Chapter 158:
Lin Chengyu actually wanted to speak, but he also wanted to ask what was going on. Did he hear it wrong?
Are you kidding me? Jiang Xiao is healthy and healthy. He has never suffered from any serious illness in fifteen years. He has very few colds and fevers. How could he suddenly get such a serious illness?
But he opened his mouth, but no sound came out. He lost his words for a while, forgetting how to speak.
After a business trip for a month and a half, he came back for two weeks. He and Jiang Xiao lost contact for a total of two months. When I heard the news from him again, it was Jiang Xiao who confirmed the news of the advanced stage of leukemia.
...is this some kind of nightmare?
He had suffered a slight concussion by Song He before, and in recent days he did feel dizzy from time to time.
But when he heard the news, he felt not only dizzy, but also so dark that he couldn't stand.
Aunt Chen later said that he didn't even hear it clearly, and the voice slipped past his ear.
It was a fear born from the bottom of his heart that he couldn't feel anything in the outside world, not even his heartbeat.
Jiang Xiao is sick.
advanced leukemia.
He mechanically digested this huge amount of information for him, and slowly chewed these words. These words were like blades that came in from his ears and stabbed into his heart. As soon as he chewed, they rolled over in his heart. The blade cut his flesh and blood, bringing an indescribable pain.
Then he thought of something else.
——Such a serious illness, and he has yet to find Jiang Xiao.
Now that he is on the verge of collapse, he hangs with a little rationality, thinking of finding Jiang Xiao, but this rationality pushes him to see more and more cruel things.
With the information provided by Accountant Chen, Lin Chengyu can find information much faster when looking for relationships.
He actually felt that Jiang Xiao had an accident from Song He and wanted to go to the hospital to find it. There are many Liujiang Hospitals, but not everyone can see the data of the medical system.
Even if a relationship is found, the data is segmented. Each hospital has its own system, and each system has its own authority. In some older hospitals, some information is only recorded in paper. He just provided an identity information, and he didn't know which hospital to see a doctor, what disease he was looking for, and what time it was, and others couldn't find it.
After going through the past few days, I can only tell him at most that there is currently no hospitalization record for Jiang Xiao in the major hospitals in Liujiang.
Accountant Chen is different from him, her purpose is much clearer-Jiang Xiao's medical report, the time is still very clear, and as soon as she looks for it, she is right.
Following the medical report, Lin Chengyu finally got the printed case list.
No one lied to him, nor was it an illusion.
It was confirmed that it was an advanced stage of leukemia.
He sat on the floor of the hospital, the expression on his face frozen there, as if time stood still.
Don't talk about him, Lin Chengyu's friends stopped talking when they saw this, and looked at each other with unpredictable expressions.
During this period of time, no matter what they were doing, they were all brought out by Lin Chengyu to find someone for him. Where have you seen him go crazy like this?
Jiang Xiao's friends also repeatedly obstructed, and all of them scolded Lin Chengyu with blood.
Isn't it just that the husband and wife are unhappy? Why make it so ugly.
But when the facts were exposed little by little, it proved that those people were all right, and even verbal scolding was considered light.
Just looking at the time, Jiang Xiao was diagnosed with leukemia at the beginning of the year, and now it is almost August.
Lin Chengyu really didn't know at all, and he didn't even find out about this matter. It was the old accountant of Jiang Xiao Company, an ordinary middle-aged woman in her 40s who found it herself, and later told him.
It's just that Lin Chengyu has a wider network of contacts, and he found out more details later, but it is unbelievable that he has fallen one step further.
A pair of lovers can't understand him better than a subordinate in Jiang Xiao's factory.
Thinking again, when Jiang Xiao was seriously ill, Lin Chengyu was at his best, the company was booming, and he kept talking at various meetings and interviews, and he did not stop from the beginning of the year to the middle of the year.
At the beginning of the year, I spent most of my time in Binhai, and then I went abroad. I went home during this period, but I didn't find it.
I don't know how Jiang Xiao felt when he saw this.
...isn't that weird?
The group of friends around Lin Chengyu are basically worth a lot of money, and some of them are playboys who pursue the game world, but when they heard this kind of thing, no one stood on Lin Chengyu's side with no conscience.
Fifteen years of relationship, and now the other party is terminally ill, a little snack will not make it like this.
But apart from what others saw, Lin Chengyu knew more. The truth is more piercing than it appears.
There was a time in the medical record, and he remembered the time.
It turned out that Jiang Xiao called him so many times that day to tell him about his illness.
But he didn't receive it, and asked Secretary Lin to return to him. Secretary Lin exposed his attitude towards Jiang Xiao in front of him not long ago, and his tone must have been very bad that day.
In addition to the phone call, Jiang Xiao also sent messages on WeChat. Lin Chengyu had read it over the past few days, but looking at it now, he finally felt Jiang Xiao's panic and confusion at that time.
"I have something to tell you."
"It's better to speak face to face."
"When are you coming back?"
"It's urgent."
"Come back to me if you're free, okay?"
"..."
He didn't see it immediately, but just replied an hour later: "I'm busy, Xiaoxiao, I'll contact you later."
Then he asked Secretary Lin to call.
Jiang Xiao did not wait for him in the end.
How sad he must have been at that time.
He originally wanted to tell himself, but in the end he didn't have the chance to say it.
But the most useless emotion in the world is regret. What he has done himself, no amount of pain can remedy it now.
...
Lin Mishu's position in the company dropped again and again a few days ago. To be honest, she didn't understand why. Today, she was suddenly pulled out and asked about Jiang Xiao. It was more than half a year ago, how could she remember what she said.
"...He really didn't tell me anything!" She emphasized repeatedly, "I just told him the fact that the company was busy according to President Lin's intention!"
She really can't figure out what Lin Chengyu is doing now. The basic operation of watching people serve dishes is very common to her, and she doesn't feel that she is at fault until now.
Her work is already in a mess, and when I ask today, I know that this company will probably not be able to stay on by herself, anyway, she has torn her face, and in the end, she starts to say nothing to Lin Chengyu.
"Why does Mr. Lin pretend to be affectionate with me here? Jiang Xiao ran away in anger, frustrated in love, and wanted to put the blame on me, an ordinary employee?" She sneered, "I only convey your meaning to him every time. I said the same when you called him to confront him!"
Lin Chengyu stood opposite her.
After listening to this sentence, he was silent there without refuting.
If Jiang Xiao told Secretary Lin at that time and she deliberately didn't tell him, she could still explain it to him, but she didn't.
About that time, Jiang Xiao was already extremely disappointed with him.
Indeed, the problems between him and Jiang Xiao can't be blamed on anyone else at all.
It's all his fault, it's all caused by him, he doesn't care about Jiang Xiao, so the people around him don't care about them either.
After Jiang Xiao fell ill and disappeared, he realized later that I cared about him so much.
It turns out that I love him a hundred times more deeply than I imagined.
He realized this fact in desperation, and now he is at a loss and does not know where to go, and is much sadder than when there was no news before, but he still can't see Jiang Xiao.
This is the torture and punishment he deserves.
Lin Chengyu hadn't slept well for more than ten days, and today is the same. When he got home at night, he didn't dare to go back to the bedroom to look at the empty bed. He took his mobile phone and read the messages Jiang Xiao sent him over and over.
Late at night, in the house where all the lights were turned off, he made another call to the phone that couldn't get through, with trembling fingers.
"...Xiaoxiao, it's me."
- "The phone you dialed has been switched off, please try again later."
"I'm sorry, it's too late to call you," he couldn't help crying, and quickly reached out to wipe it away, trying to make his voice normal so that the other side could hear clearly, "I know about your illness. , don't be afraid, I'll come to you right away. Really, everything is not as important as you."
- "The phone you dialed has been switched off, please try again later."
"It's all my fault. I'll never dare again," he continued. "Don't give up, we'll treat the disease well and it will be fine. Don't leave me behind."
He was still holding Jiang Xiao's medical report in his hand, which was wrinkled by him before, but now he unfolded it again, carefully smoothing it out bit by bit.
"Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." He couldn't hold back his tears after all, but still burst into tears, "I found out too late, you can blame me, but I really can't live without you."
But on the other side of the phone, no one answered him except for the mechanical shutdown sound.
The translucent Jiang Xiao sat far away in the restaurant. He had tried it, and this was the furthest distance he could get away.
He heard Lin Chengyu's repentance at the moment, and also witnessed his gradual collapse.
But for Jiang Xiao, these are of little significance. He didn't say anything at that time and chose to leave, not to get revenge on him, but just to be alone.
In the cycle of karma, there is always someone who has to pay for what they missed. He didn't want to torture Lin Chengyu, he tortured himself.
The hospital has already told the truth to Lin Chengyu, it is difficult to live more than half a year after the disease is diagnosed. Maybe it was because his face was too ugly, so he added a few words.
"Of course, if the patient's condition is good and there is stable high-level treatment, it is possible to last for a while. There is a precedent before. The one who was found out three years ago is still alive."
It is a fantasy to cure this kind of disease, and modern medicine is nothing more than prolonging life.
Although it was comfort, Lin Chengyu believed.
He had to believe that the doctor's words were not only Jiang Xiao's life-saving straw, but also his. If he didn't have this hope, he would be crazy.
Jiang Xiao's group of friends still kept it from him. Song He's wife was the best tempered person among them. Lin Chengyu went to Song He's house alone that day. In order to avoid him, the couple had already asked the company for leave and did not go to work during this time. .
After he entered the door, the husband and wife did not expect that he would come to the house.
Song He was angry when he saw him, and immediately chased him with a mop. Lin Chengyu's eyes were blood red and his lips were pale. He hadn't slept well during this period of time, so he couldn't resist and didn't want to resist Song He's beating.
"It's time for me to fight," he said. "Brother Song, after you've finished fighting, please tell me where Xiaoxiao went."
He rummaged through all the major hospitals in Li City, the deep city of Liujiang River, but there was still no record of Jiang Xiao's hospitalization. He would have to suffer ten times more to find someone at this time.
Song He didn't listen, he stretched out his hand to give him a stick.
It turned out that Lin Chengyu's injury caused by him was not good, and he was hit on the shoulder again, which caused quite severe pain, but this level could not stop Lin Chengyu from continuing to speak.
Without asking where Jiang Xiao is, he will not leave today.
"I know that he has been diagnosed with advanced leukemia," Lin Chengyu continued, even if it hurt, he didn't hide at all, he stood and let the other side fight, "I have asked someone to ask about it in the past few days, and hired the best doctor abroad for him. The other party flew to Liujiang from abroad today to check Xiaoxiao. In the future, an expert group will come up with a specific treatment plan. I don't want you to forgive me, and I don't expect Xiaoxiao to forgive me, but the most important thing now is to let him take care of him. cure."
After being diagnosed with the disease a year ago, Jiang Xiao was still there to deal with the factory affairs. He didn't seem to take it seriously, but Lin Chengyu panicked.
After saying this, he took a step forward, and then knelt down to the Song He couple.
"Xiao Xiao's illness really can't be dragged on any longer," his voice was dry, and his heart froze when he knelt on the ground and lowered his head to say this, "He's still young, he can't just be like this..."
Seeing that Song He and his wife couldn't keep fighting like this, he still reached out to stop him.
But in fact, he didn't need to stop him. The words "Take good treatment" seemed to stab Song He. He suddenly became discouraged and threw away the broom in his hand. Without saying a word, he turned his head and went to the study.
After he left, Lin Chengyu still had no intention of getting up. Song He and his wife did not leave, standing there watching him.
There was silence in the house for a while.
"Do you really want to know?" she said suddenly, her voice indifferent, "Actually, it's been so many days, let me tell you something from the bottom of my heart, the two of you shouldn't be together in the first place. Go back now and forget about Jiang Xiao. , don't dwell on this matter, it may be a better choice to let go of Jiang Xiao and yourself."
The translucent Jiang Xiao nodded sharply beside him.
But how could Lin Chengyu forget Jiang Xiao at this time, the other party said one more sentence, he wanted to kowtow: "Please tell me."
Then he looked at the other party, found a pen and paper, and wrote the address of Xingfushu Hospital on it.
"Go there to find Dr. Liu, she is Jiang Xiao's attending doctor," she said. "Go if you want."
Lin Chengyu, who was kneeling on the ground, stumbled abruptly when he got up, but he didn't care.
The small note in his hand was like a treasure to him now, and it finally gave him the only hope in these 20 painful days, a little light from the sky.
But he soon learned that this was not hope.