Chapter 148
It is often said that three-year-old sees the old". The development of character in childhood is very important to life when you grow up. Only with a good and stable foundation can a skyscraper leading to happiness be built on top of it. If the foundation is too poor, it will not lead to If enough attention is paid to timely reinforcement, even if the building is built, as long as there is a little mistake, it will inevitably collapse in the end.
That's why it is said that an unfortunate childhood takes a lifetime to heal.
Shang Muxiao lacked love when he was a child, and there was only one Shang Yunrou by his side, so he just held on to each other tightly, and only had each other in his eyes. He couldn't see others and didn't need them. Seizing Shang Yunrou's clear source of love is the most urgent and most important thing to tell him, so even if other people show him kindness or admiration, he will have bad contacts and won't want to follow the instructions. receive.
Should I say that he and I will be together, is it also a good time and place? If it wasn't for Shang Yunrou's love for Yang Haiyang, which made him lose the only one who was single-minded, and made him eager to find a gem to fill the vacancy, I might be just like Yin Nuo, even if there is a jiāo set, it is nothing in his eyes. It's unremarkable glass.
In this way, Yin Nuo's unwillingness is easy to understand. From his point of view, he may have just flashed his mind and didn't realize Shang Muxiao's emotional needs, so he let me take advantage of it." He missed the only and last chance. He vomited blood just thinking about it.
But this is the case with everything in the world, luck cannot be seen or touched, but it accounts for a huge proportion. He was unlucky, insisting on one thing for so long, but there was no good ending. Shang Muxiao and I were lucky, so after going through so many ups and downs, we were able to watch TV together on the sofa as we are now.
I just hope that there will be no more windy làng in the future life, and it will be safe and sound.
However, there is no strong wind, and complete calm is unlikely.
On the way to work this day, I received a call from Lu Yue—Papa Lu passed away.
When I saw that the caller was her, I was mentally prepared, and it was not too surprising, but after hanging up the phone, I still pulled the car to the side of the road and calmed down for a long time.
When he got home, Shang Muxiao had brought his dog to the door and was playing games. He has more and more things at home these days, not to mention his clothes and trousers. He also installed his game console two days ago, saying that my projection cloth is too big, and it is relatively difficult to play.
I said hello to him when I entered the door, and then headed into the kitchen to cook.
The rice is already cooked in the rice cooker - this is the only thing Shang Muxiao can do, just make two more dishes.
What’s wrong with you? "Cut the loofah, the voice of Shang Muxiao suddenly sounded behind him.
I stopped the knife and turned my head in confusion. He leaned against the kitchen door and looked at me with frown. Seeing that I didn't speak, he quickly walked towards me.
Who made you angry? "He stretched out a hand to hold my face, and asked himself, observing my expression.
Sometimes he is really keen, not only in terms of seeing people, but also in observing words and expressions.
Somehow, the emotions that should have calmed down could no longer be suppressed after he asked this way.
I let go of the knife, I hugged him tightly, put my face on his shoulder, closed my eyes and said: My roommate's father, passed away. "
He was shocked when he heard the words, but he didn't make a sound for a long time, just let me hold him.
When you're not here these days, I'll read your book too. "He raised his hand and pressed it lightly on my back, in an indescribably clumsy gesture of soothing people. Seeing Schopenhauer saying that in the face of irreparable things, we should all do our best and obey the destiny. , tell yourself... everything that happens is bound to happen, unavoidable."
This is typical fate theory.
Are you interested in philosophy? "I leaned on him, snuggled up to him, and I couldn't say I was fully recovered, but I also received a lot of comfort.
Because I want to know more about your world. ' he said, hugging me tighter.
We hugged in the kitchen for a long time, and after making sure my emotions were stable, Shang Muxiao released me.
In the end, he didn't let me continue to cook, but ordered the usual takeout. In the evening, on the grounds that I was afraid of my wild thoughts, I stayed with Dan Huáng for the night and did not leave.
Chapter 66 You don't need to be very sensible
Shang Muxiao and I attended Dad Lu's funeral. In fact, I can do it alone, but he was afraid that it would be dangerous for me to drive when I was emotionally unstable, so he insisted on accompany me.
Not to be emotionally unstable. Death is the inevitable fate of everyone. From birth, we are living towards death. Everyone will play the leading role in a TV series called "My Life", and finally go to this inevitable ending.
When Dad Lu was alive, I may have some regrets that he failed to fight for himself a chance to live. But he has passed away now, and I have said goodbye to him, so I can say that I have no regrets.
Father Lu was buried in the cemetery where Lu Feiheng was located. On the day of the burial, Shang Muxiao and I left home early in the morning. When the time came, Shang Muxiao also bought a bunch of white flowers at the gate.
Those who attended the funeral wore solemn black clothes. Lu's mother was supported by Lu Yue and kept wiping her tears with a tissue. Seeing me coming, Mama Lu took the initiative to come over and give me a hug, thanking me for being able to send Dad Lu the last ride.