Chapter 98: You are too good and I am not worthy

Chapter 98: You are too good and I am not worthy

"I'm not tired." Gu Yuqi smiled lightly, her smile was very ethereal, like a cloud, but her eyes were shrouded in a shallow sadness. No, she is tired. Her heart is very tired.

Gu Yuqi really regrets it now. If she could, she really shouldn't have used Du Xia's mind.

Now that she can't afford anything, she should be cruel to drive Du Xia away, tell him to stay away from her, stop thinking about her, and care about her. miss her. She had already mustered up her courage, but as soon as she saw Du Xia's eyes, she was completely unable to say such words.

She hates this kind of herself very much. She has lived through life without any scruples, and she can do whatever she wants, but what will happen? In the first rebirth, she has been cautious and step-by-step, but what has she gained now?

Looking at Du Xia who was in high spirits, she felt like an old woman dying of pain. She doesn't deserve him.

Du Xia is so good and deserves the love and company of a girl better than her. He should have a brilliant life.

As for herself, she has too many things on her back. She wants to forget many things, but she has to remember them.

If Du Xia falls in love with himself, what awaits him is destruction.

Yun Ke would not let her go, let alone let Du Xia be with her.

Judging from the situation of that person going crazy, he may no longer care about Du Xia's future. After all, Du Xia is not the only one who can lead troops to fight. Although he cherishes talent, don't forget that he was a former emperor, cold-blooded and cold-hearted.

"By the way. If you're not tired. How about I take you out of the city to a place?" Du Xia said with a blushing face.

His heart was very uneasy, he didn't know if Gu Yuqi would agree. He also knew that she was a girl from everyone, and being willing to follow him, a man with nothing, would have given him a lot of face. He even made such a request beyond his capacity, but he really hoped that Gu Yuqi would nod.

On his way to Kuizhou, he passed a place that was really beautiful at night, and he wanted to take her to see it. If she nods, then he really has no regrets, he thought.

"Going out of the city now?" Gu Yuqi was slightly startled, "The city gate has been closed."

"I'll take you out. I won't disturb the defenders." Du Xia hurriedly explained, and then looked at Gu Yuqi eagerly, for fear that she would shake her head or open her mouth to reject him.

"Du Xia. I..." Gu Yuqi's heart was so distraught, she only felt that her heart was blocked by something. Suffering for a while. She should have rejected him.

Feeling Gu Yuqi's resistance, Du Xia's eyes dimmed, and his shoulders slumped slightly, "I know these requirements are too much." He couldn't bear to see her in such a difficult situation, so he pretended to be relaxed and said. , "I'll take you back. I'm already very happy that you are willing to accompany me for a while."

"Forget it, it's rare for you to come here once. I'll show the friendship of the landlord and accompany you." Gu Yuqi sighed silently in her heart, she really couldn't bear it.

"Really?" Du Xia's eyes lit up again, making him come alive.

"En. Only once." Gu Yuqi nodded and told Du Xia, she was also telling herself.

Just this time, let her be willful one more time... and then she will be her Gu Yuqi.

"Okay." Without hearing the meaning of Gu Yuqi's words, Du Xia was completely immersed in the joy of getting Gu Yuqi's answer, he extended his hand to Gu Yuqi, Gu Yuqi hesitated for a moment, but still put her hand into his.

"Offended!" Du Xia tightened his hand, wrapped her hand completely in his palm, dragged her to the top of the wall with force, and then jumped a few times on the roof ridge, bringing her to the city wall. Next, he took a deep look at Gu Yuqi, stretched out an arm, embraced her slender waist, and the moment he took her into his arms, Du Xia felt that countless beautiful flowers seemed to bloom in his heart in an instant. , even the dark night became colorful and colorful in his eyes.

He could feel her soft and warm body clinging to him, Ye Feng picked up her hair and brushed against his skin, his heart jumping wildly uncontrollably.

Gu Yuqi was very embarrassed. She really didn't expect Du Xia to be so bold and dare to hug her waist. At that moment, she felt that she had stiffened, and she could feel it against his chest. His young and powerful heartbeat, what a young and energetic body, in comparison, it shows her old age and loneliness.

As if in a dream, Du Xia brought Gu Yuqi to the ground, and then reluctantly let go of her waist.

His heart is sweet, and he has imagined countless times that one day he will be able to take her into his arms, but imagination is imagination, which is more credible than the reality of actually holding her in his arms. It turned out that it felt so good to hold her, as if in the world, there was only one she was closely related to herself, and everything else became unimportant. He was also prepared that he would be reprimanded or even beaten by her. He thought that he would not hide. He had offended her, and he should have been beaten.

But she was as quiet as a kitten, letting him take her over the city wall.

Du Xia's mood is flying now, and there is nothing better than this.

He took her by the hand and took her to a small forest only two miles away from Kuizhou City. There was a small lake in it. The lake was very small and only appeared in summer. Knowing this, call it Four Seasons Lake.

This lake is very interesting. In spring, it is a low-lying green area. As the days get warmer, the bottom of the depression will slowly seep water. In summer, it will become a small lake. In autumn, the water will slowly drop. In winter, the lake here disappears completely. Come to Odaiba.

Yesterday, Du Xia passed by here inadvertently and discovered the beautiful scenery here, but at that time he was worried and didn't want to appreciate it.

There are not many sparse trees in the woods. The closer you get to the edge of the lake, there will be more and more grass and wildflowers. When you reach the lake, there is actually a large area of ​​petunias. At night, the petunias open a large area. Flowers, those flowers are all blue. Under the starry sky, a large blue flower sea, and the waves on the lake surface glow a little silver under the reflection of the moonlight, just like a fairyland, quiet and blue.

This petunia only blooms at night, so people who pass by during the day will not see such beauty.

Gu Yuqi was obviously also stunned by the sight in front of her. She really did not expect that there would be such a beautiful place on the outskirts of Kuizhou City right under her nose.

Du Xia took her hand and walked in, startling the fireflies hiding in the flowers. The little fireflies flew up from the blue sea of ​​flowers, floating around them like stars, like a dream. .

"It's pretty." Du Xia looked at Gu Yuqi proudly like a child, with uncontrollable happiness between his eyebrows, he let go of Gu Yuqi's hand, and a little bit, the person rose gently, and then he flew and swept away After crossing the sea of ​​flowers, he fiddled with his hands at will, and a large number of fireflies were driven out of the sea of ​​​​flowers along with his figure and floated in the air. Du Xia flew back to Gu Yuqi's side, and She stood side by side, she looked at the beauty in front of her, but he was looking at her.

It's really beautiful. The blue lake is full of broken silver cast by the moonlight. The large blue sea of ​​flowers around it is already like a dream. Now it is decorated with fireflies floating in the air. It's a fairyland on earth. Same.

Gu Yuqi's nose suddenly became sour, no one had ever done this for her before.

Aware of Gu Yuqi's strangeness, Du Xia was startled, "What's wrong with you?" He asked in a little panic, "Don't you like it?"

Her eyes were so red that she couldn't hide it, Gu Yuqi hurriedly turned her face away, pulled up her sleeves and wiped away the tears that had poured out of the corners of her eyes.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know you didn't like it. I'll take you out of here." Du Xia was already panicking, he really didn't want to make Gu Yuqi cry, but she was crying now. He hoped that she could always smile, because she smiled beautifully. The moment she turned her back just now, Du Xia had already seen the sparkling tears in her eyes. He was about to die of fright. He didn't know what he was doing. What was wrong, actually caused her to cry.

"Where are you taking me?" Gu Yuqi turned her head suddenly, looking at Du Xia with red eyes, her voice suddenly became cold.

"I'll take you back. Or you want to go somewhere else. I'll take you there too!" Du Xia took two steps back in fright and said.

"Who do you think you are?" Gu Yuqi couldn't bear it any longer, and said sorry over and over again in her heart. The corners of her eyes were red and her eyes were wide, because this could prevent tears from gushing out again.

"I..." Du Xia obviously didn't expect Gu Yuqi to ask such a question suddenly, he was terrified and didn't know how to answer.

"What qualifications do you have to take me back?" Gu Yuqi said sharply, she took a step forward and looked up at Du Xia, "What qualifications do you have to stand in front of me!"

"I..." Du Xia's eyes completely dimmed, and his heart suddenly froze together, as if the air around him had also suddenly froze. He didn't understand why it was fine just now, but now Gu Yuqi suddenly became so angry with him, did he do something wrong?

She doesn't like it here, so to speak, why is she questioning him like this.

"It's just a little secret guard." Gu Yuqi clenched her fists tightly, so that her nails were deeply embedded in her palm, the pain would make her save her senses, she should drive Du Xia away, can't stay any longer Get off him and give him any room to imagine. "What do you think you are, Du Xia, I have endured you for a long time! It's just because you have traveled thousands of miles to come out with you, don't get me wrong. What do you mean by bringing me here? What do I mean by these?"

"I..." Du Xia was completely speechless by Gu Yuqi, and only said a few words "I". Gu Yuqi in front of her seemed to have become another person in an instant, calling him a stranger.

Her eyes were red, and for some reason, there was a contemptuous smile on her lips, and she raised her head high, so noble.

Compared to her, she is really nothing... Du Xia's heart seemed to have fallen into an endless abyss, and unstoppable bursts of cold swept through her body.

He took a few steps back and opened the distance between Gu Yuqi and Gu Yuqi. The originally flying eyes disappeared from the corners of his eyes, and the joy on the corners of his lips disappeared. He looked at Gu Yuqi in disbelief, his eyebrows locked. is deep pain.

"You said to come and see me. Well, now that you see it, get out!" Gu Yuqi's heart slammed, and she scolded, "The farther away, the better, don't come again! You are not welcome here. I also do not welcome you! "

"Why?" After Gu Yuqi finished speaking, Du Xia didn't say a word for a long time. Finally, he suppressed the heartache and slowly asked these three words.

"Why are you still asking?" Gu Yuqi's eyes twitched, "How dare you ask such a naive question. What is your identity, what is my identity? Who gave you the courage to make you think you are qualified to come here? Me? Du Xia, don't forget your status! If I misunderstood you in the past, I'm here to say sorry to you, you misunderstood. I'm good to you but pity you. , is no different from a poor dog."

Gu Yuqi's words made Du Xia's body shake slightly, and the boy's heart shattered in the night wind, and Du Xia could hear his own heartbreak.

He couldn't say anything, just lowered his head deeply in front of her.

Yes, what is his identity, and why does he come to see her... He shouldn't show up, he should just look at her from a distance, and leave immediately when she knows she's safe, so that he won't Hear such harsh words.

"Go away, go back to the capital, and continue to be your secret guard." Gu Yuqi saw that he didn't move, and continued to scold. It was the first time she felt that the swearing words were so difficult to say, it was really difficult. Watching Du Xia's face gradually turning pale. Gu Yuqi couldn't stand it any more times, but she still said ruthlessly, "I'll go back myself, get out of here immediately. I don't want to see you!"

"I'll take you back." The blood on Du Xia's face had completely disappeared, but he still raised his dark eyes and said softly to Gu Yuqi.

"No!" Gu Yuqi turned her face away and dared not look at Du Xia again, she was really afraid of seeing him now.

"I'll send you back." Du Xia said stubbornly, as if he could only say these words now. In fact, he can only say this sentence. God knows what he said. How much effort.

"I said no!" Gu Yuqi shook her head irritably, "Don't you understand people's language? I told you to get out! I don't need you to send me. I will go back myself, do you think you are the only one who can do it lightly? You Do you think you are the only one who can climb over that city wall? Don't think too much of yourself, Du Xia, you are nothing in front of me!"

"I'll send you back!" Du Xia said stubbornly, his heart was broken and couldn't be broken any more. If he could, he really wanted to beg her to stop talking. Every word she said now seemed to be used Like the knife slicing his flesh little by little, he endured the heartache and repeated this sentence to Gu Yuqi over and over again.

"You're really annoying!" Gu Yuqi felt that she was going to drive her crazy compared to Du Xia. It was already terrible to say these words against her heart, but why wasn't he angry? He should be angry. It's not going back.

Why can't I drive them away!

"I'll take you back." Du Xia was like a machine, repeating this sentence completely, swearing not to give up until his goal was achieved.

"I don't want you to send it!" Gu Yuqi really wanted to pull her hair, why would she face such a stubborn young man, but she had no way to take him, she could only continue to stimulate him and make him give up on herself.

"You like me, don't you?" Gu Yuqi suddenly slowed down her tone and looked at Du Xia with charming eyes. Her heart was also very uncomfortable, and even her eyes were a little erratic. Fortunately, it was night.

Du Xia's heart suddenly trembled. Did she see it? Did she notice it? Yes, he likes her... Maybe when missing has become instinctive, he knew that he liked her the first time he saw her in Jiangxia City. That kind of deep-rooted love, missing her is like a poison that has already passed. As the years passed, it penetrated into his blood.

No matter what she said, he liked her, it was indelible.

Gu Yuqi took two steps forward and approached Du Xia. She slowly raised her hand and touched his cheek. Her eyes were so dark that it was impossible to see what she wanted to say or do.

Du Xia was shocked, feeling the temperature brought by Gu Yuqi's hand. Her hand slowly slid across his face, and finally landed on his neck. He couldn't help swallowing a mouthful of spit, and his Adam's apple rolled over. For a moment, he felt a little breathless.

"Are you worthy?" Gu Yuqi's eyes disappeared, and her hand suddenly grabbed his neck fiercely, "Du Xia, I will tell you clearly today! You are not worthy! So, get out. Don't let it go. I'll see you again! I'll feel disgusted! I feel disgusted by staying with you for a while, as far as you can go!" She pushed hard, pushing Du Xia away.

Gu Yuqi's last sentence finally became the last straw that overwhelmed Du Xia.

He took a few steps back before standing up, his face was ashen, and his eyes were also dead.

He didn't even dare to look at her again, turned around silently, and ran wildly in a random direction.

He tried his best to find her, wanted to see her, made sure of her safety, wanted to get close to her, but what he got was such hurtful words, something seemed to be pulled out of his chest, and it was instantly empty. After a big chunk, he can only run hard, she hates him, she thinks he is disgusting...

Why is this! He didn't dare to look back at her, he just wanted to run away while he still had a trace of self-esteem.

He wanted to cry out, but he wanted to cry again, and he had not known the taste of tears for a long time.

The wind whistled past his ears, which made his cheeks hurt, and his eyes gradually blurred. He almost ran in a panic, not knowing how long or how far he had run, waiting for him to stop. When he came down, he felt that he was almost out of breath.

Slowly leaning on the trunk of a big tree by the roadside, Du Xia's body slid softly and fell to the ground. He couldn't help but burst into laughter again. Tears of laughter came out. It's like the funniest thing in the world has just happened.

Watching Du Xia escape, Gu Yuqi also breathed a sigh of relief, fell into the sea of ​​flowers, and was startled by a firefly. Those floating little creatures surrounded her like a galaxy, as if mocking her.

Gathering, separation and reunion, mixed with joy and sorrow, everything seemed to become less important, as if she was the only one left between heaven and earth.

She knew that her words would hurt Du Xia, but if she was given another chance, she would still say it.

The current sadness is better than the future injuries and injuries. Du Xia deserves better things. It is not that he is not worthy of him, but that he is not worthy of him.

She didn't want Du Xia to understand her painstaking efforts, she only hoped that her painstaking efforts were not in vain.

She will silently bless him and achieve his brilliant future. He will still become the Weiyuan Hou of Daqi in the future, and his name will go down in history.

And she, if possible, let her go through this life quietly, the world is nothing but Nanke's dream, her dream has been dreamed again and again, and she will be tired.

Gu Yuqi stood up tiredly and walked towards Kuizhou silently.

It turns out that the road that two people walk together seems so short, but the road that one person has to walk is so long. The moonlight brightens the road in front of her but does not illuminate the road she wants to walk in the distance.

She thought that rebirth was just a plug-in, but it was not the case. She experienced many things for the first time. After re-experiencing it, she realized that she would still be sad and heartache, but she did not regret it.

Although Yun Ke is cold-hearted, Gu Yuqi has to admit that he is better than her in many areas.

Gu Yuqi staggered along the road alone, and suddenly heard the sound of horse hooves behind her. She looked back blankly, and saw a carriage rushing out of the darkness, rushing towards her like lightning.

"Get out of the way!" The driver apparently saw that there was another person on the road, and he yelled at Gu Yuqi while restraining his horse in panic.

Gu Yuqi came back to her senses, flashed to the side, and the carriage stopped beside her.

The horse pulling the cart was strangled by the driver's neck and leaned back, the eyes were as big as the copper bells, and the nose was panting heavily.

"You don't want to die!" the driver couldn't help cursing, "A big girl's family, what are you doing outside in the middle of the night! I don't think it's a good person!"

Gu Yuqi was stunned at first, then she laughed absentmindedly, not a good person! It's true that she is really not a good person, even passers-by can see it, why can't that fool Du Xia see it.

"Don't be unreasonable!" A warm voice came from the carriage, "You're scaring people. Don't hurry up and apologize!"