Chapter 21:
Lin Chengyu was stunned for a moment, and then his heart felt sour.
It was true that he was more active when he came back from rebirth to meet him. From the beginning to greet people and then to bring people to study in Liujiang, as long as Jiang Xiao thought about it, he would have come back too.
"Xiaoxiao thinks that if I don't have memory, I won't be so enthusiastic, right?"
"It's just one of them," Jiang Xiao said, "there are other little things."
Jiang Xiao's observation skills are good. He can often pay attention to some details, and he has a deep memory of everything in his previous life. When he sees Lin Chengyu in front of him, after comparing them one by one, he can be more sure of his conjecture.
People who have already experienced many things, no matter how much they hide, they are still different from when they were young.
For example, when Jiang Xiao first met Lin Chengyu, he lived in Liujiang for a long time. Although Mandarin is standard, some syllables are always influenced by some local dialects. It was a bit like "Ning" at the time, not obvious, but then he went to Binhai City for work reasons, and after staying there for a long time, some pronunciations were subtly corrected and became very standard.
"Classmate, I want to go to Houlin No. 3 Middle School."
When we met for the first time, Lin Chengyu used the pretense of asking for directions, and said this to him. The pronunciation of the word "Lin" was quite standard.
For another example, when Lin Chengyu graduated and first joined the company, he also started from a low-level position. He worked hard to achieve outstanding results, and he was promoted quickly, but he was also very busy, which caused the slight tendon inflammation of the thumb. Jiang Xiao would find him a medicinal wine to rub. Kneading, but he didn't take good care of him, and when he got better, he relapsed again. It wasn't until he rose to a certain position later that he didn't have so many tiring work at the desk. Things, when he folded his hands, he would unconsciously rub his thumbs a few times.
These acquired habits and changes should not have appeared on Lin Chengyu at this time. If Jiang Xiao's overly enthusiastic attitude made Jiang Xiao realize something, then these things are practical evidence.
Lin Chengyu should not remember or realize these changes himself, so when he heard Jiang Xiao say this, the look on his face was full of surprise.
But Jiang Xiao remembered that he had experienced all these things. After Lin Chengyu's work focus was shifted to Binhai, the two people's life began to live together less and more apart. It would take a long time for Lin Chengyu to come back, and Jiang Xiao remembered every change in him. , the change of accent because of Binhai is only one of them. Jiang Xiao also specially learned a few Binhai dishes for him, just to adapt to his changes, the disease on the side of his thumb is even more, Lin Chengyu never knew about Jiang Xiao In order to make him feel better, I searched up and down how many kinds of medicated oils, and even went to learn massage techniques.
Even if the deep love is worn away, the hearts he used are not so easy to forget, so that when Jiang Xiao met Lin Chengyu after his rebirth, he didn't pay special attention to these things, just saw, thought about it, and then Got it.
There are not only two small details like this, there are many more, and I don't want to give examples one by one.
He treats Lin Chengyu much better than he treats himself. When Jiang Xiao recalls these kinds of things, he can't believe it. Lin Chengyu only thinks that when he lives with Jiang Xiao, he is good everywhere. He is caring and well-behaved. It is a deep love like the sea, and it is exhausting.
"So, the first time I saw you, I knew you were back." Jiang Xiao took another sip of cold soy milk, tilted his head slightly to look at him, and asked him, "How about you? Lin Chengyu, how about you?"
When Lin Chengyu heard what he said before, he was moved, sad, and a little happy at the same time. He felt that Jiang Xiao could remember these things because he still had him in his heart.
But Jiang Xiao's next rhetorical question instantly made him feel ashamed.
"I…"
Lin Chengyu was speechless.
Jiang Xiao's sentence was not an interrogative sentence. He knew very well when Lin Chengyu recognized him, just now.
He didn't mention the heart-wrenching events between the two people in his previous life, and he didn't ask why Lin Chengyu was before his death. He mentioned these little things, which caught Lin Chengyu by surprise, but also really reminded him of the relationship between the two. Where are the gaps and differences.
Lin Chengyu has no such intentions for him.
It had been a while since he found Jiang Xiao, and he had seen him before. It was not until he heard Liu Jiang's words from Jiang Xiao's mouth that he realized that the other party had also been reborn, but this was a big flaw, don't say Lin Chengyu , Even an ordinary classmate of Jiang Xiao would find it quite strange to hear his fluent Liu Jiang dialect.
Jiang Xiao is also a person who has come back after many years. He looks young and wears school uniform, but there must be some habits that he has left behind.
But Lin Chengyu couldn't say it, and couldn't remember a single thing. It was too late for him to regret it. How could he just think about it out of thin air because he didn't notice it before.
He couldn't even remember that Jiang Xiao didn't like Liujiang cuisine. Liujiang cuisine was mainly fresh and sweet. Jiang Xiao had a strong taste. His hometown, Rongxiang Province, was famous for its thick and strong dishes. He likes things like that. As a result, Lin Chengyu chose from thousands of choices today, but he still chose a local restaurant.
Jiang Xiao was accustomed to this, and now he is even less disappointed.
"I used to make local Liujiang dishes at home. I thought, I thought you liked it..." Lin Chengyu explained stumblingly, panicking, "Xiaoxiao..."
"It's not that I like it, it's that you like it," Jiang Xiao told him, "I did it because you like it."
He is now very calm about this matter, and adds: "It won't be in the future."
It will not be like this again in the future. I worked hard for an unnecessary person and worked hard to adapt.
"I'm sorry," Lin Chengyu didn't know how to say sorry, he wanted to say that he would change it in the future, but felt that his promise paled in comparison with Jiang Xiao's care, "Then if you don't like it, we'll change it. Is the family okay?"
It's too late to do anything now.
"No," Jiang Xiao was too lazy to change places, "eat whatever you want."
When he came in, he ordered a bowl of noodles and asked the waiter to bring a small plate of chili sauce, intending to fill his stomach first.
Contrary to him, Lin Chengyu has no appetite.
Decades of time, how to make up for it?
Every time he sees Jiang Xiao, he can feel desperately that the distance between the two is getting bigger and bigger.
Jiang Xiao lowered his head to eat and didn't speak, and Lin Chengyu didn't dare to speak. At this time, no words were enough to express his current mood. He didn't know how to explain his carelessness in his previous life, and there was no way to explain it at all.
Until Jiang Xiao finished eating, he raised his head again to look at Lin Chengyu, and spoke again, breaking the current calm.
"I didn't say this to question you. Lin Chengyu, that was already in a previous life, and I did these things voluntarily at that time. For me, it's all over," Jiang Xiao wiped his mouth with a piece of paper and said again. , "Actually, you don't need to feel so guilty, and you don't have to do anything to thank me for it. If you don't like me, you naturally won't do as much as I do. It's all my wishful thinking."
The last thing that happened to be sick was not caused by Lin Chengyu. He was reborn after death. He thought about things clearly enough and stopped chasing things that didn't belong to him.
Hate is also a kind of care, and hatred also requires attention. His time is quite valuable, and he will not waste any point on Lin Chengyu.
"We've always been people from two worlds, and it's even more so since we came back from rebirth. It's always wrong to force a bunch together before," Jiang Xiao put down his chopsticks, "I'm living a good life now, and I don't need any help from you. Compensation, if you really feel guilty, don't come to me again in the future, this is the best ending for the two of us."
Lin Chengyu looked into his clear Lingling eyes, overwhelmed with guilt and panic, so that he could no longer think about what was appropriate or not, so he stood up and took Jiang Xiao's hand, pulling him into his arms.
"No, no, Xiaoxiao, it's not wishful thinking," his voice trembled, "I really like you, I have fallen in love with you a long time ago, I'm sorry, everything in the past is all my fault, you are not satisfied with me If you change everything, I will also care about you and love you as you said, let's start over, okay?"
Jiang Xiao: "Not good."
He frowned and wanted to push the person away a bit, but Lin Chengyu hugged him so tightly that he couldn't push him away.
Lin Chengyu hugged him for the first time since he was reborn, Jiang Xiao was always warm, and when he wrapped this person in his arms, he seemed to have everything, and he would not let go no matter what.
He has lost his beloved once, and now it seems that he will lose it again.
"Xiaoxiao, I beg you," he muttered in Jiang Xiao's ear, afraid, "I know I'm wrong, let's do it again, okay? You can **** me off as much as you want, okay?"
But now he can't prove anything except words to prove that he once loved him too.
"Not good," Jiang Xiao repeated again, his patience has won, "Don't say it anymore, it will be annoying."
He was already a little hairy, so he tried his best to push Lin Chengyu away.
"Xiaoxiao..."
"Don't call me by my name again," Jiang Xiao was full, he had finished what he had to say, and his expression became completely cold. He very much hoped that Lin Chengyu would see his heart clearly as soon as possible. He was never suitable for a relationship with someone like him. Others talk about sincerity, "You have never been sincere to me, and you have never respected my opinions and ideas. In this life, and even more so in the past, find someone else to play affectionate games with you."
Before Jiang Xiao left, he did not forget to pick up another cup of cold soy milk on the table and hand it to Lin Chengyu.
"It's probably our only regret that we didn't have time to say goodbye in our last life," he said, looking directly into Lin Chengyu's eyes, "I bought it for you, a breakup gift, it has a beginning and an end. We are over, Lin Chengyu, don't meet again in the future. already."
When Lin Chengyu saw Jiang Xiao for the first time, he also handed him a cup of soy milk like this, his eyes shining like stars, and told him, this is breakfast for you, that, if you have nowhere to go, you can come with me live here.
"Xiaoxiao," Lin Chengyu stretched out his hand again and pulled him who wanted to leave, blocking the door of the small box. It was the first time Jiang Xiao saw him cry, and he couldn't help it at all. His eyes were red until the end of his eyes, and tears fell. Like a bead with a broken thread, "But you, but you said at the time that you would be with me forever, I..."
"Look, you didn't remember my words. What I said at the time was that I'll be with you all my life," Jiang Xiao said, looking at him sobbing, no longer feeling distressed, and even showing a smile, "I didn't break my promise, Lin Chengyu, I never break my promise, you see, you have indeed used up my whole life."
Jiang Xiao said these words, it seemed like a thousand arrows pierced through Lin Chengyu's heart, and he had no strength to hold his hand. He watched Jiang Xiao push open the door and walked out of the restaurant without looking back. He covered his face in place.
He originally thought that the agony in his last life after Jiang Xiao's departure was over, but no, it was just the beginning.