Chapter 12:
"What's wrong? If you don't eat it, it will be wasted."
So why did you order two on your own?
But as C.C said, if you don't eat it, it will be wasted. There is no such thing as a return service in the pizza restaurant. Shame on people wasting food, Arabs don't know how many starving children...what's my business?
Roman looked at the pizza on the table with a tangled face, and then had an idea and asked the waiter to bring a pair of disposable gloves. Then, under the bluish eyes of C.C and the waiter, the pizza was kneaded into a ball.
Mmm, this bread is delicious.
Chapter 26, Chapter 25, The Nature of Romance (Part 1)
"Bringing you out was definitely the worst decision of my life."
"Don't say that. A person's life is not long or short. Maybe sixty years from now, you will find that what happened today is nothing but a wave that embellishes your life."
"My life couldn't have been worse than this, and I don't feel like I'm still alive in 60 years."
How old can a person live? This question cannot be answered. Although the medical conditions are very prosperous now, there are even 140-year-old old people, but who knows if he will collapse due to an accident in the next moment? It's not about having fun in time, the most important thing is to cherish the present, because what you get is what you have, and what you will get may never be obtained.
"Be a little bit optimistic, if people have negative thoughts or, life can be very bad."
Roman just regarded C.C's words as a negative attitude towards life. Although she didn't feel that she needed comfort or that her words could work, she still had to do what she should do. Even if it is a suspicious woman with a bad personality, Roman still hopes that C.C can live a positive and sunny life.
"Think about what you have and what you want to achieve. Although people's life is short, it can be very splendid. I always worry about here and there, and I can't do anything in the end."
"Aha? Are you comforting me?"
C.C looked at Roman contemptuously. But that's an obvious consolation, isn't it? Even if there is no answer, C.C has already got the answer, or it is precisely because he knows that Roman is comforting her, so C.C is not happy.
"Little devil, I've lived more life than you've ever met, so I'd better keep such lame comforts to myself. Who do you think I am? I'm C.C."
For a moment, what do you mean by "I've lived more than you've ever met"? Is this kind of thing comparable? But it's really self-indulgent. This woman doesn't want to feel sorry for herself. She feels that if she can't find the joy of life, she will definitely look for fun on some unlucky person.
"What about you? GEASS has been unable to help you retrieve your memory. Do you want to continue looking for it? But from last night, it seemed that you didn't care much."
I didn't care at all—speaking of the reason why he made a wish to "restore memory" in the church at the beginning, it was because he had nothing else to do at that time. Compared with before, "recovering memory" was closer to life. It's more like "should do" rather than "want to do".
People with amnesia want to restore memory, Roman is a person with amnesia, so Roman wants to restore memory. Although Roman doesn't care about the memory of the past, Roman should restore his memory, so Roman looks for a way to restore his memory. - This is why Roman promised to "restore memory", an inference that is logically correct, but absolutely incorrect for Roman.
"I should restore my memory, shouldn't I? Everyone in the student council wants me to get back my old memory, and they are all working hard to help. If I don't do this, I will be sorry for everyone's expectations."
In fact, Roman sometimes thought about working hard for this, not for himself at that time, but thinking that his former self should have loved his family and his better friends. Just imagine, if one day Nanali and Lelouch disappear without a sound, Roman must be in a hurry too, right? So Roman is also working hard for the family mother who doesn't know whether it exists or not. If he can retrieve his memory, he can reunite with his family. Maybe his parents have been trying to find out about him.
It's just... Whenever this happens, there's always a strange force that makes Roman resist trying to do this, as if saying "give it up, your parents don't care about you" or "you don't have parents at all" or something like that , Over time, Roman's memory of himself became more and more negative.
"Tsk."
C.C suddenly made an indecent snarl, and Roman realized that she was staring at him, and she could even feel a hot anger
Why are you angry? Are you still mad about spoiling the pizza just now? No, the anger that pizza brought has subsided just now, that's the other reason—
"I'm asking you a few questions, I hope you can answer truthfully."
C.C reluctantly suppressed his anger and said, this state of forbearance is reminiscent of an active volcano that is about to erupt, and Roman, who is sitting opposite her, has already felt an inexplicable crisis.
"If I could answer, I wouldn't say no..."
"Okay, let's talk about what you just said- Forget it, let me put it another way. Have you planned for the future? If you can't find the memory of the past, what are you going to do?"
Really bad question, can't it be asked more clearly? What do you plan or do for the future, probably...
"Actually, I have thought about becoming a doctor, but medicine is more difficult than I imagined. If I can't do it, I plan to use my talent to be a translator or a teacher in Ashford. Is that a good answer?"
"The reason?"
"The reason? Well - when the doctor was for Nanali's legs and eyes, it was said that her eyes were not damaged, more because of mental illness, but the bones and nerves of both legs were injured, I hope to cure her. Lelouch had said that being an interpreter would make me a good life, and it would be better if I could serve a great nobleman or enter the government. As for teachers, Milley had said that if she didn't want to leave, she would stay in Ashford. Help, she'll ventilate me at Grandpa's."
Delusion? C.C seems to be even more angry.
"And what about yourself?"
"Myself?"
"You haven't thought about what you're going to do? Simply for yourself."
There is really no such thing. Because he did not have a strong desire and did not have a full understanding of society, Roman did not make plans for his future. It's okay to live with each other, even if you walk by, Roman is very satisfied with his current situation.
However, Roman did not know that it was because of his own satisfaction that C.C was very angry.
His hands slammed on the table with a "bang", and even Roman, who had been paying attention to her actions, was startled, and the water glass on the table almost fell.
Then Roman saw C.C's extremely angry face that was beginning to distort.
"Are you kidding me, you guy... I'm going to be attacked by someone like you... how could you be..."
what happened? Why is C.C talking weird? Does this kind of half-speak and half-omission make it hard for the listener to know? Roman really wished he knew lip language, because now except for seeing C.C's lips move silently, all he heard were some meaningless words.
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Chapter 27, Chapter 26, The Nature of Romance (Part 2)
Roman silently looked at C.C, who was already deranged. She murmured incomprehensibly like no one else was around, the anger in her eyes almost burned Roman's head, and the whole person was like a time bomb that exploded at any time.
Roman is ready to "run away at any time if the situation is not right", what exactly C.C will do is not something he can guess. But what Roman didn't expect was that C.C finally calmed down. From that crazy situation, it became normal. That charming face was still cold as frost, as if everything just happened was just an illusion.
Of course Roman didn't understand why C.C had such a big reaction to his answer, and it was even more impossible to know that if someone else noticed C.C's abnormality and did everything to comfort her with a voice that only the two of them could hear, C.C probably Already desperate to kill Roman.
Of course, whether or not to successfully kill Roman is another matter.
C.C, who had calmed down, exuded low air pressure all over her body. Roman, who was sensitive to her depression, didn't dare to make a sound at all, and even the passing waiter hurriedly diverted the route.
Looking at Roman who was at a loss, C.C couldn't help laughing at her anger just now. She was angry for such a person.
It seems to be relaxed and easy, without tension, it is a very gentle type. But C.C has completely understood at this moment that the person in front of him actually has no self at all, but has been acting in response to other people's expectations. There is no desire and no ego. On the surface, people and animals are harmless more because everyone hopes that he is a kind person, so he shows this side. He is like a mirror, which will reflect the character of the person who talks to him.
Roman's rational thinking is not because of "why do I do this", but "how he wants me to do it", which is simply a robot that acts to satisfy others.
That's why C.C thinks it's so stupid to get mad at Roman's words.
At the same time, C.C remembered another thing - Roman came to this world for a very short time, and the only time he left Ashford College was because of Charlie's father's funeral.
"I'm actually fighting against a 'little devil', it seems that the more I live, the more I go back... Don't worry, I'm all right... Ha? Say something stupid, if you really want to do it, I'll be the first to die here... I want If you stop me, don't talk nonsense, just come to me directly..."
C.C glanced at the last piece of pizza left and felt no appetite at all. Looking at Roman's worried and vigilant face again, he felt a sense of unfamiliarity blowing across his face.
"Roman..."
"what?"
"If one day you suddenly found out that you were about to die, what would you do?"
dying? ...Roman glanced at C.C who didn't intend to attack him, and after confirming his safety, he began to think about her problem.
"Probably in the last time, I will finish what I want to do most. Whether it is what I have done or not done, what I want to eat, or confession to the person I love."
"What about you? If you find that you only have the last few days of your life, what are you going to do?"
"Probably... Have a look at the previous magical girl works?"
Roman gave an answer that made him unsure, causing C.C's face to twitch.
"Although I don't know why you are asking such a question, but if I find out about my death, I will make up for my regrets and let myself die peacefully."
Discussing his own death, Roman was surprised to find that he didn't feel anything. It is more appropriate to describe it with the phrase "there is no joy in life, and no fear in death".
"I understand."
Then, C.C left the dining table first and walked out. Roman didn't stop too much, and followed C.C's footsteps and left.
So what did she understand?
If Roman really only had the last few days left, he would probably spend it with everyone in the student council. I spent the last few days quietly, bought the figurines of Hexi-chan to Nanali with the money I saved, and also tried online games and idols that the chairman was not allowed to watch, and wanted to see Lulu in women's clothing. Xiu, that's probably what those wishes are. It doesn't matter if it can't be fulfilled, although I feel very sorry, but Roman doesn't want to trouble others with his "last wish". He is a person who hates tragedy, and if he can, he hopes that he can die in obscurity, not known by everyone, and leave this world silently.
"By the way, there is one thing I must remind you."
C.C, who was walking in front, suddenly stopped, and after making sure Roman listened to her words, he resumed his pace.
"GEASS is a very convenient ability, and its effect will continue to increase as you use it. I have seen countless GEASS, so I know it very well. If there is no mistake, when your GEASS ability reaches its limit, you may be able to in an instant. Read all the memories of a person's past life. So, when you have time, try to use it."
"Really? It's a handy ability, and I'll use it often."
C.C's steps became much lighter, even if she didn't see her face, she knew that she must be in a good mood.
Her mood has become so fast that it is unpredictable, but it is not always a bad thing to be in a better mood.
For Roman, the unexpected place at Ashford College was actually quite new. You can only understand that the outside world is different from TV sets and books, and the feeling of touching it in person and watching pictures is completely different. So Roman looks no different from a country bumpkin, but the people who find it are more inclined to think that Roman is the eldest young master who rarely goes out in the family.
It is worth mentioning that C.C, who was already feeling bored, walked behind Roman, feeling a bit like a servant.
Roman didn't see the clock, so he didn't know what time it was. But the street has brightened up, and there are more and more pedestrians on the road, so it shouldn't be too early. Although they were walking on a commercial street, the two actually didn't have anything they wanted to buy. In the final analysis, it was just a temporary intention to come out this time, and maybe they would disband the next moment because they felt bored. But now that you're out...
"Book?"
"Nanali seems to be very interested in origami recently, but if you keep origami cranes all the time, it will be a little boring. I don't have any skills in this area, so I bought a book about origami."
Because Saki Shiko gave Nanali the strange message that "as long as you fold a thousand paper cranes, your wish will come true", so Nanali has been addicted to paper cranes recently, otherwise she wouldn't have finished watching Magical Girl yesterday.
However, in this case, Kazuki-chan's figure will probably have to wait until the next time.
While walking past the electrical store, Roman accidentally saw a familiar person on the TV.
"Jun Zhuque?"
Something big happened the other day. The terrorist "Black Knights" attacked the prison and rescued the old Japanese soldiers captured by Britannia. The Britannia side was almost defeated by the "Black Knights". At this time, Suzaku-kun drove the Knightmare to defeat the conspiracy of the "Black Knights" and bought precious time for the Britannia military. That is, that night, the third princess Euphemia Li Britannia chose Suzaku-kun as her exclusive knight.
"It's a knight's award ceremony."
Roman decided to watch the award ceremony. Although "Honor Brittanians" was not popular, Suzaku-kun was finally accepted by everyone because of the princess. Aside from the brief embarrassment in the middle, the award ceremony was overall perfect.
"However, Suzaku-kun will not have a good life in the future."
Under C.C's meaningful gaze, Roman said something more certain than guessing, like a prophecy, with an indifferent expression.
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Part 28 Chapter 27
From that day on, Roman never saw C.C again, as if he had disappeared. But he knew that C.C was always around, hiding somewhere in Ashford College, which was Roman's unreasonable feeling. It's not that C.C is nearby, but that the dagger is nearby, which is an inexplicable connection.
Yes, C.C did not return the dagger to Roman, if there is no accident, it is to make Roman surrender next time.
There was no change in the student council, but Lelouch and Suzaku were getting busier and busier. Suzaku is because he was originally a soldier, and now he is the exclusive knight of Princess Euphemia, so being busy is very easy to understand, but Lelouch... So far, no one knows why Lelouch is busy.
"This flower... wait a minute, it seems to be divided into two parts."
In Nanali's bedroom, Roman and her were sitting on the bed origami, and the origami book was spread out on the side.
When Saki Shiko saw Roman coming, he secretly left after a while, leaving Nanali and Roman alone to be alone. The two have long been accustomed to only having each other's time, and the intimacy between Roman and Nanali is not worth much to Lelouch.
"Sorry, Roman, isn't Nanali very stupid, no matter how much she learns, she can't learn."
"Of course not. It's just that this folding method is too difficult. I have tried many times to succeed. It has nothing to do with Nanali."
"If only I could see it too."
Nanali is blind, so the method of learning origami is different from that of ordinary people, and she cannot rely on her eyes to memorize it. Open the folded sample again and again, and then re-fold it according to the creases, or let Roman teach her the steps of origami by hand, so that she can barely succeed a few times.
It would be nice if Nanali's eyes could see, but this kind of thinking is obviously an extravagant wish, just like "a thousand paper cranes can realize a wish" is just a legend. Lelouch had taken Nanali to the best hospital for examination, but in the end, he could not get Nanali to open her eyes or heal Nanali's legs.
"Don't worry Nanali, one day, you will be able to regain your sight again."
"Although I know that Roman is just comforting Nanali, Nanali is still very happy."
"This is not consolation, I am ready to become a doctor."
"Roman... do you want to be a doctor?"
Looking at Nanali's surprised expression, Roman suddenly felt a strong sense of satisfaction, feeling that her hard work during this period had paid off. The idea of becoming a doctor is not a temporary idea. After feeling the inconvenience of Nanali for a time, Roman has decided to develop into a doctor, just for Nanali's eyes and legs.
In fact, there is nothing wrong with being a doctor. Besides Nanali, it is also a good thing that you can help more people. The world is already full of tragedies and misfortunes. If these misfortunes can be salvaged, why not work hard?
"Really, really...why did Roman do this?"