Chapter 81:
Of course, Xie Yan and Song Zhili failed to give Jiang Yushi and Yuchiyan a reasonable explanation in the end.
The train took five hours to reach its destination, and everyone arrived exhausted.
I originally planned to eat local specialties on the night of my arrival, but now I am so tired that I have no appetite, so I fell asleep after packing my luggage.
Early the next morning, they set off on their way to see Song Zhili's mother.
Everyone tacitly wore black clothes, which matched their mood today, but Song Zhili wore a light blue sweater.
Song Zhili's eyes fell on them, and he said, "My mother doesn't like lifeless black, white and gray, so please change to brighter colors."
Jiang Yushi was stunned for a moment and asked, "But isn't it more taboo to wear brightly colored clothes for worship?"
Song Zhili said: "It's not worship, I just want my mother to see you."
So everyone went back to the room one after another, trying to pull out the colorful clothes from the suitcase.
Yu Chiyan's yellow sweater, Xia Wan's orange jacket, Jiang Yushi's green denim jacket, and Su Qi's purple shirt.
Xie Yan, who was still wearing a loose black coat, was silent because there were only black, white and gray in his suitcase.
Xie Yan asked sincerely, "Where did you find so many ugly clothes? Are you going to star in the live-action version of the Seven Fairies of Joy?"
Xia Wan waved her fist at him and said, "I think it looks pretty."
Although the clothes are indeed average, everyone's face and body can be supported.
Xie Yanyi grabbed Xia Wan's hand and looked at her with a half-smile, without speaking, her attitude was obvious.
Song Zhili's eyes fell on Xie Yan's hand, he turned around and said directly: "Let's go."
along the way.
Xia Wan kept flipping through snacks from Su Qi's backpack, and when she was about to reach her destination, she tore a piece of candy and stuffed it into Song Zhili's mouth.
Song Zhili was stunned for a moment, and then his brows eased a lot.
The sugar in his mouth was actually a little greasy, but he liked it very much.
Song's mother's cemetery was in a park, which was probably the only thing Song Ze did. He bought the land at a huge price and hired someone to clean it regularly. This was her place.
The roadside is full of plum trees, but now that the best flowering season has passed, it seems a little lonely.
There are beautiful flowers and plants everywhere, only the corner is a grave.
The tomb has been filled with flowers, and only Song Zhili and Song Ze know this place now. You can tell who sent these flowers at a glance.
So Song Zhili pushed the flowers away with his hands, letting them roll on the ground next to them like garbage, and then carefully cleaned them up again.
He opened the backpack and put some of his mother's favorite foods on it.
Xia Wan hesitated for a while, then took out a small box from her pocket and handed it to Song Zhili, "I didn't buy plum blossoms, is this okay?"
Song Zhili opened the wooden box, and inside was a beautiful red plum blossom hairpin.
"She's going to love it," he said.
Song Zhili took them to incense his mother, and then burned a letter he wrote, which was considered to be sent to his mother.
Then he said gently: "Mom, have you seen it? The most unpleasant one in black is Xie Yan. I used to mention him to you a lot."
"...Huh?" Xie Yan said with a face full of incomprehension, "What is unpleasant? How did you introduce me to your mother before?"
Xie Yan walked over directly, squatted down, and said seriously, "Auntie, I'm Xie Yan, and I'm barely Song Zhili's best friend. Don't worry, if I'm here one day, he will live in one breath."
"What do you mean by being Song Zhili's best friend?" Su Qi was instantly dissatisfied, and he squeezed over and said earnestly, "Auntie, did Song Zhili ever mention me to you? I'm Su Qi, and he had the most difficult days. , I'm his only friend, please don't pay any attention to it."
Jiang Yushi and Yuchiyan also squeezed in immediately. They knew that they were not Song Zhili's best friend, so they started to grab who was Song Zhili's second best friend.
It was as if Mother Song was really in front of them, and they all worked hard to express their friendship with Song Zhili.
Seeing everything in front of her, the corners of Xia Wan's lips couldn't help but rise.
At this moment, Song Zhili turned to look at her.
Originally, he came to worship his mother, but he was crowded by a few friends and nowhere to stand. His face was full of helplessness, but there was no trace of dissatisfaction.
Maybe this is the best life.
There is no need to cry to worship, but to see those who have left with a smile is also the best way to let them relax.
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After the worship, they didn't go back to the hotel directly, but went to a special place together. Song Mother's house here, even Song Ze didn't know it existed.
Because Mother Song once told Song Zhili before committing suicide, if one day he feels that his mind is strong enough to accept everything, he can go there and see, there are things she wants to leave him there.
In a place uninhabited for decades, the house is covered with dust and cobwebs, and everything looks gray.
After listening to what Song Zhili said, Yu Chiyan expressed his understanding: "It's like looking for a treasure map, we have to compete to see who can find what your mother left you first."
Xia Wan was very speechless: "Who said there is going to be a competition?"
Yu Chi Yan coughed twice and said, "Isn't this more interesting and competitive?"
Although this is not a game, but everyone has worked hard to find it.
Except for Xia Wan.
Rather than looking for what Mother Song left behind, her eyes were more attracted by the picture in the frame hanging on the wall.
At that time, Song's mother was young and beautiful. At first glance, she was a beautiful girl at the school beauty level.
And Song Ze next to her also seemed to be a dignified and talented person, and the two seemed to be a good match.
But after thinking about what Song Ze did, Xia Wan naturally felt disgusted.
But she still took out a tissue from her pocket, stood on the sofa, and reached out to wipe the mother Song in the photo.
Such a beautiful person should be clean.
However, Xia Wan never imagined that this photo was hung on a nail. She used more strength in her hand to move the photo directly.
The frame wobbled and fell off the wall.
Xia Wan instinctively grabbed the photo and carefully guarded it.
She didn't stand still and fell from the sofa to the ground, but she still held the photo frame high with both hands.
The sound of her falling to the ground was not small, and everyone in every room rushed out immediately upon hearing the sound.
Jiang Yushi was the first to rush over, and immediately picked up the photo frame and put it aside, reaching out to help Xia Wan up.
Xia Wan waved her hands again and again: "Wait a minute, it hurts! It hurts!"
Jiang Yushi worried and asked, "Where is the pain?"
"Ass, slow down, slow down." Xia Wan's expression was painful, she felt that her **** had taken on everything, and it was about to become eight petals.
In the end, it was Yuchiyan and Jiang Yushi who "lifted" Xia Wan together.
But Song Zhili's eyes fell on the photo frame.
No, not the picture frame, but a piece of envelope exposed behind the picture frame.
He reached out and turned the frame over.
Sure enough, there were two envelopes behind the frame.
Everyone's eyes widened for a moment.
Xia Wan's hand was on her waist, and she couldn't care to continue to cry in pain.
By accident, she actually found what Song Zhili's mother left behind.
And when these envelopes were opened, the contents inside were shocking enough.
In the first envelope was a paternity test report of Song Ze and Song Yinyin.
The last sentence reads-
Negative parent-child relationship: Violation of the laws of inheritance (excluding mutation factors). (Note 1)
At that moment, everyone was silent.
Xia Wan stretched out her hand and pinched Yuchiyan's arm, and asked, "Does it hurt?"
"It hurts, but I still feel like I'm dreaming." Yuchiyan reached out and pinched Jiang Yushi's arm, and asked, "Do you hurt?"
"Nonsense." After Jiang Yushi finished speaking, he reached out and pinched Su Qi, and asked, "How about you?"
Su Qi gritted his teeth and said, "Have you finished yet?"
Xie Yan's life is rarely so shocking, but he still tried his best to regain his senses and concluded: "So Song Yinyin is not your father's biological daughter. Your mother knows about this, but she never told anyone."
The second envelope was opened, but there was no longer such evidence in it, but a letter left by the mother to Song Zhili.
Rather than a letter, it is better to say a sentence.
[I'm sorry Ali, please forgive my mother's cowardice. My mother didn't have the courage to end all this in person, and she was so tired that she could no longer live in this world. But mom is still very selfish. Mom can protect you obviously, but at the cost of making you suffer. I just hope that he will know the truth later, so that he will suffer more. It’s really hard for you, if there is a next life, Li, don’t be my child again, and don’t come to such a family again】
Xia Wan bit her lower lip, having difficulty accepting this information.
Obviously, Mother Song knew that Song Yinyin was not Song Ze's biological daughter for a long time, but she still chose not to make it public, in order to get revenge on Song Ze.
Because Mother Song knew that Song Ze would not treat their son well, but would give everything to the illegitimate daughter.
It's just ridiculous, the much-loved illegitimate daughter is not his biological daughter.
She knew the truth a long time ago, and she also knew that if Song Ze had told this earlier, he would have been nicer to Song Zhili and the only child.
But she didn't.
Because she knew that it was meaningless to tell the truth at that time. Only by letting Song Ze devote enough energy to this daughter would it be the biggest blow to him when he knew the truth.
Perhaps this is a good means of revenge, but at the expense of Song Zhili's life.
Originally, he could live a little better, at least a little better.
He could have suffered a little less pain in that home.
Song Zhili was silent for a long time.
He couldn't accept it. It turned out that even his mother didn't put love for him first.
He said: "The force that keeps me going is her. I thought I wasn't loved enough, not because I wasn't worthy of love, but because she wasn't in this world. But I found out that she wasn't really loved either. I."
When she was young, she loved her husband with a vigorous love.
Later, the love was gone, and all her hatred was still given to him, more than the love for the child.
It seems that her whole life, whether life or death, whether love or hate, is only related to him.
She ignored her parents, her children, and even herself.
There was a trace of confusion in the boy's eyes, as if he didn't understand why things were like this in the end.
Xia Wan had never seen Song Zhili so vulnerable, and even in the unfinished building before, she had never seen him helpless like this.
Just like a young child, it seems that there is no love or hate, not even much mood swings.
Because from start to finish, he just couldn't understand, and just couldn't understand.
Song Zhili looked up at her, her eyes were light red.
Xia Wan also looked at Song Zhili, she hesitated to raise her hands.
Because she felt that at such a time, he seemed to need a hug.
And at this moment-
Xie Yan strode over, took a step ahead of Xia Wan, hugged Song Zhili fiercely, and patted him on the back.
Then Xie Yan lowered his voice and asked, "What do you want to do."
Song Zhili did not answer.
His mother loved him, but she didn't love him that much. In fact, Song Zhili knew it when he was very young.
But for him, maternal love was the only warmth that could be drawn from the dark life at that time.
So he weaves a fairy tale for himself, imagining that there is a person who loves him enough, that is the illusory moon he created.
In other words, the moon in the water.
And today's incident is that the stone fell into the water, the moon was scattered, and he could no longer deceive himself.
But if you ask him how broken he must be? Not really, after all, it was already known.
The emotion just now may be the dissatisfaction he once had, but now he has long accepted it.
Because he no longer needs that illusory moon as he once did.
But Xie Yan's question made Song Zhili regret for a moment.
But he didn't know if he regretted making this appearance, or if he and Xie Yan knew each other too well, so that he could understand his own mind at a glance.
Song Zhili has always cared about his self-esteem the most, and the thing he is most afraid of is that someone will pity him.
That's why many years ago, just because Su Qi asked him a question and was unwilling to accept the other party's pity, this friendship stopped for a long time.
But don't know when to start...
No, it starts with hiding that coin on New Year's Eve.
He would rather she have pity on him, and hope she will see him more.
She is all his partiality, and selfishness.
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