, and she woke up after being in a coma for a long time. This mother fell ill because of her weak bones soon after she recovered. She was ill for four years and passed away in the nineteenth year of Jingyuan.
But this rebirth, the last time she crossed, and the Liang family took care of her like this for two consecutive times, Gu Yuqi couldn't help feeling a bit of guilt and softness in her heart. After all, she was the one who took over her own daughter's body.
Thinking of this, she stretched out her arms and embraced Liang's warm body, "Nang has worried my mother." Her soft and weak voice penetrated into Liang's heart, making Liang's tears unbearable. Eyebrows.
"Just don't scare A-Niang like that in the future." Liang Shi patted her daughter gently while weeping.
For several days, Gu Yuqi was enjoying Liang's mother's love a little nervously.
In the last life, she came across and felt fresh and excited about everything. She proudly believed that she was from the modern age. Compared with the surrounding ladies who only knew how to embroider and recite poems and butterflies, she naturally had her uniqueness. She put herself in a very high position, and all she thought about was the prosperity in ancient times, as written in the time-travel book.
She did it indeed. At the age of eleven, she became a poem in seven steps and became famous in one fell swoop. At the age of twelve, a woman disguised herself as a man and went to Lushan Academy. , using his own cleverness, proudly stole the essence of Chinese civilization in this dynasty that has never appeared in the history books, and then calmly accepts the envy and praise of others.
She stood on the cloud and looked down at the ancients who she thought were mediocre. If the emperor at that time was a few years older than her father, she even thought about becoming the emperor of Gongwei and becoming the queen of Daliang, the mother of the world.
How ridiculous.
Gu Yuqi recalled her past life now, and couldn't help shaking her head.
She was blinded by the prosperity of the world and lost her heart. She thought that what she was looking for was the best for herself. Her heart is higher than the sky, and she is conceited that as long as she wants, there is nothing she can't do. In fact, she did it. She assisted the so-called beloved person she chose to take the position of God step by step. Unfortunately, she miscalculated his heart. He never fell in love with her from beginning to end. He just used her. She lost not only her own life, but also her heart. In the end, she set fire to the temple. He wanted to use this drastic method to leave a mark on his heart in the end.
Everyone is dead, what's the use of that illusory brand? Besides, it's still a matter of telling whether to stay or not. With that person's cold and viciousness, I'm afraid it's just a mockery of her.
Strange to say, with her pride, she actually begged for forgiveness for an ancient man for so many years, and finally burned herself in flames for him. It was really painful, standing in the sea of fire, the kind of loneliness, despair, when the flames licked her body, the deep pain that cut into the bone marrow, the pain in the body, and the pain in the heart. She knew she did it because she loved that man.
People are proud, but love is humble, that's why she shouted to ask the gods in the sky to prove that if there is an afterlife, she would rather never see him forever.
She was tired and gave up.
Gu Yuqi wiped the tears that fell from the corners of her eyes, and smiled brightly. She really has another life. In this life, she will avoid him, avoid him, and never see him again.
She jumped out of bed, walked to the window, pushed open the window, and found that the old plum in front of the window had grown several tiny flower buds. The winter is cold, but the sky is high and the clouds are far away, and the sky is high and the clouds are far away, and even Gu Yuqi's state of mind has broadened a lot.
In the previous life, she lived for that man, so she should live for herself in this life.
It feels good to be alive.