Chapter 68:

Chapter 68:

    "Anmus, what are you looking at?"

    The voice of the senior next to her interrupted Anmus' thinking.

    He turned his head to see Yun Zhengqing who had just changed his guard, handed him a bottle of water, and shook his head slightly: "It's nothing, just a little curious."

    "Really." Yun Zhengqing thanked him and took the water, took a sip, glanced in the direction Anmas had seen, and said thoughtfully, "Are you looking at the stars?"

    In the distance, Xingdou, dressed in a cartoon brown bear costume and hat with bear ears, is leading tourists to the passage of the roller coaster. Tourists introduce the park project. The cheers of the surrounding tourists on the roller coaster and the pirate ship, the joyful and exciting music interweaved with the noisy human voice, constitute a particularly lively scene.

    Before working near the beach, everyone thought it was pretty good, leisurely and orderly, and they could enjoy the scenery that they couldn't see at ordinary times, so I dragged the card until the last moment to select the third time work content. This time, it is probably for interaction within the same scene, and the jobs given are all related to amusement parks.

    Xingdou won the tour guide, Anmas and Yun Zhengqing are staff members in different projects, one of the two hosts plays the role of a monster in a children's drama, and the other plays a superman, and this time the lottery The "partner" of the special card is Jiang Cang.

    Jiang Cang didn't hesitate at all, and hugged Xing Dou beside him directly: "As expected, the goddess of luck still favors me, I want to team up with Xing Dou!"

    Xingdou, who was caught off guard, thought about it carefully and felt that this senior was not bad, so he accepted it without raising any objections.

    But in this way, isn't he the one who is always in the same group with others in this variety show? Wouldn't it be too weird. When Xing Dou walked with Jiang Cang, such worries appeared. It's just that he couldn't change the situation even if he was worried, so he didn't think much about it.

    The staff of the on-site projects usually work in shifts, so Anmas is not only responsible for his work, and he still has a lot of rest time to catch his breath. The same is true for Yun Zhengqing. Coincidentally, the areas they are in charge of are similar, so the lounge is also the same, and the two have the opportunity to chat.

    "Well, I'm just a little strange." Anmus sat on the chair, nodded, and answered the previous question about looking at the stars.

    "Strange?" Yun Zhengqing also sat down to rest, recalling the interaction between the two apprentices, and suddenly noticed one thing, "Speaking of which, your relationship is not very good? It seems that there are not many Talking together on occasions. I originally thought that you should come together, after all, it is rare for students from the same class to appear on a show with such precision."

    "It doesn't mean that the relationship is not good..." Anmas thought about the situation between them and shook his head, "Except we are classmates, we don't have a particularly close relationship. Accidentally, and..." Having said that, he raised his head and glanced at the AI ​​camera that followed the two of them, hesitating to say anything.

    Yun Zhengqing saw his concerns at a glance, and waved to the two cameras: "Now is my private time to rest, please give me some space for myself."

    The two cameras, which seemed to have one big eye, looked at each other and were instructed by the director team to fly out of the room quickly, leaving room for the two of them to talk.

    Seeing this, Anmus breathed a sigh of relief before continuing: "And Xingdou has always been like that, not close to us, maybe he is used to being alone."

    As soon as these words came out, Yun Zhengqing understood what he was curious about.

    He lay back lazily and half-closed his eyes: "So, you are wondering why Xingdou doesn't appear so withdrawn now. This is normal, when it appears in the public eye, People who don’t fit in have to try their best to be gregarious in order to be liked by the audience. No one likes someone who is too dark, Xing Dou understands this, no matter what his original personality is, at least he looks very lively and outgoing.”

    "I thought so too." Anmus still frowned, as if he didn't know how to describe it, "But these days I occasionally feel that something is wrong. Xingdou doesn't look like Reluctantly, he and his occasional expressions make me feel very unfamiliar. Here, he is like an ordinary person who is no different from other people. Maybe the idol reservists are not completely ordinary, but..."

    Yun Zhengqing listened quietly to the student for a while, and finally said his thoughts: "Xing Dou doesn't seem to be as indifferent as in school, at this moment he gives me a very The subtle sense of reality is also like some kind of intuition, telling me that Xingdou who can smile so gently is him."

    When he said this sentence, he felt absurd for a while, but he could not deny the true view in his heart.

    After getting along for the past few days, Anmas can understand that these two seniors, especially Yun Zhengqing, have goodwill towards them. You may not be able to talk to your friends when you have some backlogged words in your heart, but you can communicate with them, and you will not be treated with contempt and careless attention. Instead, you will be seriously given some useful advice.

    In addition, in many cases, it is true that "the authorities are obsessed with bystanders". If he does not understand things, if he tells another person, he may be able to get different ideas and opinions.

    So even with reservations, he said it.

    "Huh?" The silver-haired senior raised his eyebrows at this time, and really began to be curious, "You say that, I really want to know what kind of reputation Xingdou has in the school, what is it? He has performed. Logically speaking, with his appearance and ability, he should be a popular figure in the school, and it is not surprising that he is sought after by many people."

    Having seen Xingdou sing, he does not doubt it.

    "It's also considered a man of the year." Anmas recalled how Yang Yu usually used to fight against the heroes in various groups, "His reputation in the first grade is quite loud, and many people know that, In the first grade, there was a guy who was elusive and strong like a demon king. There were even a small number of people who admired him very much and built something similar to a fan base. Of course, there were also many people who hated him. But not many have really seen him. Xing Dou's whereabouts are indeed unpredictable, and there are no friends around, few people know where he is and what he is doing. Even our close classmates don't know why he is so powerful."

    Speaking of this, Anmus lowered his tone: "He is too mysterious for many people, some people always pursue him persistently, some people always try to stick to him, and some People just get along with him for a while, and they become curious and look at him involuntarily. But no matter what these people do, the stars are so far away that it seems hard to touch."

    The last sentence was not actually said by Anmas, it was something Yang Yu said in a muffled voice while lying on the table after being rejected by Xing Dou again. Anmus recalled so clearly at this time—“The stars are really like stars, mortals can’t get stars, it’s too far away”.

    From his words, Yun Zhengqing vaguely sketched out Xingdou, who has been well-behaved since he appeared, and his inhuman and frosty attitude in school. The younger brother's acting skills were so strong that he didn't even see any flaws, and at the same time he felt that something was wrong.

    Anmus' words continued: "Coming here, especially after he started to act with his seniors, I felt different. The atmosphere around Xingdou has eased a lot, and he doesn't seem to be in The school is so cold and unapproachable, and it doesn't seem to be dismissive of other people."

    There seemed to be complicated emotions flowing in those dark gold eyes: "Maybe as senior you said, he just wants to be friendly in front of the audience, and I can't understand it because of speculation. Xing Dou's thoughts were just curious about his mood at the moment, and he looked at him unconsciously."

    "So, it's a bit similar to those who chase him." He sneered.

    Yun Zhengqing looked at the gloomy apprentice beside her, her icy blue eyes flashed across Mingwu, and she stretched slowly, like a big cat with smooth fur, her tone was also loose : "It's not surprising. Xing Dou does have a wonderful quality that can make people subconsciously set their eyes on him. But he doesn't seem to realize it himself, and he is concentrating on his own path."

    "You don't have to be frustrated by being attracted, even if I look at him for a long time, I can't help but want to stare for a long time. There is magic in that child, like a flying bird that keeps moving forward. People are curious about when he will settle down and in what direction. And you see, isn't there a fool who has been captured by him and is following him?"

    Jiang Cang, with her long hair **** like a rice cake, circled around the black-haired boy, hooking her shoulders from time to time, never leaving more than three meters away.

    "It's just that I still don't understand one thing." He rested his chin with his hand and said leisurely, "You said he was dismissive of your attitude? Is it arrogant and high-flying? "

    "...I can't say for sure." Anmus considered his words carefully, "but everyone thinks that Xingdou is not like an ordinary person who doesn't like to communicate with people. Some people say that he occasionally looks at the eyes of his classmates. With indescribable complexity. Since the beginning of school, Xing Dou has been estranged from us, and he has said that he is not of the same level, and he can only think of whether he has contempt or contempt."

    "Huh? That's interesting." Yun Zhengqing stared at Xing Dou in the distance and muttered, "He doesn't look like someone who sees his classmates that way, but he may be disguised too much. Well, it’s not easy to show it in front of us. But Jiang Cang’s intuition has never been wrong…”

    "Senior Jiang's intuition?" Anmus caught a certain word.

    "Oh yes, you didn't know it." Yun Zhengqing was stunned, and then explained, "Jiang Cang's nickname in his student days was 'canned love', and his favorite thing to do is Choose the person you like, and then instill the love that you don't need at all. Well, of course, this is my understanding, he himself said something like 'feeling on the thing you love'."

    " But let's not talk about the behavior itself, the person Jiang Cang chooses has always been a guy with a firm will and a soft heart. Otherwise, it is impossible to accept Jiang Cang's overly enthusiastic performance, let alone let him He stayed by his side. It was a monstrous intuition, and he called himself the 'radar of love,' which was a bit of an exaggeration, but he didn't see anything wrong."

    "...Senior brother, what do you mean?" Anmus understood the meaning and opened his eyes.

    "Well. If Xingdou is chosen by Jiang Cang, then his performance will have meaning." Yun Zhengqing chuckled, "I don't know him very well, but from the perspective of human behavior Analysis, generally if you always avoid certain people, there is only one possibility I can think of other than annoying."

    "Is he... a little scared?"

    The boy with white hair and black skin stared blankly at the calm appearance of his senior and opened his mouth.

    "Anmus...Anmus, what are you thinking?"

    The slight shaking and the cold voice wake up those who are immersed in memories.

     

    "Sorry, I'm a little distracted." Anmus broke free from the memory of the morning, looked out of the window, and apologized in a low voice.

    "What do you want to say to me?" Xing Dou skipped this topic, instead of exploring why he was distracted, he asked the person who had specially called him in doubt.

    They just finished their work today. According to the program flow, there is still tomorrow's summary and monologue, so they can finish this event and return to the academy.

    The program team watched them run around in the amusement park today and it was very hard. So after all the tourists and staff left, I gave them the benefit of two hours of free play, and took some tidbits as the content of the easter eggs. Jiang Cang was excitedly preparing to pull Xingdou to ride on the Ferris wheel, but Anmas appeared in the middle of the journey and grabbed him directly, saying that he had something to say.

    It was rare to see this classmate take the initiative to contact him, Xing Dou hesitated for a moment, and out of curiosity, agreed to act with him.

    As a senior, Jiang Cang's voice of complaining stopped because of this, so he had to get angry by himself and ran to take a bumper car to vent. Yun Zhengqing yawned and sat slowly on the rest chair, saying that he didn't want to move for the time being and had no energy.

    The two hostesses with childlike innocence disappeared as soon as they were notified.

    Therefore, there is a scene where Xingdou and Anmus are sitting on the Ferris wheel together in order to find a place where they can talk alone.

    Ammaster closed the door before following their AI camera into the Ferris wheel, so that the two cameras outside could only capture the scene where they seemed to be talking, not actually the content of their conversation.

    Seeing his actions, Xing Dou's inner doubts became even heavier. He would not be able to think for a while, what was the most important thing to avoid the camera, avoid the crowd, and chat with him alone.

    Although they have a little bit of intersection because of the show recently, it seems that nothing worthy of special mention has happened.

    But Anmus didn't seem to think about how to speak. He looked out the window and stopped talking, as if he was in a daze. Xing Dou waited for a while, really didn't want to keep this quiet, so he urged him loudly.

    "..." Facing Xingdou's question, Anmus paused and did not answer immediately. In fact, he wasn't fully prepared, and he didn't know how to speak.

    In the end, Yun Zhengqing only gave a possibility, and indeed it might be able to solve the mystery that Xingdou always alienates them. But whether his relationship with Xingdou has reached the level where he can talk about this matter, and whether it seems abrupt to rashly say these things, these questions that usually do not bother him are lingering in his heart.

    If it was someone else who came here, maybe he was more qualified to speak.

    But in the current situation, the one who can see the different sides of Star Dou up close, and clearly feels his softened attitude is Anmas, and it is Anmas who wants to get the answer to this question. At this moment, there may not be a second chance, no matter how he weighs it, he can only do it himself.

    "I came to you, in fact, to get the answer to a certain question." After thinking about it, Anmas threw the question first, saw the serious eyes of the person opposite, and said again, "It's not that serious, it's just my curiosity."

    "What do you want to ask?" Could it be the reason for choosing variety shows? Other than that, nothing has happened recently.

    The most difficult step was taken, Anmas looked relaxed, at least remained calm: "This question is a bit difficult to ask, in fact, it is not just me who is confused, many people have thought about it but I didn't ask directly, you seem to be in a good mood today, I think you may answer. Then I went straight to it - Xing Dou, why did you reject the kindness of other students? Why do you always avoid being with anyone in the academy? We did it What do you hate?"

      After a few years of coexistence, there will also be times of cooperation, and the lack of understanding of each other may affect future work. From a personal point of view, I hope you can make it clear."

    Xing Dou was surprised when he heard the question, and he was not ready to answer it properly. But when Anmas said this, it seemed that he was going to get to the bottom of it. If he didn't give a reasonable answer, he might not even be able to get out of the Ferris wheel today.

    He didn't quite understand why he asked these meaningless words at this time, even if he knew the reason, it would not change anything. At least for him, the answer to this question is the same in the end.

    "You got the answer to this question, what are you going to do?" Xing Dou didn't answer directly, but threw another question to explore his intentions.

      ."

    "That's a pity." The black-haired boy sighed, looking straight at him without any hesitation, "There is a conflict between us, and you who come to this academy will not be You know, we're all fighting for the few debut spots we have. We've been enemies since the beginning."

    Anmus frowned: "But that's also at the last moment, you don't have to resist others every moment. What's more, the debut position at graduation is determined by strength, and those who have strength have strength. People can succeed, we are not always enemies, and with your strength, you can't be eliminated without being so alienated from others." He said the latter sentence very naturally.

     

    If this is not the game world, and most of the academies are not controlled by a predetermined destiny, perhaps Anmus is right, he does not need to resist kindness or think too much. But what happened here seems to have been fixed.

    Xingdou doesn't know if the next moment, he will be squeezed out of the plot and return to the original route. How much effort he will have to do in the future, and what he will do for it, he is not sure at this moment, so those friendship games that Anmus calls him are not something he can relate to, nor should he try.

    He doesn't dare to gamble, can't gamble.

    "If you can't understand, then I can give you another answer." Xingdou saw what Anmus was about to say, and took the lead, giving his own answer, "The reason why I stay away, Just because I don't like you, hate you, nothing special."

    "..." Although he was mentally prepared, when he got this answer, Anmus still felt that his heart stagnated uncontrollably for a moment.

    "That's it?" He said abruptly, the dark golden eyes reflecting the calm face of the man opposite, "No other reason?"

    "Hmm." The black-haired boy replied, slightly avoiding his gaze.

    Suddenly, a slightly cold hand reached out and touched his face and neck, as if stroking.

    "You..." Xingdou frowned and wanted to pull the hand away.

    "Wait, I just wanted to ask again. I'll let go."

     

    "What do you want to ask?" This time Xingdou's tone was not very happy.

    "Do you really hate us?"

    Ammus asked again. Under the light of the Ferris wheel, those dark gold eyes are dim and unclear, like the eyes of a beast lurking in the darkness, quietly waiting for the moment when the prey relaxes.

    "..." Xing Dou realized a subtle crisis, subconsciously did not look at him, and replied in a deep voice, "Yes. I hate you."

    The hand on the side of his neck paused, and released as promised.

    "That's it."

    Anmus got the answer, sat back in place, lowered his eyes, and looked out the window.

    Just as Xingdou was thinking about what he wanted to do, he heard him ask softly: "Then you...are you afraid of us?"

    "Xingdou! The haunted house over there is so scary, why don't you go with me!"

    Before Xingdou could hear what Anmas was saying, their cabin had already turned around and landed on the ground. Immediately, a red-haired man came over excitedly and shouted with a loud voice. , drowns out the internal sound.

    "Wait, senior." Xingdou shouted first, then looked back at Anmus, "What did you just say?"

    "No, it's nothing." Anmus glanced at the camera that followed, and shook his head, "I'm done, you and seniors go."

    Although Xing Dou was puzzled, he knew that no matter what the problem was, it would not affect his path.

    Anmus didn't go down, and followed the machine that started up again to slowly climb up, watching the black-haired boy slowly go away.

    He stretched out the hand he just touched Xingdou, stared at it for a while, and sighed: "Liar."

    He heard before that one way to detect lies is to test the heartbeat. If an untrained ordinary person tells a lie, their heart beats involuntarily. The mouth may lie, but the heartbeat is hard. An elder in his family taught him this method playfully.

    He deliberately put his hand on the neck where he could feel the heartbeat, and asked the question again with the mentality of a dead horse being a living horse doctor.

    The moment Xing Dou answered, the beating that his subordinates sensed really accelerated.

    Just for a moment, like an illusion.

    Anmus felt that Xingdou really lied at that time, he didn't tell him the real reason, he just wanted to kill him with such inhumane words.

    He still hadn't figured out a lot of things about Xingdou, but at least he understood that Xingdou didn't stay away from them because he hated them, or not only because he hated them.

    "Sure enough, the troublesome guy..."

    Anmus looked at the brightly lit amusement park in the night, like a paradise, and recalled the last chat between him and Yun Zhengqing in the morning.

    "Actually, you don't have to ask so deeply, right?" Yun Zhengqing glanced at him, as if seeing through something, "The people you cited earlier, the guys chasing behind Xingdou, are not you. No matter what happens to Xing Dou, it has nothing to do with you, so why bother? And it's probably a thankless job, that kid doesn't seem like someone who will answer you obediently."

    "I know." Anmus hesitated for a while before confirming those words, "The people I'm talking about are indeed not me. I'm not like them, and I don't pay too much attention to others."

    "So you're not doing it for those friends you've been searching for?" The silver-haired senior laughed, "You don't look like someone who can do this kind of thing. Or... actually You finally see it clearly, no matter how much you control it, you will still notice some people who cannot be avoided?"

    "Are you out of curiosity, or just to get the kid's secret that others don't get?"

    The boy with white hair and black skin pursed his lips and lowered his eyes, but he subconsciously remembered what his friend said.

    "This is just a piece of advice." The purple-haired and purple-eyed boy raised his glasses, "Be careful. Don't be curious about Xingdou, it's better to look at him as if you were looking at other people. Don't pay attention to him. The difference is... loneliness, I have a hunch, that would make us too passive. Like the blond idiot who was always chasing him."

    "You don't want to say you..."

    "No." Xia Yuan denied, "I'm just a kind suggestion, don't think too much."

    But at one point, Anmus clearly saw that this calm friend, after the class competition, looked at Xingdou with a focus that he didn't even notice.

    Faced with Yun Zhengqing's question at this moment, the man who bloomed on the stage like a black rose on the day he saw the cruel face of the academy for the first time appeared in his mind.

    The moment he was evenly matched and **** for tat with himself, his blood was about to boil and burn.

    Remembering that he took the initiative to talk to him but was coldly rejected, after that, he looked at Yang Yu like a bystander without hope.

    I think of every amazing moment after the black-haired boy stood on the stage, and the indifferent attitude of the audience.

    Remembering that man was a little helpless in the face of the child, sitting in front of the barbecue table with a gentle smile on his lips.

    "...Maybe both." After a long time, he replied.

    "Hmph, it's still a child after all." Yun Zhengqing glanced, smiled lazily, and said something unclear, "So, is it lucky to meet such a person? Unfortunate?"