Chapter 91:
Lin Yujing hadn't had much contact with Lin Zhi since school started.
After several calls in the middle, the two became more and more speechless. Lin Zhi probably also felt the embarrassment of the atmosphere. Later, she never called her again, but the money kept coming every month.
The phone rang for half a minute, but Lin Yujing never answered until Lin Zhi hung up.
People came out one after another in the examination room. The last day of the final exam was over, and the winter vacation officially began. Occasionally, students who couldn’t wait to go home dragged their huge suitcases by the side.
Lin Yujing didn't know what was going on, but suddenly it occurred to him that Shen Wan was still the same.
His kind of gentle nerves that are completely inconsistent with other people's settings, no matter how many times, will make people be caught off guard and almost want to drown in it.
Lin Yujing put the phone in his pocket, then raised his head very solemnly and looked at him: "Shen Jian, thank you."
His tone was too solemn, and he almost gave him a ninety-degree bow.
Even called by his full name.
Shen Lian raised his eyebrows.
Lin Yu raised his eyes in shock and continued, "I don't really want to write winter vacation homework, can you write it for me?"
"…"
Shen Juan felt that this little girl still lacked education.
"I can't," Lin Yu smiled and walked forward, "This is not the same reason, after all, it's my mother, I can't talk to her for the rest of my life, will you always be my manager, boyfriend, no matter what happens in the future? I'm willing to tell you anything."
She paused and continued, "But I still have to do it myself. Don't underestimate others. Teacher Xiao Lin is also omnipotent."
Shen Yan did not speak.
Lin Yu's startled words were not fully spoken, but the meaning was clear.
I am willing to depend on you now, but I will not depend on you.
Shen Lian lowered his head, the curvature of his lips widened a little bit, but finally he couldn't hold back and gave a low laugh.
She has been changing, and it seems that she has never changed.
When Lin Yu returned to the bedroom in shock, she called Lin Zhi, but she was probably busy and didn't answer.
After the exam, the roommates are packing their things and preparing to go home. The two out-of-towners have already booked their train tickets and air tickets. As soon as Gu Xia finishes the exam, he is like a flying bird, flapping his wings and carrying a box non-stop. He flew away and gave her a gift before leaving.
Looking at the very high-grade wrapping paper, the soft cross ribbon, and opening it, there is a black box inside, a huge Arabic numeral 001, and a row of letters on the top - OKAMOTO.
There is also a rose-colored box, ergonomically designed, with a romantic rose pattern.
"…"
Two more boxes.
Gu Xia stood at the door of the bedroom holding the box, and blew her a kiss: "I don't know what model your champion is, I bought the black regular one, happy winter vacation."
"…"
Lin Yujing had become numb from the habit.
It doesn't matter what model, what kind of rose, rose and lily pattern, this thing is useless, their family's champion moral quality is very high, then she may be convinced that there is no harm to her body when she is in her thirties, and she is willing to talk to her. go to bed.
Shen Juan was still training in the afternoon. As soon as the winter vacation came, he officially entered the state where he would stay in the training room every day except to go to the toilet and maybe the door would not come out. The two of them were tired and crooked for a long time, and Lin Yujing didn't particularly like stickiness. The person, without any plans to accompany him, first dragged the luggage back to the apartment.
At nearly six o'clock in the evening, Lin Zhi's phone called again.
Lin Yu was sitting on the sofa watching a variety show in shock. She went out in the afternoon to buy a bunch of snacks and came back with a chicken foot in her hand, her mouth full of collagen, and she didn't speak for a long time when she picked up.
Lin Zhi's style remained unchanged, Wannian's straight-to-the-point calm tone: "I'm busy in the afternoon, why didn't you answer the phone at noon."
Lin Yujing swallowed the chicken feet in his mouth and said without changing his face, "The exam is not over yet."
Lin Zhi was quiet, and occasionally there was a little sound. The car whistle sounded far away, it should be driving: "When will you go home?"
Lin Yu was shocked and didn't speak, hesitant.
She felt that it didn't matter whether she went back or not. After a new year, she just took a look at the second old man, and it was gone.
She was silent for a moment, and Lin Zhi said, "Don't want to go back?"
"A few years ago," Lin Yu said casually, "Anyway, when I go home now, I'll be alone."
This time it was Lin Zhi's turn to be silent, and finally hung up the phone and said nothing.
There is a variety show on TV. It is a marriage experience show. Several older celebrity couples have been married for more than ten years, under the banner of finding their first love.
Lin Yujing liked watching variety shows like this, and always felt that watching them would make him believe a little more that there is still true love in the world.
She stared straight at the picture on the TV, a little distracted.
When she was young, what she wanted most was Lin Zhi's affirmation, so she could not help refuting Meng Weiguo occasionally, but she would never contradict Lin Zhi.
She said what she said, she did what she asked her to do.
But after the period of adolescence when she was most eager for family affection, Lin Yu was shocked to find that she didn't seem to have much feelings in her heart.
There's nothing you can't get used to, and even because you don't think you've ever gotten it, it seems a lot easier to accept.
Lin Qingzong said that Lin Zhi's life was not good. She had never met the person who could lead her to the right path in her life, and she suffered a lot of injuries.
Whether it is the only daughter or distressed, Lin Qingzong hopes that one day she can forgive Lin Zhi, forgive those things she has done wrong, and take the path she missed.
Lin Yujing didn't speak at that time.
Whether Lin Zhi needs it or not, she can support her in the future, and she will also be responsible. This is her obligation as a child.
But how can she forgive.
Lin Yujing has never been a person who repays grievances with virtue. Her creed in life is that whoever treats me well, I am willing to treat him a hundred times better, and whoever treats me badly will go to hell.
Lin Zhi went the wrong way and was injured, what does this have to do with her.
Before meeting Shen Juan, no one told her how to go is right or wrong, no one took her away, no one told her that you should go forward with confidence and boldness, and I will protect you.
Whose path is not groping by oneself, but slowly probing it step by step, whose path is not difficult and dangerous, and there are no ravines.
Whose injury is not injury.
Why should she become that victim, why should she pay for Lin Zhi's failed marriage and the wrong path she took.
A few days before New Year's Eve, Lin Yu was shocked to book a flight back to the imperial capital.
Shen Juan asked for leave that day and took her to the airport. Ever since he knew she was leaving, this person's expression had never been so good.
Lin Yujing was coaxing for the first two days, but later he didn't bother to pay attention to him. Do what you want.
She didn't carry too many things, and she didn't plan to stay there for too long. She came and went with that small suitcase, which took three years from high school to college.
It was afternoon when he got home, Lin Yu opened the door in shock and looked up to see Lin Zhi who was on the phone in the living room.
Lin Yu was stunned.
She really did not expect that Lin Zhi would be at home.
The mother and daughter hadn't seen each other for half a year. One stood at the door and the other sat on the sofa in the living room with a notebook on their lap. They looked at each other for a few seconds, but no one spoke.
Lin Yu sometimes finds it funny when he is surprised, two people whose blood is thicker than water can actually do this.
The servant came to pick up the luggage, Lin Yu entered the room in surprise, and changed his shoes: "Why are you back, isn't the company busy?"
Lin Zhi put the phone on the coffee table: "Let's go the day after tomorrow."
The day after tomorrow, New Year's Eve just passed.
Lin Yu nodded in shock, did not speak any more, and was about to go upstairs.
Lin Zhi turned her head and suddenly said coldly, "That boyfriend of yours is quite courageous."
Lin Yu was startled and turned around, "What?"
"That boy came to talk to me," Lin Zhi glanced at her, "Didn't he tell you?"
Talk shit.
Lin Yu's nerves were tense, almost questioning: "What did you tell him?"
"What can I say, say I don't agree with you being together, that you will not have any good results in the future, I have seen a lot of love in college, and how many can get together in the end, didn't they all break up after graduation? How many people can be happy when they come together in the end," Lin Zhi lowered her eyes and looked at the screen, "As long as it doesn't affect your grades, I don't object to you falling in love, you can fall in love with someone you don't like, what I object to is His objection is that you fall into this relationship."
Lin Yujing felt a little amused: "Am I sick? What can I talk about with someone I don't like?"
Lin Zhi raised her eyes, her eyes were cold and calm: "You two are in love now, do you think he can accompany you for a lifetime, does he love you for a lifetime?" She said softly, "No, it's impossible."
Lin Yu was shocked and understood, "You have been bitten by a snake for ten years and you are afraid of the rope."
"You're still young, you don't know men at all," Lin Zhi said. "Men are all looking for something new. After you've been together for a long time, he feels boring."
Lin Yu was frightened that the last bit of patience in her mind was bubbling, she closed her eyes, and said intolerably, "I don't think what you know is not a man, it's a male, right? Animals are divided into males and females."
The voice fell, and the living room was quiet.
Lin Zhi didn't react, she was stunned and looked at her in disbelief.
Lin Yu pursed her lips in shock, let out a long sigh, and looked at her calmly: "You can't use your own failures to measure all the feelings in the world, because you feel that there are no good people in this world when you treat others badly. Now, can't I get married in my life?"
"Because that's the truth, you can have a marriage, but love is very fragile," Lin Zhi said calmly and indifferently, "So tell you, what do you think is true love now, ten or twenty years from now? I love him, but you are old, and there are so many beautiful girls around him, how can you guarantee that he will not change his mind?"
Lin Yu was shocked and did not speak.
Lin Zhi said patiently: "Xiaoyu, I am protecting you, because I have experienced it, so I don't want you to experience it again."
"You don't protect people like you, you just think you're protecting me," Lin Yujing interrupted her directly, "You comfort yourself and say this because you're afraid of me being hurt, but you're just trying to satisfy your own desire for control, right? ."
"You think you are the truth and everything you say is right. I have listened to you since I was a child, so I should also listen to this matter, but I didn't. I resisted, so you can't stand it. You have to convince me, Let me admit you're right."
Lin Zhi didn't speak, her eyes were a little cold, and she unconsciously touched the phone on the coffee table.
Lin Yujing suddenly felt a little sad.
She felt that her relationship with Lin Zhi should have faded, but at this moment, she still felt a little sad, a grievance that was so stuffy that her nose and eyes were sore, and rushed up without warning.
Overwhelming.
Lin Yu lowered his eyes in shock, and said in a low voice, "Mom, no one educates their children like this."
"Others' mothers will say to their children, go ahead and come back if you are injured. Mothers are here."
"I never expected you to say such things to me, but at least—"
"At least, every time when I'm about to believe that I'm worthy of being cherished, can you forcefully circle me back and tell me that no one will love me?"
Lin Zhi paused: "I'm not—"
"You don't love me, you don't want me, you have to tell me over and over again that no one in this world will always love me,"
Lin Yu looked down at the ground in shock, opened his eyes diligently, raised his hand to hold the corner of his eye, and said softly, "How can you do this, you can't do this to me."
Lin Zhi was stunned.
In City A, a thousand kilometers away, Shen Juan was holding a mobile phone in his hand, standing in front of the window, listening to the girl's voice on the phone, faintly and clearly.
In the end, I was aggrieved, choked with a little imperceptible force: "I just want to believe it once, I'm not so bad, I'm actually qualified to be loved..."