Chapter 82: That surrogate white moonlight
"I don't know, what do you mean when you talk about childhood."
"what do you mean?"
"that is......"
Yan Zhi paused for a while, and suddenly couldn't speak again.
What should I say.
Say you're not the little girl you met when you were a kid.
—Then why didn’t you say it a few weeks ago?
Because I am afraid. I'm afraid you will leave me after you know about this.
Just like mother, piano, best friend, the same, turning around mercilessly, estranged without a trace, gradually faded in my life.
- But am I such a person?
...I know you are not.
But I am afraid.
......
Yan Zhi lowered his head and was silent for a long time, still stuck there, unable to say a word.
The boy raised his eyes in surprise and looked at her
"What are you trying to say? Say it boldly, I won't scold you."
I'd rather you scold me.
"Yan Zhi, don't be so fickle, it hurts to look at me."
Huo Xingchao tapped her head with chopsticks,
"Speak quickly if you have something to say."
She let out a small breath,
"Huo Xingchao, in fact, I will always remember the first time I saw you."
"uh-huh?"
"At that time, in the physical education class, the ninth and eleventh classes were together. When you were free, you were playing basketball, and 90% of the girls around were watching you. I asked them why they stayed in the big sun. Under the sun, they say you are handsome."
The boy raised his eyebrows proudly and snorted softly.
"Later, An Jianyu came to me and called me from the other side of the playground. Then you heard the voice and suddenly turned around."
Yan Zhi slightly curved her lips,
"You ran over and grabbed my collar like a lunatic, and your tone was very rogue. You said, oh, you are Yan Zhi."
"Yan Zhi, who are you calling a rogue psychopath?"
"I thought at that time, is this going to confess to me? Then the next second, you suddenly handed me your mineral water, I don't want it, you still have to stuff it into my hat and ask me to drink water. I thought at the time, this person is afraid that there is something wrong with his brain."
"..."
"Afterwards, you ran back to play basketball, because An Jianyu was in a hurry to find me. I didn't want to bother with you. I walked away with a bottle of mineral water on my back. Halfway through, you suddenly shouted. You shouted 'Yan Zhi' very loudly. , startled me."
"As soon as I turned around, I saw you grinning at me holding a basketball, silly and brilliant, just like Luffy in One Piece."
Yan Zhi looked at him with a soft tone,
"You never laughed like that again, but every time I think of you, the first picture that pops up subconsciously in my mind is your smirk that day."
"...Yan Zhi, why do I think you're scolding me seriously?"
"I didn't scold you. I just... thought of seeing you for the first time."
Huo Xingchao sneered and handed her a pair of chopsticks.
"Then you must have a problem with your memory. I don't laugh like Luffy, sir. Is it the rebellious Lu Luxiu?"
Yan Zhi sighed,
"You still don't understand what I mean?"
"What do you mean? Don't you just want to say that after you saw me for the first time, you have been obsessed with me until now."
"yes."
She raised her head, her eyes were dark, and her voice was soft,
"Because that was the first time I saw you."
"I didn't get lost in the woods, I didn't get through the long dark night with you, I didn't tell you that I would be a good friend for a lifetime, and I didn't make an appointment when I parted to see you again."
"Huo Xingchao, the first time I saw you was on that sunny afternoon. You gave me a bottle of mineral water. It was the Yujing water from the Taiqing Palace in Laoshan."
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After eating at noon, Yan Zhi went home. It was still daylight saving time, and there was a one-and-a-half hour lunch break at noon.
The two parents of the Gu family were busy at noon and would not come back to cook, so there were only Yan Zhi and Gu Zhian at home.
The two were sitting on the sofa in the living room. Gu Zhian held the remote control and pressed up one channel after another. His expression was silent, and he didn't say a word, as if something was brewing.
Yan Zhi looked down at the phone, her eyelashes fluttered, her fingertips paused on the keyboard for a long time, but she still didn't type a letter.
Today at noon, after she said that, the boy was obviously stunned. His usual rebellious eyebrows gradually calmed down, and his tone was a little hesitant.
"Then...why didn't you say it before?"
Why didn't you say it before.
You rushed to my side unscrupulously, in physical education classes, sports meetings, cram schools, you are everywhere.
He didn't say hello, and he didn't explain why. No matter what, he was full of enthusiasm and goodwill, and he couldn't escape at all.
Later, I was caught in this fire, but you suddenly told me that from the very beginning, it was not for you.
What am I going to tell you?
"...Then do you know who that little girl is?"
He seemed a little tangled and at a loss, and finally scolded in a low voice, "Fuck, that's not what I meant."
"I just wanted to say, you suddenly told me this today, you must have found out who that little girl is..."
Well, actually found it long ago.
Maybe I'm a little more selfish and shady than you think.
Yan Zhi pursed her lips and pulled out a disappointed arc, "En."
"Just in your direction at 6 o'clock."
......
Huo Xingchao turned his head. Coincidentally, Gu Zhian also turned around without knowing what to think.
The second they met, Yan Zhi held back the tears in his eyes, picked up the plate, stood up, and walked straight to the outside of the cafeteria.
"Student, you haven't put your plate yet."
A student on duty behind her called her.
Yan Zhi lowered his head and took a few steps back, put the plate on the sorting table, and left in a hurry.
It was noon at that time, and the sun was really big.
She raised her head slightly, and could feel the overwhelming sunlight.
Sheng's tears came out.
......
"Yan Zhi, why didn't you tell me about your relationship with Huo Xingchao?"
Gu Zhi'an finally couldn't bear it anymore, put down the remote control, turned his head directly, and looked straight at her, with uncontrollable grievance and resentment in his tone.
Yan Zhi's tone was light,
"Why should I tell you?"
"You clearly know that I like him!"
"I know, but there are many people in the world who like him. Does anyone like my boyfriend, do I have to tell them one by one?"
Gu Zhi'an was stunned for a while. She and Yan Zhi had been sisters for so many years. It was the first time she saw her with such a sharp tone.
"But......"
She was silent for a while, tears suddenly fell, and her voice also carried a fragile cry,
"But we're sisters, aren't we. I'll tell you everything, even if you insist on being with him, it's okay to tell me."
"I still foolishly thought he was single, and I thought so seriously about going to a university with him. You clearly knew what was on my mind, yet you kept it from me. You are really going too far..."
"You also told your friends not to play with me, knowing that I was going to participate in the English competition, you deliberately went to the teacher to ask for that place. After each monthly test, you can show off your scores, and you have to mention me on purpose. Do you think I don't know about Yan Zhi's grades? Actually, I know everything about Yan Zhi. I just let you, so I won't tell you."
......
Yan Zhi stood up.
Gu Zhian cried out of breath, very sad, very sad.
She was a little confused, a little overwhelmed, she seemed to have a lot to say, but she couldn't say it because of her clumsy mouth, so she could only hold the corner of her clothes and cry repeatedly,
"Yan Zhi, why are you doing this to me?"
......
"Actually, I've been thinking about it for a long time, Gu Zhi'an, why are you doing this to me?"
Yan Zhi twitched the corners of his lips, revealing a self-deprecating smile,
"When you were young, you knew that I wanted to learn the piano so much, but you still had to tell your mother that I secretly called my dad. When you were in junior high school, you knew that I had a period, and the whole pants were dyed red, but all morning Didn't say a word to me. After high school, you knew that I only wanted to study liberal arts, but you still 'accidentally' told my mother that I had changed the volunteer form."
"A lot of things, I'm thinking, why are you doing this to me?"
"..."
The girl's crying stopped, her eyes were still red, and she lowered her head silently, not knowing what she was thinking.
Yan Zhi raised his head, resisting the heat in his eyes,
"Actually, whether it's my father or my mother, I don't care. When I go to college, I will try not to come home. At that time, you don't have to worry about me all day long."
"Gu Zhi'an, let's stop being sisters, it's really tiring to live like this. From now on, we'll be strangers and let each other go."
She put away her phone, went to the door to put on her shoes, thought of something, and raised her head again,
"Oh, by the way, don't worry, Huo Xingchao is still single."
"I broke up with him."
......
At the same time, Gu Zhian could feel the sound of receiving text messages from his mobile phone.
On the screen, a few lines of words lay quietly on the SMS interface:
"Hello, I'm Huo Xingchao. I want to talk to you about something. When are you free?"
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