Chapter 44: meaning and existence
Latest website: Zhou Mingrui raised his eyes to look at Su Yuanning.
He opened his mouth slowly, his voice soft and gentle, and slightly apologetic: "At that time, I didn't know you yet."
"At least, I don't know you like I do now." Zhou Mingrui said.
Su Yuanning was stunned.
Zhou Mingrui leaned back on the armchair, looked at Su Yuanning, and gently revealed a smile that he didn't even notice.
"When you first came, you asked me if it was possible to 'go home'."
"At that time, there was hope in your eyes."
Zhou Mingrui lowered his eyes: "So, when you asked me this question at the beginning, I didn't tell you the truth... I'm sorry."
Su Yuanning opened his mouth, but was unable to speak for a while.
At this moment... he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with the person in front of him.
Such a lie... Actually, it's understandable.
Even if the person being deceived is himself.
It turned out that he was not a completely calm person sitting above the gray fog, and even made a "wrong" choice because of his soft heart.
Su Yuanning asked himself, if it was himself, and now he met a junior who, although it was the first time, he was full of expectations and hopes for returning home, he could tell him - "You can't go back anywhere, because this is your 'hometown'" ?
He can't.
He can't tell this cruel truth to a person who has just come to this world, has not yet established a firm foothold, but is full of expectations.
Moreover, Su Yuanning is very clear that those who want to return home will never give up easily.
Got a negative answer here, no harm.
The desire to go home can urge wanderers who want to go home to look elsewhere for answers. until found.
However, in this world, apart from Mr. Fool, how many existences can provide the correct answer for the "traverser"?
Mysteries, pollution, knowledge that does not exist in this world will attract attention.
It can even be said that "cheating" is the "best option" of last resort.
Su Yuanning did not speak.
Zhou Mingrui smiled self-deprecatingly: "But I know this is still not a reason to lie."
"Sorry." He whispered again.
"I'm not such an admirable, trustworthy senior."
"No. You are." Su Yuanning interrupted Zhou Mingrui.
He looked at Zhou Mingrui's somewhat stunned expression and said in a low voice:
"I can understand your mood, because if I were you, I would stand from your point of view. I wouldn't tell the truth easily."
"It was a last resort and the best choice."
"Your lies protected me."
"I'm sad now, sad, not because you lied to me, absolutely not."
Su Yuanning clenched the cup in his hand, raised his head and looked at Zhou Mingrui.
Zhou Mingrui was stunned, as if he did not expect this junior in front of him to have such a realization. He opened his mouth, but couldn't find the right words for a while.
Su Yuanning smiled comfortingly at Zhou Mingrui.
"But I still feel... confused." At this time, Su Yuanning was grateful to himself for the writing ability that he did not give up after coming to this world.
Let him be able to express his inner thoughts accurately at this moment.
He gently asked the question that had been lingering in his heart since the beginning, and it was hard to let go: "If I can't go back. I'm here... what's the point of you being here?"
"While existence is meaning, the reality of memory and possession is meaning..."
"Although I have new friends in this world, I have met you, I have met Melissa, I have met Jennings and Joshua, I have met Canterbury, I have met Michelle...and a lot. The things that make me happy, the things that make me happy, but I..."
"I……"
"still……"
Having said this, Su Yuanning's voice began to choked a little. He wanted to say the following words, but found that he couldn't speak at all. As long as he opened his mouth, the constant sourness in his throat would prevent him from continuing to speak. The unfamiliar mist of water in the eye sockets burst out.
Su Yuanning lowered his head, wanting to wipe the wetness in front of his eyes with the back of his hand.
But he found that with his movements, tears kept falling on his shirt like a broken thread. Su Yuanning gritted his teeth, wanting to quickly clean up his emotions, to quickly organize his emotions, to hurry up... to convey his emotions through words.
However, his efforts were in vain at all.
In particular, when Su Yuanning felt a warm, thick palm fall on his shoulder, his previous efforts completely collapsed in a hug.
"My...parents...grandparents...my colleagues...my friends...where are they all..."
Zhou Mingrui gently patted Su Yuanning's back.
He didn't speak, all his actions fell into action.
"Why do we go through something like this..."
"Why does this happen..."
"Can you tell me, what should I do, what should I do..."
"Although I know that your original intention is to preserve hope, but all of this...is it meaningful? What we were fighting for was a mirror, a duckweed in the water, and a dream bubble."
Su Yuanning's question was not answered, and he didn't seem to be getting an answer, he kept asking one after another.
...
After a long time, until Su Yuanning had no more questions and could not say anything.
Only then did he feel a clear stream slowly flowing through his heart. This move made his calm, but somewhat dry feelings, fluctuate again.
It is the "soothing" of the audience sequence.
Su Yuanning raised his eyes and looked at the only existence that could use extraordinary abilities in this space.
"I heard all your questionswww.readwn.com but I don't know all the answers."
"Just a little..."
Zhou Mingrui reached out and touched the top of Su Yuanning's hair:
"About meaning," he said.
"You need to find it yourself."
Zhou Mingrui smiled lightly.
"I will always be here."
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