Chapter 109
how she loves (1) ============================= 1.
Young-ae, the duke of the silver lily, is standing in the midnight hallway.
Behind Young-ae, there is a huge mirror.
full body mirror.
smooth and clean.
In the mirror where the moonlight slides, only Yeong-ae's straight back shines.
The only thing reflected in the mirror was a single point of moonlight and a single strand of hair.
“I have no words.”
"......." "It's a troubled face.
you have a clear expression It is readable even at night.
Just by looking at your face, you can tell that this is the [first] time.”
1st? Since before, my heart was pounding with anxiety.
It still is.
Why does the silver lily Young-ae use her friendly tone? A sword that is cold and cold to anyone.
The month of the Ivancia family.
The reason why she will be kind to me, the butler of the golden sister...
none.
there will be no “...I didn't know what to say, so I stopped being silent.
If I have been rude, please forgive me.
Little peasant.
This… Are you dreaming? Did the little duke also appear in my dream?”
Silver Lily Young-ae's reaction to my words was to put on a very strange expression.
The smile on her lips somehow felt like a scar.
“That's an interesting question.
okay.
Your dreams have swallowed up my life.
I see now that love is just giving one's life to someone's dream.”
What does it mean? “I become your dream, you become my life, exchanging dreams and lives with each other is what we call love.”
What does it mean? So I didn't know what that meant.
There were many other things I didn't know.
Silver Lily Young-ae explained one of the things she didn't know with a stern smile.
“But I probably didn’t mean to ask in a romantic way.
Don't take it seriously Don't worry if you're wondering if the servants can't see you.
I have been bitten.”
"why… … ""And I warn you.
Don't call me [peacock] with those lips again." Silver Lily Young-ae smiled.
“I will cut out your heart and kill you.”
"......" I don't understand.
Just now, the duke of the silver lily has embraced me to live.
saying you're going to kill me.
It was never a lie.
It wasn't even a lie.
If I call her 'Duke' one more time, her rapier will surely pierce my heart.
I would.
'Why?' Why is the life that Duke Young-ae sent to me is not cold and Lee Da-ji is only warm? How could a declaration to kill someone be so comfortable? “Come over here.”
Her voice called me like a beckoning.
I couldn't refuse.
As I approached Young-ae, the Duke of the Silver Lily, she pointed to me in the full-length mirror.
“What do you see?”
“… … I see Young-ae standing next to me.”
"and?" “The dark hallway… the moonlight barely shines.
I can barely see anything except Young-ae and me.
Everything is shrouded in darkness.”
"and?" the peacock young-ae asked.
It was weird.
She was asking for a different answer.
As if there was still something left to see in the mirror.
But what can reflect more in the mirror? “And what else do you see?”
"......." "Do not hide it, say it." I decided to look a little harder in the mirror.
He narrowed his brow and furrowed his eyebrows.
But even then, the appearance was the same.
'I can only see darkness.
With exceptionally red eyes...
.' That was the moment.
Chewing! The headache was intense.
Incomprehensible words flashed before my eyes.
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The nausea was intense.
-Kim■Ja ■圖 Jae■ ■■ ■Ryeo! [■■■■ Dragon ■■■ ■■■■■ ■■■■Everything!] Reflexively, I wrapped my hands around my neck.
For a moment, my neck hurt, and I didn't know why.
I had no choice but to leave the unknown as unknown, so I thought of something else.
'I'm glad it's empty.' It didn't cause vomiting.
Vomiting in front of the enemy of the Duke of Ivancia, it was terrifying to even imagine.
I swallowed desperately.
Silver Lily Young-ae was calm.
“I asked what you saw.”
A very cold-hearted person.
A bitter taste spread across the tip of his tongue.
“The letters… I see strange letters.
And the voice...
Strange voices...
I do not know." “Voice.”
Silver Lily Young-ae smiled slightly at that.
This smile was more like a smile than the one before.
“You are loved.”
“What do you mean… .”
“Tell me about the letters.”
I just stared blankly at her, who moved on to the next without explanation.
She, who had already made her smile dry, repeated it calmly without any sign of urging.
“Didn’t I say that I saw strange characters? Tell me.”
“… It doesn't look good.
I can't even see the complete letters...
All you can see is the letters...
Fragments… ?”
“Recite at least one fragment.”
“Win… Kite… Other than that, absolutely.
anything." "Well." Young-ae, the duke of the silver lily, touched her chin.
For some reason, she was furrowing her eyebrows.
"indeed.
[Seung] is [Teacher], and [Yeon] is [Lover].
What you left behind at the end of the end is very much like you.
But is the teacher in front of the lover? I get it, but I don't like it." “Young-ae, there are so many things that I didn’t understand before.
Young-ae said this was not a dream, but then what do you want from me?”
“I want you.”
“I’m sorry.
I also don't understand...
… ““What did you dream?”
Young-ae, Duke of the Silver Lily, cut my words off simply: 'Even though I'm the enemy of the Ivancia family-.' 'Surely, she is the only butler among the four golden sisters-.' 'The Crown Prince favors young girls, and this kind of treatment is-.' Countless thoughts cluttered my mind, but none of them made my heart flutter.
They shook like music that lost their rhythm.
They soon broke apart.
"I don't remember very well, but in my dreams..." What he got was an answer that obeyed the duke's question.
“In a dream.”
“… … Young-ae looked at me and shed tears.”
Yes.
“I sit in a chair… Perhaps his whole body was tied to a chair.
like a rope.
I couldn't figure out why I was tied up, but in the splendid room, only Young-ae was there, looking down at me.”
just before waking up.
Obviously I have seen such a sight.
“My heart ached.
The chest… It was pierced by the blade that Young-ae stabbed.
However, it seems that wasn't the only thing.
In my dream, I..." "You?" “…I remember that I felt very guilty about Young-ae.”
"okay." Young-ae, the duke of the silver lily, smiled again.
Just seeing that smile made me cry, so my stomach churned.
“……”
“Do you know why you had such a dream?”
“No.
I don’t know.
Not at all…”
“Because that is the [trauma] I have.”
Trauma: "I haven't said it yet.
My mother committed suicide." "It's so young that I don't know why she committed suicide.
The duke's wife.
Ivancia's moon.
For someone with enough power and wealth to end his life on his own." I don't know why, but I vividly remember the last night my mother called me and whispered to me, and the scene where everyone quietly cremated my mother's death.”
This.
This, this, I shouldn't know.
I shouldn't even have heard of it.
To know that such a scoundrel is hidden in the Duke of Ivancia.
A terrible secret that is too difficult to use as a tool for political strife.
"But." Young Ae, the Duke of the Silver Lily, looked at me and said, “Even that memory is no longer my trauma.”
"......." "The Crown Prince handed the golden samae a blue coral ring today." One step, a silver lily young Ae came up to me and said, "In my past life, I was desperate or angry.
You can say I was jealous and jealous.
Everything filled my heart.
I tapped my heart in the mirror and pressed it.”
There were no footsteps, and only then did I realize that she was barefoot, "but even that is no longer my trauma." Young-ae's foot stepped on my shoe.
A light and insignificant weight gripped one of my feet.
If I wanted to back away, I would back away, and if I wanted to, I would free myself.
The ten days that were repeated like that.”
Young-ae's hand drew closer: "The way my world is drenched in blood.
The images of demons who mimicked my tongue and lips and spread ridicule.
Everything that once hurt my heart, is no longer mine.
It is not trauma.”
Thin grips."No." M.
“From now on, only you have the right to hurt my heart.”
Her hands gripped my neck lightly: "If the man with the most vicious tongue in the world curses for two days, it's not as bad as the sigh you inadvertently threw at me." From the little finger to the index finger, from the thinnest to the thickest, I could feel every pressure she put on me: “The most venomous man in the world beating and whipping, more than the sneer you shed at me.
Even if it is impossible to count the countless people who can kill my body in this world, there is only one person who can hurt and kill my soul.
neck is tight “Young, baby… … ""Stupid.
I warned you wisely." “If you scar my heart, I will kill you.”
“You.
You have scarred me.”
Warm flesh, red eyes smiled, "I haven't broken a promise since I was four.
Die." "......, ...." "Die and love me again." I am.
Why can't I resist [You are dead.] And.
[Reproduces the trauma of the enemy who killed you.] [The penalty is medium (medium).] [Agwido.] A dream in a dream has unfolded.
I don't want to kill him.
Looking at the man in front of him, Raviel Ivancia thought.
I don't want to lose.
Once again, Raviel Ivancia, even thinking about how powerful a human being with a strong desire for monopoly, was funny.
- Princess.
Think about it.
If you were a princess, you could think of exactly the same thing that I had in mind.
The princess is a regressor just like me.
dangerous man.
Rabiel quickly noticed what he was plotting.
He was willing to fully immerse himself in the role of 'the butler'.
So, if you return one day from the 'dealer's point of view', you will return to the time before you gave your heart to the mirror.
It can turn the game board itself upside down.
'What a brilliant idea.' It would be a ploy to pierce the loophole of the tower.
'With a gentle face, what kind of hair do you use to draw out such a gimmick?' It felt good to know that the man he fell in love with wasn't stupid.
okay.
It was very pleasant.
Nevertheless, Rabiel Ivancia was against it.
- Confucius.
Dangerous.
The reason was clear.
- I can't remember you.
He himself, Raviel Ivancia, does not remember Gongja Kim.
Even if you could go back the day before and stop your act of piercing the mirror, thereby preventing the eternal ten-day tragedy from repeating itself, it means nothing if you don't remember yourself.
-I don't want to live.
-I want to live with you.
The days I spent with you.
For the first time ever, he allowed me to take a full moon holiday.
All those memories make up who I am today.
When it disappears, it can no longer be Raviel Ivancia.
Do you know, the man in front of you? The fact that he was not at all grateful for escaping from the maze of ten days like that.
-it's okay.
maybe you knew - I'll make sure to solve it somehow.
If you see me talking stupidly.
- Trust me.
-.......
Rabiel Ivancia was silent.
I was momentarily paralyzed by the harshness of those words.
believe me Trusting people for no reason.
Belatedly, belatedly, I regretted myself a few days ago when I promised to trust you.
However, Raviel Ivancia was too urgent to be paralyzed and engulfed in regret.
'Believe.' trust the man you love I believe in the competence of this man.
He's the man he's chosen his own person Surely he will succeed in [somehow] persuading the tower to return to the day before.
The real problem comes after that.
'How do I get back the level of immersion that has risen to over 90%?' If he succeeds in reverting back to the day before, he must first remember nothing of himself.
Even if I remember it, it will be just a vague feeling.
It is impossible to recall the days spent with him concretely.
'.......' no.
'Wait a minute.' There is a way.
Raviel groaned at the way he remembered it, and groaned once more.
The opinion that all the poison of the Empire came from her own heart ran through her head.
It wasn't long.
Couldn't do that for a long time.
Rabiel Ivancia realized that she was going to do it that way.
'I,' So Rabiel Ivancia recalled in her own heart the way she had thought of and how to decide.
'I just need to kill this man.' trauma.
He confessed to himself almost everything about him.
informed His ability has the side effect of peering into the memory of the person who killed him.
'If only I could use this moment as a trauma.' He will glimpse [now] at the moment he killed himself.
Not your past, but the very moment you are thinking about right now.
-.......
then.
if only i could -I can tell him all the things I want to say, the memories I want to pass on to him.
-He can be reminded once again through me.
-okay.
Raviel was sure of success.
-I'm your first bastard, so you'll be my last bastard.
Confucius.
-Really, I ended up having a bad guy as my lover.
are you listening I am happy to have you I don't want to lose you.
I don't want to miss the time I spent with you like this.
you said He said, 'I will write a diary from today'.
I said that to show you all of your day.
Was that a lie? you said He said, 'I'm going to learn music'.
I wish I could have a quiet evening listening to your music.
Was that wish really a lie? I want to see your day.
I want to say goodbye to dinner with you.
Your day will surely make me smile, and my evening with you will be happy.
I want my smile to overlap with your happiness.
I don't want to kill you.
I don't want to lose you.
- Are you okay? -Yes… … Still, it's okay...
… more.
-Are you asking for more kisses? How pampered, my sweetheart.
look at me see you with me you are a stupid person to the point of being naive It is questionable how he will live in the world with such innocence, but soon the question will be answered, that is, he must have died thousands of times.
There are many reasons to abandon innocence.
There are few reasons to remain naive.
I say that you are pure, even if you have many reasons, you do not throw them away, and you keep at least a few reasons.
I love your innocence.
-Are you okay yet? - Raviel...
… .
Are you afraid of losing yourself? is it scary -I love you.
I love you, Raviel...
… .
-Know.
Okay.
- Even if I'm reborn, I'll still love you...
… .
I am here As I believe in you, you also believe in me.
depend on me - So, I will never forget you.
Even if I die, I won't forget you...
-I know.
You alone cannot protect yourself.
I alone cannot protect the world.
But if it's just you and me, we can do anything.
I'm afraid too.
It's scary to kill you.
I am terribly afraid to approach you even though I know it will hurt me.
But my fears don't stand in the way of being with you.
see -… … Oh My God.
You, who has sunk in the role of a butler, tells me.
- Little Duke.
throb.
my heart is numb sick.
I feel sorry for you, who calls me a [Little Duke] instead of a [Princess].
- Are you sure you kidnapped me now? unbelievable face.
It hurts to look at me with a suspicious face.
It is painful to react as if you are seeing me for the first time in your life.
- Excessive.
Even if the power of the Duke of Ivancia could cover the sky, it would be too much.
You hate the golden sister so much that you want to intimidate me, your servant.
Listen.
This is the wound you left me - Confucius.
don't forget -… … Who are you looking for? never.
Don't forget even when you die.
- My lover.
The man who gave my heart to me.
-I'm the man I'll give my heart to.
you are here dwell in my heart - Come on.
-.......
-I'm not waiting for you.
are you listening do you hear Confucius.
I love you.110.