Chapter 85:
Lin Yu was astonished that Shen Juan was obsessed with his book.
But it's not incomprehensible when you think about it. After all, this person is so lazy that he doesn't even want to write two more words on the paper, but he is willing to sign his name on each of his books. Something that "belongs to me" will pay special attention.
But that didn't stop her from being angry.
Lin Yujing was so convinced that he didn't want to pay any more attention to him, and turned over to cover the quilt and prepare to sleep.
She hasn't slept well these past few days. The wounds jumped and hurt without taking painkillers. She couldn't sleep. force.
At this moment, the little girl slept soundly, and the smile on Shen Wan's face faded.
He leaned back in his chair and looked at her quietly.
Thick eyelashes covered, lips pursed, frowning slightly.
Shen Wan raised her hand, her fingertips landed on her frowning eyebrows, and she gently rubbed from top to bottom. He sighed lowly, lowered his head and kissed her fluffy eyes: "Fool."
Lin Yu was startled by this little girl. She usually looks at her heart with too many eyes, but sometimes she is really stupid.
How could he not want to find her.
Every day I go crazy trying to find her.
When Luo Qinghe left, after Shen Juan returned from abroad, for a long time, he didn't know what he was doing.
I have lived for almost 20 years, and I haven't insisted on anything, and I haven't been able to hold on to anything. I haven't succeeded in protecting anyone. I finally met a person I liked, and he lost it.
I have never seen such a failure in life.
He went to Huaicheng without knowing how long it took.
It's not difficult to know where Lin Yu was shocked. Huaicheng No. 1 Middle School had a completely closed management model. Shen Wan leaned against the outer wall of the No. 1 middle school that day, crouching by the wall and pumping out a pack of cigarettes.
The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and the voices of students gradually came from behind the high wall.
Shen Wan was thinking at that time, whether one of these voices also belonged to her, caught in the hundreds of thousands of voices, the voice line was soft and unhurried.
Does she have a new deskmate? Will they chat after class? Will she coax someone like a baby when she asks him, and she will impatiently drop her face without saying a word.
She has always been impatient and wondered if she could persist until the college entrance examination.
Can you still, remember him.
Shen Juan felt like a lunatic, knowing that he would never see her, he was still separated from her by a wall, thinking about every detail of her new life without him.
The class bell rang, and the noise on the other side of the wall returned to silence. Shen Jian took his last puff of cigarettes, snuffed it out, and stood up.
Just wait.
There is nothing that can't wait, he has patience and time, she said she would come back, and he believed her.
The meaning between her walking towards him and him tying her back are completely different.
Anyway, I can't run away, and all the intruders have broken in. Wherever the tired master's territory is, he can leave if he wants to.
He couldn't say these words to Lin Yujing.
Shen Juan was somewhat macho, and he didn't want Lin Yujing to feel that he was vulnerable and hypocritical. He is a man, some words can be said, and some words are to be kept in mind.
Lin Yujing said that the injury on his leg was not serious enough to hurt his muscles and bones. The skin was injured and the stitches could be removed after ten days. It's impossible not to leave scars, but her skin is naturally close, and the recovery is very good. The doctor also said that it will not be obvious after taking care of it well and using the ointment to eliminate scars.
Is the position is relatively difficult, it is easy to pull when moving or walking.
But the birthday was too late, and finally her eighteenth birthday was in the hospital.
On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Shen Juan saw Yan Heng again.
Gu Xia was inside helping Lin Yujing pack up, while Shen Lian leaned against the door of the ward and waited for a while before Yan Heng came out.
Shen Lian straightened up and looked at him.
Yan Heng smiled: "I know you are waiting for me and want to chat?"
Shen Yan did not speak.
Yan Heng tilted his head slightly. He was in his forties, well-maintained, barely showing any signs of age, and had a mature and gentle temperament.
He thought for a while and asked, "Did Lin Yujing tell you about her previous situation?"
Shen Jian paused, his eyes darkened: "No."
"Then I also want to protect my patient's privacy," Yan Heng said patiently. "Since she didn't tell you, I'm afraid I can't tell you anything."
Although there have been speculations before, Shen Yan was still a little stiff when he heard Yan Heng's own admission that he heard the words "my patient".
Yan Heng always looked at him, his eyes were gentle and sharp, after a while, he sighed.
"These are the answers I can give you as his psychiatrist, but I also have selfishness. I like that child very much," Yan Heng said warmly, "As her elder and friend, there are some things I still want you to know. ."
Shen Yan did not speak.
For a long time, he made a "um", his voice was a little hoarse: "You said."
"Lin Yu was frightened and showed signs of mild depression after going to Huaicheng for a while."
Shen Lian shrank his fingers unconsciously, and pinched his fingertips into his palm.
"Her mother brought her to find me at that time, because the discovery was relatively timely. She herself understood her situation very well, and was more cooperative. After taking the medicine for a period of time, it was adjusted for another year. Now it basically has no effect."
"Actually, you should have discovered that she sometimes thinks about things from a negative perspective, and habitually avoids it. This kind of problem is not caused by one or two days. Many of her previous thoughts, including love and family, were very negative. She is very stubborn, and you can't break her misunderstanding of many things she has identified."
Yan Heng looked at him: "So when I knew of your existence and that she wanted to change and correct some of my paranoid thoughts for you, I was very curious about what kind of person you are."
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Yan Heng said a lot, and he spoke slowly, as if he was telling a story.
Shen Juan leaned against the wall and listened carefully to the details and process he talked about, almost masochistically.
He suddenly remembered Lin Yujing's dazed reaction when he mentioned what Nie Xinghe said in the ward.
She didn't think that Shen Yan would take the initiative to find her.
She has been alone for so many years, and she has long been accustomed to doing things without relying on anyone. She will not ask for help, will not rely on, and will not pin her hopes on others. In Lin Yujing's world, there is no such thing as "who Will sacrifice something for her?" This possibility.
So she didn't complain, didn't doubt, didn't even think about whether Shen Juan would go to her.
Because no one has been nice to her, she can't think of what it should be like if there is a person who treats her wholeheartedly.
When he was abroad, Lin Yujing called him. When the call didn't get through, she must have felt so uneasy, timid, and wanted to escape and give up.
But she still came.
Actively try to find him, approach him, apologize to him, and coax him to reconcile.
At that time, she might not even be sure if he still likes her.
When thinking of this, Shen Wan felt that the last bit of blood in his body had been drained.
He was actually angry with her at that time. He was overwhelmed by a lot of things. He waited and felt aggrieved. He was angry, and he was wronged. It seems to be an extremely simple process, how much determination she needs to make.
His little whale, working so hard, swam back towards him desperately.
After Yan Heng finished speaking, he glanced at him and said nothing.
There are all VIP wards here, and there is no one in the corridor, it is quiet and silent.
In the silence, Shen Jian leaned against the wall, raised his head slightly, and closed his eyes.
Lin Yujing didn't go back to school after being discharged from the hospital. The dormitory was to go to bed and get off the table, and it was not very convenient to go up and down. Shen Juan found an apartment complex near the school.
The location of A University is good, and there are no cheap apartment buildings. Boss Shen probably picked the best one. Shen Lian drove the car, and the car got stuck in. Lin Yu was shocked to see that the greening design was not better than that of Fu's house. How much difference is there in the villa area, it is estimated that a light art festival can be held when the lights are turned on at night.
The car was parked in the parking lot, Shen Jian wanted to hug her, but Lin Yujing refused, just a few steps away, she was not disabled.
Lin Yu got out of the car slowly, watching him take something out of the car, and the two of them got on the elevator. She couldn't help but glance at Shen Wan.
There was something wrong with this person's silence, Lin Yujing couldn't describe the feeling, it was just wrong anyway.
The elevator door opened, there were two households on the first floor, and the entrance door was behind the elevator, which was designed with a strong sense of privacy. Lin Yujing followed Shen Juan to the house on the left, watched him swipe his fingerprints, and pressed the password.
It's her birthday.
Lin Yu blinked in shock, walked in, Shen Juan followed behind her, and closed the door with her hand.
She is a person who pays great attention to her personal image. She has to dress beautifully when she is discharged from the hospital. She specially asked Gu Xia to take a pair of D's new leather boots from the dormitory. Open the shoelace to help her take off her shoes, and put on slippers.
So far, it's pretty normal.
Lin Yujing changed his shoes and went into the house, looked around, and before he could see what the house was like, just turned around when he felt Shen Juan pulling her back and kissing her down.
Lin Yu was shocked and did not respond.
His movement was sudden. She thought he would kiss her fiercely, but she didn't. Shen Yan licked her gently, twisting it little by little. It was obviously just a kiss, but the movement was so delicate and slow that Lin Yu felt inexplicably surprised. Some shame.
Lin Yu shrank back with red ears in shock, pushed him away a little, and raised his head.
Lin Yu was stunned when he met his eyes, raised his hand and tugged at his sleeve: "What's the matter with you..."
Shen Wan covered her eyes and kissed her again in silence.
In the darkness, Lin Yu was startled to hear their lips and tongues entwined, his breathing, he was shaking, the palm of his finger was touching her eyelids, and the touch was all cold.
"Shen Jian..." Lin Yujing felt a little uneasy, and tried to call him in the kiss, as if he didn't hear him, the vague voice was all contained.
She couldn't do anything, so she could only pull on his sleeve, panting and muttering: "Brother, brother, my leg hurts..."
Shen Yan's movements stopped abruptly.
The heart seemed to be tightly clasped together by a cold hand, and it was painfully twitching.
He carefully picked her up, walked into the bedroom, and put her on the bed.
Lin Yujing propped herself up and sat up, Shen Juan pulled the pillow and stood on the head of the bed. She sat on the bed and looked at him, licking her lips that were numb from the kiss, and was a little stunned: "What's wrong with you?"
Shen Juan sat beside the bed, looked at her for a long time, and finally said, "I regret it..."
He leaned over, kissed her eyes gently, touched her carefully and reverently, his voice was obscure and hoarse: "Lin Yujing, I'm not good to you."