Chapter 76: That surrogate white moonlight
In May, the air is no longer pure, and the place with light is full of summer breath, mixed in the breath, and the air circulation is a little hot.
Occasionally raised his head, he could also see a few wispy clouds against a light blue background.
At this time, Yan Zhi was standing at the parking spot closest to the school, waiting for the next bus.
Four or five o'clock in the afternoon on Saturday is the peak time for school.
A weekend of free time starts here. A large group of day students and resident students are rushing to go home to enjoy the long-lost family care, but the bus is swaying slowly today, making the major bus stops near the school overcrowded. .
Not to mention sitting leisurely on the shaded bench, even standing is a problem.
Yan Zhi struggled to take out his mobile phone from his satchel to check the time, but this action caused his hair to become disordered.
The smell of sweat mixed with the aroma of biscuits fills the nose, which is really nauseating.
She looked away from the three missed calls displayed on the screen, tilted her head slightly, and caught a glimpse of the girl next to her who was eating soda cookies, chatting with her companion with a mouthful of scallion, and sprinkled cookie crumbs on a boy in front of her as she spoke. hoodie.
The black hat is stained with splotches.
so poor. She sighed softly for the boy in her heart, but the other party didn't seem to notice.
"It's Gu Zhi'an, it must be. I've seen the two of them go shopping together several times!"
The girl's voice was a little bit acerbic, like a matchmaker, and she was not covering up her gossip, which was brought into her ears by the hot and humid wind.
"...What kind of person, actually..."
"She's a senior from the key liberal arts class. She's pretty, but her grades aren't very good, but she seems to have an older sister. It is said that she also likes Huo Xingchao, and has been chasing after him for a long time..."
The girl was chattering, and just as she was talking about her excitement, she suddenly heard a "chi--" in her ear, interrupting her abruptly.
The bus always appears at a sensitive point at a critical moment, but it happened that Yan Zhi stepped on the huge body along the crowd, which was definitely not what she wanted to hear anyway.
And because of the number of people, some people were intercepted, and the parking lot was full of complaints.
Yan Zhi stuck his head out of the window and looked seriously at the girl who started chatting again, until the other party turned her head with a stunned expression.
Yan Zhi ignored her, and the bus staggered away again.
......
Since high school, the person Yan Zhi didn't want to face the most was Gu Zhi'an.
They live in the same home, have the same parents, even like the same book, the same TV show, and are sisters.
But not sisters.
In other words, they are the "contradictions and conflicts" that their parents were forced to integrate into a family after their second marriage.
But Yan Zhi felt awkward towards Gu Zhian, definitely not because of this.
Yan Zhi's mother is a strong woman in family and career, and Yan Zhi's stepfather is gentle enough and tolerant enough.
On the contrary, she lives like a duck to water, which is enviable.
When she was seventeen years old, between her and Gu Zhian, Yan Zhi always played the good daughter who was "taken by her parents to relatives and friends to accept envy, jealousy and hatred", and she was in the limelight.
But she just didn't want to face Gu Zhian.
It's not because the other party's simple and cute self is too thoughtful and scheming, or because she is lively and cheerful, and her popularity is better and more popular.
But because of a secret.
It shows her inferior character, greedy desire, and dark selfishness.
Just like the dark clouds that suddenly fell down in the sky, in a few seconds, it will be a rapid rain of the sun.
Then splashed muddy water all over the place, with small and dirty mud and sand, splashing on the bottom of her uneasy heart.
......
Yan Zhi squeezed for several stops in the crowded carriage, until the number of people in the car gradually dwindled. She found a seat in the last row, sat down, and stared blankly at the scenery outside the window.
No one will be happy, his boyfriend will always be dragged together by gossip people who don't know the truth and another girl, and in between, he is still a negative third party.
However, the hidden unease and grievances in her heart made it impossible for her to refute it confidently.
The phone vibrated slightly in his palm.
Yan Zhi lowered his eyes, clicked on WeChat, and saw several messages popping up one after another at the top of the screen:
"Can't make up class tomorrow?"
"Eat lunch together?"
"Otherwise, it's Zhouji's one."
.....
One sentence after another, Yan Zhi didn't need to answer at all, and the other party went straight through the whole process on his own.
Yan Zhi looked down for a while, then paused with his fingertips on the keyboard, and typed back "um".
Just after she finished typing, a new message appeared above. It was sent by Gu Zhian, asking her if she wanted to go to make-up lessons tomorrow morning, and whether she would go home for lunch at noon.
Yan Zhi was silent for a while.
"No."
She exited the chat window and looked at the message interface of WeChat.
The top two contacts: Gu Zhian. Huo Xingchao.
The two names are linked together, inexplicably harmonious, and even the questions asked are almost identical.
She put away her phone and looked at the raindrops and the surviving sunshine outside the window with a sense of loss, and suddenly felt very lost.
Gu Zhi'an and Yan Zhi have different surnames and half mothers.
The first seventeen years of her life were smooth sailing and the sun was shining brightly.
But she suddenly felt that life is always unpredictable.
Just like this rain of sun, it came swiftly and violently, cutting off the long sunny days.
Huo Xingchao was taking supplementary lessons at home.
The tutor is a famous college student specially hired by his parents, and he is the top student in the college entrance examination in Z province.
Huo Xingchao leaned on the chair boredly, raising his eyelids lazily, not knowing whether he heard it or not.
The hand on his knee flipped over and over the WeChat interface, and there was a simple "um" on it, which made him feel a little dissatisfied, frowned, and stood up straight.
"No more."
The tutor was stunned,
"But you haven't finished the exercises in this chapter. This is already the progress of the last class. It must be finished today."
"No time, no time."
"Huo Xingchao..."
"Is it annoying?"
The teenager turned his head and frowned, showing a little irritability and unhappiness, "I'll pay you the money anyway, I'm not in the mood to study today."
After he finished speaking, he opened the door and walked out. Even the black T-shirt blown by the wind at the door revealed a bit of lawless arrogance and rebellion.
With a "bang", the door was snapped shut.
The tutor looked at his back silently, finally sighed, and resignedly packed up the books and left.
So it is said that a good boy, no matter how good his face is, what is the use of this kind of lawless playboy, when he grows up, he will be at most a second-generation ancestor who eats and waits to die.
......
The second ancestor, Huo Xingchao, is now lying in bed thinking about life.
This world is different from the previous ones.
In the previous few worlds, Xiao Xingxing's tragic fate may have some of his responsibility, but it is not mainly because of him.
Most of the time, he acts as a supporting character in the story to save the little star.
But in this world, the bleakness of Yan Zhi's star value was almost caused by Huo Xingchao, the male protagonist.
The story is actually very simple and bloody, and the plot is a bit like the previous Taiwan idol dramas.
Yan Zhi and Gu Zhi'an are sisters after the two families were reunited. Yan Zhi has a gentle and generous personality, and has excellent academic performance.
Gu Zhian is lively and cheerful, widely popular, free-spirited, artistic student, romantic and fanciful.
When they were very young, probably in the second or third grade of elementary school, the two schools jointly organized a spring outing. During the meal, Huo Xingchao and Gu Zhian accidentally went into the depths of the forest and got lost by accident.
The two children had a good interaction there and formed a beautiful friendship.
Huo Xingchao had a phobia of darkness. Before the teacher found them, Gu Zhian had been holding him and comforting him.
So in Huo Xingchao's young mind, Gu Zhian was like a trace of warmth in the dark. In short, there is a fate.
Later, when they separated, they agreed to be good friends for life in the future.
Unfortunately, in the panic, both of them forgot to ask each other's names.
But it didn't take long for Huo Xingchao's parents to transfer to another school because of job transfer. Before leaving, Huo Xingchao secretly ran to Gu Zhi'an school to say goodbye to her, but by accident, she was misunderstood by the book she accidentally dropped on the ground, thinking her name was Yan Zhi.
After many years, after entering high school, Huo Xingchao finally transferred back to the school in Huaicheng.
He found Yan Zhi and took the initiative to be friends with her. Later, he got along with her, and he became a boyfriend and girlfriend.
Then one day, he suddenly discovered that the "Yan Zhi" he thought was not the "Yan Zhi" he once thought, but Gu Zhi'an.
In fact, Yan Zhi didn't know about it until halfway through the relationship, but out of some selfishness, she hesitated and lost. She tried to speak several times, but she never could.
Therefore, Huo Xingchao suddenly felt the anger of being deceived, and he broke with Yan Zhi on impulse.
During that time, Huo Xingchao and Gu Zhian were very close, but every time he saw Yan Zhi's silent and low expression in school, he always felt very uncomfortable.
But just as his heart was slowly shaking, Gu Zhian died.
It was a group fight, and Gu Zhian blocked Huo Xingchao.
She said, Huo Xingchao, you must always remember me.
That night, the moonlight was shallow, and the scene of the girl lying on the ground, smiling and closing her eyes, became the eternal white moonlight in Huo Xingchao's heart.
Then came all the pain and guilt that followed.
Yan Zhi wanted to comfort him and help him get out of the shadow in his heart, but Huo Xingchao regarded her as Gu Zhian's substitute.
In the following years, Yan Zhi has been suppressing herself, she really loves Huo Xingchao. But Huo Xingchao will always remember the girl who died because of him.
His all kinds of affection, thousands of pounds, all of them were loaded on Gu Zhian by himself in repeated memories.
Gu Zhian is lively and cheerful and likes to draw, but Yan Zhi has to pretend to be lively and cheerful and learn to draw. Gu Zhian likes blue, so she must like blue. Gu Zhian likes to wear denim skirts the most, and her closet is full of all kinds of denim skirts.
Huo Xingchao's every word, every action, every look, is forcing her to become exactly like Gu Zhian.
In this way, let the white moonlight in my heart survive.
On the night Gu Zhian died, Yan Zhi also died.
But after so many years, Yan Zhi was still tired.
She looked at herself in the mirror and looked at the man who never seemed to care about her feelings, finally smiled and let go completely.
She got on a plane and flew across the ocean.
From now on, there will be no contact between the two sides of the strait.
.....
As for Huo Xingchao.
You deserve to cry.