Chapter 87:
Li Mingxuan, who was separated by a wall, did not hear Shen Xi's words.
Leaving his and Shen Xi's home as if escaping, until he stepped into the unmanned elevator, the disguise that Li Mingxuan had been insisting on collapsed. A fierce punch slammed into the closed elevator door, and Li Mingxuan closed his eyes in pain. Only a few minutes after leaving Shen Xi, he has already started to miss him. If he could, he would like to go back immediately and hold Shen Xi tightly in his arms, but his pride would not allow it.
Before today, he never asked Shen Xi if he liked him, he knew that Shen Xi was not with him at first because he liked him, and he also knew that Shen Xi had been avoiding everything about his future plan. He said to himself that because of his young experience, Shen Xi was full of vigilance against people, and he had to be patient enough to stay by Shen Xi's side, as long as Shen Xi was with him. But today when all the truth is revealed, he no longer has the courage to stay. The original self-confidence vanished with Shen Xi's narration. If everything after Shen Xi returned to China was a calculation, then what was Shen Xi with him? He wondered if Shen Xi was happy with his company when he was happy, grateful and even doing his best to stand beside Shen Xi? Or for Shen Xi, his existence is optional, everything is just Shen Xi pushing the boat along the river.
The elevator door slowly opened with a "dong" sound, Li Mingxuan opened his eyes, and his eyes fell on the familiar floor button. When he thought that he would leave Shen Xi completely, Li Mingxuan felt an indescribable suffocation in his heart, as if a big hand was holding his whole heart tightly together. Pain flashed in his eyes, and he finally left here cruelly.
Shen Xi stood quietly in front of the window, watching Li Mingxuan leave the community. Maybe he had expected this scene long ago. He felt that he was not really sad, but felt empty in his heart. The big hole that was gradually filled due to the existence of Li Mingxuan seemed to be torn open again. Something was screaming in the body, and a cold feeling began to spread in my heart.
When Shen Xi was in a trance, when he and Li Mingxuan were together, Li Mingxuan once said that he would never leave him regardless of life or death. He didn't believe Li Mingxuan's promise at first, but then maybe because the other party did too well, he gradually believed this sentence. But in the end, Li Mingxuan, like his mother and grandfather, chose to leave him and leave him here alone. Live or die? Maybe he was destined to be alone.
Shen Xi stood silently for a long time, the memories of Li Mingxuan from the two generations alternated in his mind, and finally settled on his previous desperate expression. Shen Xi shook her head and drove the image of Li Mingxuan out of her mind. In fact, that's fine. He couldn't give up his choice because of Li Mingxuan, and Li Mingxuan certainly couldn't stay by his side as if nothing had happened after knowing everything. Separation was the best outcome. Since they will never meet again, he will try his best to forget Li Mingxuan. After he watched the Shen family change hands with his own eyes, he could leave here without any worries, and everything related to the Shen family had nothing to do with him from now on. He will start again abroad, the real start.
When Shen Xi was silent alone, Li Mingxuan was driving aimlessly around Zhongjing over and over again. During this period, Shen Bixue called him several times, but he didn't answer any of them. He knew that his mother had a deep relationship with his uncle, and he definitely hoped that he could appear in the hospital at this time, but thinking about Shen Xi, he really didn't have the heart to take care of his mother's mood at this time, especially he didn't know how to face the person lying there. Uncle and Shen Ji.
Shen's father's affairs, Shen's affairs, Shen Xi made all his calculations frankly in front of him, he had no way to comment on what Shen Xi did right or wrong, but selfishly he felt sorry for Shen Xi Xi's. He didn't know if Shen Xi was worried that he would tell his uncle all this when he was frank, but he subconsciously wanted to hide it for Shen Xi. Li Mingxuan's mouth overflowed with a wry smile. Now that he can no longer deceive himself and others to maintain an illusion of peace between Shen Xi and the Shen family, he needs to make a choice, and he has already made a choice instinctively. Maybe in his heart, Shen Xi is bigger than everything else after all.
Li Mingxuan did not go back to Li's house that night but went to Ye Han's place. He was worried that his father would see something, and he had not yet planned to tell his family the news of his breakup with Shen Xi.
Ye Han was obviously very surprised by Li Mingxuan's sudden arrival, but he quickly realized something from Li Mingxuan's expression, but he didn't ask more thoughtfully.
"What would you like to drink?"
Li Mingxuan was depressed, "At will."
Ye Han thought about it and put a few cans of beer in front of Li Mingxuan.
"Although it's not a good idea to drown your sorrows with alcohol, it may be more comfortable to get drunk."
Li Mingxuan smiled wryly, "Does my condition look so bad?"
Ye Han nodded and commented briefly, "It's really lost, it's the first time I see you like this."
Ye Han's words were heard in Li Mingxuan's ears, he leaned on the sofa slumped, his expression could not hide the pain, "I broke up with Shen Xi."
Although he had guessed that Li Mingxuan's state at this time was related to Shen Xi, the news still surprised Ye Han. He thought that the two of them quarreled at most.
"Why?" Ye Han suddenly thought of something and raised his eyebrows, "Because of Lu Gesen?"
Li Mingxuan shook his head, "It has nothing to do with Lu Gesen, it's my problem."
Ye Han didn't really believe Li Mingxuan's words, he knew Li Mingxuan's feelings for Shen Xi, no matter how he looked at Li Mingxuan, he would not give up.
Li Mingxuan's face flashed a bit of bitterness, "You should have heard of the scandal that broke out in the Shen family today, right?"
Ye Han's eyes flashed, and there was a strange look on his face, "Could it be Shen Xi's hands and feet?"
Li Mingxuan nodded, Ye Han looked at Li Mingxuan in astonishment, and couldn't help but said, "Shen Xi is really ruthless in calculating his own father's ruin. But if you want me to say that the Shen family is really sorry for Shen Xi, even though Shen Xi is a bit ruthless, it is excusable, you won't break up with him because of this, right?"
The word "break up" made Li Mingxuan's expression even more depressed, "Not only this incident, Xiaoxi's shadow is behind everything that happened to the Shen family for more than half a year, and everything started when he returned to China. It's all calculations."
Ye Han looked in disbelief, "Is it a calculation to even be with you?"
Li Mingxuan covered his eyes in pain, "I don't know. Xiaoxi never showed any interest in the Shen family in front of me, let alone the meaning of calculating the Shen family, he and I What can we do together?"
Li Mingxuan did not believe that Shen Xi was with him for the purpose of calculating, in fact, Shen Xi never asked him anything, but he could not find the reason why Shen Xi was with him .
Ye Han sighed in his heart, "Is it because of what Shen Xi did? You know, according to what the Shen family did to Shen Xi in the past, Shen Xi has such thoughts of revenge. normal.
Li Mingxuan smiled bitterly, "I know, I can understand Xiaoxi's revenge, I just don't know what I mean to him? From beginning to end, this relationship is my initiative, he is just passive Accepting everything. I always thought that my sacrifices could be exchanged for his equal response, but if the feelings he showed in front of me were all fake, what would my sacrifices be?"
This is where Li Mingxuan really suffers.
The family knows that instead of being stuck in the middle when the time comes, it's better to separate early."
Speaking of this, Ye Han suddenly thought of Li Mingxuan's request for him, "Will Lu Gesen continue to investigate? Because he spent most of the time abroad before, the investigation result may take a little time."
Li Mingxuan wanted to give up, but thinking about Shen Xi's silent attitude towards Lu Gesen, he nodded. That night, Ye Han drank a lot of wine with Li Mingxuan. Listening to Li Mingxuan talking about Shen Xi over and over again all night, Ye Han deeply felt that the word "love" was not easy.
Li Mingxuan stayed with Ye Han for the next two days, and the family did not know the news of his breakup with Shen Xi. During this period, he accompanied his mother to the hospital once. Father Shen was awake, but he suffered a stroke and completely lost his ability to act. Even under the influence of the stroke, Father Shen was unable to speak completely, no matter how hard Father Shen tried. Can only make some babbling sounds. Shen Bixue is very worried about the current situation of Shen's father. She has been in the hospital every day for the past few days, for fear that something will happen to Shen's father.
This afternoon, Li Mingxuan accompanied his father to the hospital again, and he saw Shen Bixue saying something dissatisfied to several nurses. Seeing the arrival of the two of them, Shen Bixue hurriedly said a few words to the nurse and let them each leave.
"What's wrong?" Father Li said.
Shen Bixue sighed, "Eldest brother is in a bad mood and refuses to take medicine. These little nurses don't say that they have a softer attitude, but instead give the elder brother medicine. I just said a few words to them."
Father Li knew that Shen Bixue was in a irritable mood, so he could not help comforting him, "They are also for Dehan's good, Dehan's not taking medicine is always a solution." Having said that, Father Li turned to look at Li Mingxuan, " Mingxuan, you accompany your mother to rest outside for a while, and I'll go see your uncle."
After finishing speaking, Father Li patted Shen Bixue gently. Shen Bixue knew that her emotions were not right, took a deep breath and nodded.
Father Li quickly disappeared from the ward, Li Mingxuan looked at Shen Bixue with concern, "Mother, father brought Zhou Ji's chicken shredded porridge, would you like to drink some?"
Shen Bixue shook her head, even though she wanted to control her emotions, she couldn't help complaining to her son, "I don't have any intention of drinking porridge. This time your uncle has an accident, Acheng and Xiaoxi have never been to the hospital once, even Aji has come a few times and left in a hurry. You said your uncle was lying there alone, and Aji and the others had something so important that they couldn't stay in the hospital. ?"
Shen Bixue's complaints were heard in Li Mingxuan's ears, and he explained softly, "I didn't tell you that Xiaoxi has been recuperating at home when she is sick, but I didn't let him come to the hospital. As for A Chengzheng At the critical moment of detoxification, A Ji is not at all worried about leaving him alone at home, and he will inevitably be a little negligent to his uncle."
Shen Bixue frowned and couldn't help but said, "Aji and Acheng won't talk, tell me the truth, is Xiaoxi really sick? You didn't let him come. Or is he unwilling to come?"
"Why would my mother ask that?"
Shen Bixue looked at her son and said disappointedly, "Mingxuan, your uncle is Xiaoxi's father anyway, even if your uncle is sorry for Xiaoxi, but he is like this now, what's the matter It's time to pass, you persuade him well."
Li Mingxuan's face flashed a bit of bitterness, he looked up at his mother and said sternly, "Mother, do you really think that Xiaoxi knows that after my uncle has ignored Xiaoxi for so many years? After the incident of the previous generation, can he act like nothing has happened as you think, and then come to the hospital to play the kind father and son filial piety you hope?"
Li Mingxuan's words made Shen Bixue stunned, "Mingxuan?"
Li Mingxuan lowered his eyes, "Mother, if it were you, can you pretend that nothing happened?"
Shen Bixue looked shocked, she didn't expect Li Mingxuan to meet her and said this, Li Mingxuan ignored her mother's expression and whispered, "Mother, you always want Xiaoxi to compromise, Xiaoxi makes concessions to uncle, but Why can't uncle give in? You have seen uncle's attitude towards Xiaoxi for so many years. Do you really think that relying on Xiaoxi's compromise, uncle will change his attitude? It was obviously uncle who did the wrong thing, why did you ask instead Is it Xiao Xi? ""Ming Xuan? You?"
Li Mingxuan took a deep breath, "Sorry, Xiaoxi is really sick, mother, don't ask any more."
After Li Mingxuan finished speaking, he turned and walked to the side of the corridor, unable to help but bow his head and smile bitterly. For some reason, after hearing that his mother wanted Shen Xi to forget the past again, he almost couldn't control his emotions. He has thought a lot about leaving Shen Xi in the past two days. Maybe he was really a selfish **** before. It's not that he didn't know the rift between Shen Xi and the Shen family, but he was too selfish. He wanted both Shen Xi's feelings and thoughts. I want the affection of the Shen family. He thought that he had felt Shen Xi's mood once, but he had to admit that, no matter whether Shen Xi was intentionally misleading, he had always hoped like his mother that nothing happened to Shen Xi.
It's not that he doesn't know the unfairness of the Shen family to Shen Xi, and it's not that he doesn't know the hatred of Shen Xi to Shen's father, but after Shen Xi faintly confessed his fate, after Shen Xi clearly signaled him to After Shen shi had no intention, after Shen Xi said that he could not do without Shen shi, he acquiesced to Shen Xi's attitude. He took Shen Xi's compromise and concession as a matter of course. What is the difference between him and his mother?
Li Mingxuan thought bitterly, he was always self-righteous, he never really figured out what Shen Xi really wanted, he felt that he had paid for the same response from Shen Xi, but he did not I thought about whether Shen Xi needed his feelings.