Chapter 135 That scumbag (3) (1/2)

Chapter 135 That scumbag (3) (1/2)

Mother Lin rushed into the room again.

When he came forward, his two children were looking at him with knives in their hands. Lin Shixing's face was especially stained with tears.

No matter how it looks, it looks like z-i'sa scene.

She panicked all of a sudden, her mind went blank, and she rushed up and snatched the knife away without caring about anything.

At this moment, at least Lin Shixing felt that she also loved him.

Her heart was full of pain, mixed with confusion and despair.

Since you love me, why don't you give me a chance.

Since you love me, why do you want to back me down the road of despair?

Is the love for my son really so great that I have to sacrifice my daughter to fill it?

Mother Lin's body was shaking until she threw the knife on the ground.

She looked at her daughter with trembling lips and spoke with a trembling voice: "Lin Shixing, did I owe you anything in my previous life? Do you have to make me angry to death before you will give in!!"

In the past, whenever she looked sad, Lin Shixing would no longer say hurtful words. She was even willing to admit her mistakes just to stop her mother from feeling sorry for her.

This may be her most despairing point.

Even if she was pushed to a dead end and stabbed hard in the heart, she still regarded these people as her closest relatives and the ones she was least willing to give up on.

But this time, Lin Shixing didn't want to retreat anymore.

She couldn't control the tears that kept pouring out of her eyes, and she was choked intermittently when she spoke, but she still said the words she had been holding back for a long time in one breath.

"Don't I owe you? Did I, Lin Shixing, kill someone and make a mistake in my previous life, so I will be reincarnated into your belly and become your daughter in this life?? I really don't ask for a lot, I don't ask for a lot , I don’t want you to treat me like you did to my brother, I just want you to stop pushing me into the fire pit..."

"Mom, do you know what you have been doing? You asked me to give up my great future and make me do nothing for the rest of my life. If it is said that our family is indeed in difficulty and needs money, I will not say anything more. I Drop out of school immediately to make money. If you and my dad get seriously ill and need money, I will do whatever it takes to save you, but is our family like this?"

Lin Shixing's crying was very distressing. She was originally a very good-looking girl, and she also paid attention to her image. In the past, she would hide in the room or under the quilt without making a sound when she cried. After she finished crying, she would wash her face again. , massage your eyes, if someone asks: Are you crying?

She would pretend to be relaxed and answer, no, she just yawned.

But now, she was crying without caring about her image, as if she wanted to vent all the grievances she had buried in her heart over the years.

"You and my dad just bought a new mobile phone for your brother last month, right? How many mobile phones has he replaced since he started buying them?? Every time he broke the phone and couldn't repair it, what about me? Me? Up to now, I only have an elderly phone that can only be used to make calls and send text messages. My father gave it to me when he no longer needed it. Every month you pay him living expenses. He spends 4,000 yuan a month. Sometimes when it is not enough, you still call me. If you want it, I can live in the school for 500 yuan a month and I can’t use it, but you are reluctant to give me money every time.

In the second year of junior high school, the teacher asked me to practice pen calligraphy. Everyone said that the x series pens were easy to use. I went home and told you that you thought that pen was expensive. A pen that costs more than ten yuan is quite expensive to me. , I was obedient, I didn’t buy it, but then you turned around and bought my brother a fifty-dollar basketball, just because he said he wanted to play during recess, Mom... you have to ask your conscience and ask yourself, from then on What will I ask of you in the future? ? "

Lin Shixing's voice trembled, looking at her mother who was shocked by her sudden outburst, and sniffed: "I have always told myself that it is not easy for you. I was born by you and raised by you, so I have to be considerate of you. , if you don’t give me money, I will earn it myself. If I don’t have enough money to spend, I will save money. I will eat cheap food and wear cheap clothes. I thought that in this way, you can save some worry and love me, at least with me. Compared to my brother, I’m pretty sensible, right?”

"But what about you?? Can you see it? Ever since you were little!! You only have my brother in your eyes!! Only him!! Where am I? Aren't I the one who comes along every time?? You keep telling me , my family paid so many fines for me. Sometimes I really want to tell you that it was you who decided to give birth to me, not my choice. If I had a choice, I would have known about you and me before I went into your belly. Dad doesn’t like me at all. In your eyes, I’m not even as good as my brother, and I’m only worthy of sacrificing myself. I would rather have never been born than become your daughter!”

Mother Lin stared blankly at her always well-behaved and quiet daughter in front of her. She opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but she didn't know what to say.

Lin Shiheng on the side, on the other hand, was still unaffected: "Lin Shixing, you are talking to mom, why are you talking about it on my head?"

Lin Shixing had never spoken to her parents like this before, and she was already sitting on the bed weakly without the need for Mother Lin to teach her.

It's not that I'm scared, I just find it ironic.

Ironically, after saying something like this that she would never have said before, she felt relief in her heart.

Yeah, easy.

Lin Shixing lowered his head and hid his tears.

That's it, in this family, she is simply a superfluous existence, and her parents can bring her up at any time because she was not eliminated in the first place.

Lin Shiheng and them are a family.

If dad comes back in the evening and still thinks she should drop out of school, then drop out of school, go out to work to make money, and transfer her household registration when she turns eighteen.

She will calculate the amount of money she spent from childhood to adulthood according to calculations. No matter how hard it is in the future, she will pay it all back.

So be it.

There was no need to hold out hope anymore, to give up on this family, on being their daughter.

Mother Lin didn't know what Lin Shixing was thinking. She was still in shock because she never thought that her daughter would have so much injustice in her heart.

Why are you so angry?

Boys and girls are treated differently. Shi Heng is the male of the family, so of course he should be treated well and taken good care of.

The boy spends a lot of money outside and goes to college. Isn't it normal to give him four to five thousand yuan? Shi Xing was in high school and had food and accommodation at the school. Five hundred yuan was not enough.

In the past, when she was working outside, she could spend five yuan a month, which was considered a good amount of money.

To Lin Shixing, she could just pat her conscience and say that she loved her very much.

For example, among her nieces and nephews, who is as blessed as Lin Shixing, who is still in school at the age of seventeen? Looking at what good food she has eaten at home since she was a child, even if Shi Heng ate most of it, the rest would be Won’t all the money given to you be given to the time star?

And those toys, although they always taught her brother not to steal them while playing with them, but couldn't she still play with them?

For example, when she was a child, she had not yet lost her brother's slingshot and top. Girls like them were not allowed to touch it, and they were not allowed to eat the delicious food at home. They were so drooling when they took it apart that they could only stand aside and watch their brother. To eat, you have to make a fire to cook, go up the mountain to cut pig grass, and come back to feed the pigs and chickens.

Because I always remember that when I was a child, I was so tired that I didn’t have the energy to play even if I wanted to. Before Shixing entered junior high school, she did all the housework that she could do, just to prevent her from being as tired as she was when she was a child.

Isn't this enough?

Isn’t this enough?

Lin's mother fell into confusion and confusion. She felt that Lin Shixing's anger was really unreasonable, because she thought she was good enough to her daughter and allowed her to enjoy happiness.

As for asking her to drop out of school and get married, isn't that because that family is rich? Marrying a rich man can save you a lot of hardships. She has experienced this firsthand. Why doesn't this child understand?

Mother Lin felt that she should take her daughter and teach her well.

She brewed her words in her head, "Shi Xing, listen to what I'm telling you..."

"Hey mom!"

Lin Shiheng interrupted her: "What are you telling her? She just wants to participate in the competition. Just let her go."

Mother Lin has always been very obedient to her son, but when she was thinking about shopping for groceries and gossiping, she heard a couple of things like "This star has been unwritten, that star's x-ray photos have been exposed" and "The entertainment industry is all dark. I can't get out" and other topics, but still said to him: "You kid doesn't understand, let me tell your sister first."

"What are you talking about? If you don't agree today, my sister will hit her head against the wall and die. She usually looks very soft, but when things happen she is tougher than anyone else. Have you forgotten that she was a child? The fight made Wang Chao's head so bloody that Lin Shixing was so cruel."

Lin Shixing, who was crying silently with his head down, raised his eyes and glared at his brother fiercely.

At that time, it was clear that this guy was fighting with Wang Chao. She went to start a fight, but Lin Shixing beat him to the brain and bled. When the parents asked, they all blamed her.

She told the truth, but none of her parents believed her. They insisted that Lin Shiheng was well-behaved, obedient, and would not fight.

If it weren't for Lin Shiheng being pushed out to take the blame countless times since she was a child and her parents' partial treatment, she wouldn't have such a bad relationship with Lin Shiheng, who should be called her brother.

Lin Shixing became more and more angry as he recalled the past, but Mother Lin was suddenly frightened.

She licked her dry lips and said dryly: "Shi Xing, it's not that mom doesn't want you to go. Those places are unclean. You are a good little girl, so what if you go there? What if something happens?" What's up……"

Lin Shixing's eyes were still red. She tried hard to hold back her tears and looked at her mother stubbornly: "What if it's my brother? My brother wants to go? You won't let him, either?"

"Hey, I'm just playing games at home. Why go there and compete with a group of people for a spot? I'm not too busy."

Lin Shixing just pretended that he didn't hear Lin Shiheng's words, and still looked at his mother persistently: "Don't lie to me, I can see it, tell me the truth, if Lin Shiheng wants to go, will you let him go?"

Mother Lin groaned for a while, but still said hesitantly: "Shi Heng is a boy, and he is so old. He won't be taken advantage of..."

Lin Shixing burst into tears.

It was obvious that she covered her mouth to stop her crying, but the intermittent, choked and pitiful cries were still exposed from between her fingers. Lin Shixing turned around, lifted up the quilt and hid his entire body, including his head.

"You guys go out, I want to be alone for a while."

Mother Lin glanced at her daughter hesitantly. Facing her daughter who had just accused her a lot, she was afraid that she would be provoked. She could not put on a strong air and could only hesitate. Said: "Then you have a good rest. When you wake up and your father comes back, we will talk to you properly."

As she said that, she knelt down and took the pair of scissors in her hand. She looked around again to make sure that there was nothing that could be used for sex. Then she turned around and pulled Lin Shiheng out of the door. .

Hearing the sound of the door closing, Lin Shixing, who was hiding in bed, could no longer suppress his crying and sobbed.

At this moment, she really wanted to end her life like Lin Shiheng said.

Outside the door, Lin Shiheng threw away his mother's hand as soon as he walked into the living room: "Mom, you are too old-fashioned. Why is this place unclean? Isn't it just a song? No wonder Lin Shixing is unhappy. If it were me, I would Not happy either."

Mother Lin can be tough with her daughter, but not with her son. After all, the ideological education she has received since she was a child is that men are the gods. Whether it is father, husband or son, as long as they are strong, she will be weak.

"You are still young, you don't know, your sister is only seventeen years old..."

"yes."

Lin Shiheng interrupted his mother impatiently: "You are only seventeen years old and you want her to drop out of school and work."

Mother Lin paused, not knowing how to refute for a moment, so she could only murmur: "I have been working since I was a teenager, and so was your aunt. Didn't your dad and I get along while we were working? ?”

"When you go out to work, your family doesn't have the money or conditions to support your education. Doesn't my uncle also go to school? In what age is it now, is our family short of so much money? Mom, I didn't tell you, you and my dad have It was really feudal at that time. Can you accept some new things? Then my sister Lin Shixing dropped out of school at the age of seventeen. What has become of my nineteen-year-old brother who is still in school? Her grades are still so good, just look at it. , if you do this, the chatty women around you might say what they say about our family behind our backs."

After saying that, Lin Shiheng turned around and strode into his room without looking at his mother who was muttering something to explain, and closed the door with a bang.

Mother Lin was the only one left standing blankly in the living room.

She looked confused and puzzled. She was not angry with her son. After all, she had long been used to his attitude.

She just didn't understand what she had done wrong.

Mother Lin sat on the sofa for a long time, but felt restless again, so she had to stand up and lie next to the door of the guest room to listen to what was going on inside, and then mop the floor with a mop.

After going back and forth a few times, the words my daughter said and the words my son said kept intersecting in my mind.

Finally, she hesitantly raised her eyes to look at her daughter's door, then turned and went downstairs.

Lin Shixing had not slept. Although her eyes were swollen from crying and she was a little sleepy, and her spirit was full of fatigue, the strange thing was that her brain was always awake.

Things that happened since childhood kept replaying in my mind.

Some were bullied by Lin Shixing and her parents settled the matter, some were wearing clothes that she had been wearing for a year, which were short, tight and uncomfortable, and she had to wear school uniforms. There were also some when she fell while walking and was picked up by her parents to comfort her.

There are good ones and there are bad ones, but in the end there are more bad ones.

She opened her eyes quietly in the darkness, feeling that her tears had completely dried up.

In the quiet little room, the sound of the door opening was particularly noticeable.

Feeling someone opening the door, Lin Shixing closed his eyes subconsciously.

After a second, Mother Lin's voice sounded: "Shi Xing, are you asleep?"

Lin Shixing closed his eyes under the quilt and made no sound.

There was a rustling sound, and then the quilt covering her head was carefully pulled down. She couldn't see it with her eyes closed. She could only judge through touch and hearing that Mother Lin had tucked her in.

Then she stood up, walked to the door, as if going out, and closed the door gently.

I didn't stay in this room for more than two minutes the whole time.

Lin Shixing opened his eyes and found a pen in front of him.

x series, the one she wanted very much at the beginning.

She actually has money to buy it now. The money from her part-time job is enough for her to buy a lot of pens. However, because she saves money and it is not a necessity, she has been reluctant to buy it even if she likes it.

Lin Shixing stared at the pen intently. His eyes, which he thought were dry, started to ache again, and he was brewing tears.

She stretched out her hand to get the pen, but paused a second before touching it.

After a while, Lin Shixing turned around, turned his back to the pen, and closed his eyes.

In an instant, tears fell like rain.