Chapter 403: farthest distance
Chapter 403 The Farthest Distance
Li Lei shook his hands and slowly took her into his arms again.
"Xiao Ling..." His voice softened, almost pleading, "Can you come with me? Please, I can't live without you..." He was hoarse.
Xia Ling's eyes became moist again, and the tears that had just stopped almost burst out again. However, she still restrained herself and shook her head. "Li Lei, I can't leave, I can't..." What if she leaves, what if that poisonous oath really comes true? She has lived two lives and believes in God's will. How can she risk the person she loves most? It's better to stay far away and watch him live in peace for the rest of his life.
"I know you left with me to save me. Now that I'm fine and standing in front of you, why don't you come back with me?!" Li Lei held her shoulders with both hands, desperate and sad. , "The emperor can afford the liquidated damages, and so can I. Xiao Ling, come back, come back."
It was the first time Xia Ling heard him speak in such a tone, and her heart was torn and crushed piece by piece. It turned out that she would be so sad when she saw him looking sad.
But, how can we agree to him?
"Li Lei, this is not a matter of money." Xia Ling hardened her heart, determined to cut off his thoughts, and said with difficulty every word, "I...I followed Pei Ziheng voluntarily, there was no force, we couldn't help it..." , just went to bed."
“Nonsense!” he growled hoarsely, like a wounded beast.
Xia Ling held back the pain and mustered up the courage to look directly into his eyes: "It's true, Li Lei."
She spoke very slowly, with burning pain tearing at her heart and lungs while breathing, "Actually, I have always liked him, and I liked him before you. But I don't want to be his kept lover, I want an equal and clean relationship, so I I would only run away from him before and be with you—you have always been his substitute.”
These words conceal many facts.
She couldn't tell him that it was true that she once liked Pei Ziheng, but now, her love had been worn away over the long years. She was afraid of Pei Ziheng and afraid of returning to that gorgeous but cruel cage.
She does want an equal and clean love, but that love is given by the man in front of her. She felt so relaxed and at ease around Li Lei, as if she was bathing in the warm sunshine. She has fallen in love with him and wants to grow old with him forever, but parting comes too early...
There is no chance to say to him, I love you.
"Substitute...?" Li Lei's hand let go of hers unconsciously, and he took a few steps back, looking sad and disbelieving, "Xiao Ling, it turns out that this is how you always view me?"
"Yes." She said with difficulty, "The days of unrequited love are too lonely, so I couldn't help but throw myself into your arms. But that day on the cliff, I figured it out - if I die, I will die. I will never have the chance to be with Zi Heng. I vowed to myself at that time that if I could survive, I would go to Zi Heng. "
She pronounced the word "Zi Heng" deliberately in a very affectionate tone.
In her last life, she had pronounced these two words countless times, with infinite nostalgia and admiration. Now that I read it again, I feel so familiar with it. The soft tone is filled with inextricable love and lingering. If you are not the one who loves each other, you will not be able to read this feeling.
Li Lei's expression changed again and again. Xia Ling felt that her heart was broken to the point of numbness. She emptied all her true emotions, leaving only a shell. She pretended that she was an actor and recited lines in front of the camera: "So, after I survived, I will be with Zi Heng." . As for saving you, it’s just a matter of effort. Li Lei, please understand that I didn’t stay with him just to save you. Don’t be so sentimental.”
She finished this sentence in one breath, not daring to pause for fear that she would be unable to continue.
"I don't believe it, I don't believe it!" He stared at her with red eyes, "Everything you said is false, right? How could you fall in love with such a devil? Do you know how ruthless and perverted he is, Ye Xingling You're crazy! He doesn't treat women as human beings at all! Are you willing to be his plaything and abandon him like trash when he gets tired of it? I told you, I checked him, he..."
"That's enough!" Xia Ling interrupted him fiercely. His words were like knives, piercing her heart every sentence, "Li Lei, what do you know?! You don't need to tell me what kind of person Zi Heng is! You I don’t understand at all! That’s between me and him! I’m happy to be with him!”
Her screams were partly fake, and partly because she was really in unbearable pain. The relationship with Pei Ziheng was like a wound that kept bleeding and festering. No matter who touched it lightly, it would be unbearable.
Li Lei laughed angrily, "Ye Xingling, I love you so much that I risked my life to save you, but in the end you told me that you want to stay with another man?! Ye Xingling, you are so heartless!"
"You have nothing to do with it!" She didn't want the final moment of their breakup to end in such a hurtful quarrel, but his sarcasm was like a sharp knife, making her unable to help but fight back, "Li Lei, no matter how perverted Pei Ziheng is , is a thousand times better than you! No, I love him, you hear me, I love him!"
Li Lei was also hurt and furious, "Ye Xingling, I didn't know you had a masochistic tendency before. If you are good at this, I can satisfy you!" There was a storm brewing in his eyes, and his words became more vicious.
She turned her head away uncomfortably, and for a moment, she forced herself to raise her head again, "You don't have to worry about it! I am willing to humiliate me again! Li Lei, please respect yourself and don't bother me again in the future!"
After saying that, she suddenly turned around and rushed out of the corridor.
As if fleeing, she ran down the stairs step by step, and the echoes magnified infinitely behind her. It was so lively, as if they were laughing loudly at her selfishness and cowardice.
I rushed out of the office building all the way. Outdoors, there was the pale golden light of the morning sun, and the rising sun on the horizon was magnificent and brilliant.
Beside the green belt, two security guards on duty were joking. Under an old banyan tree, a middle-aged man opened a steaming bun in a plastic bag and handed it to his wife who was cleaning the street. But here, Xia Ling stood alone. No matter what kind of heart-breaking pain she had just experienced, she didn't know anything about the world and only cared about her own happiness.
She stumbled and lost her mind.
I don’t know how long I walked, maybe two or three steps, maybe ten steps. Suddenly, I saw a car parked under the lush green shade on the opposite side of the road. It was black and majestic. It was Pei Ziheng’s Rolls-Royce.
Xia Ling stopped and did not pass by. She just stared blankly.
Pei Ziheng has several cars like this, and sometimes he will send a driver to pick her up. This car parked here early in the morning. Did Pei Ziheng ask her to stay up late and finish recording the song and go home early?
(End of this chapter)