Chapter 89: That surrogate white moonlight
When Yan Zhi returned home, it was past eleven o'clock.
Originally, her mother called her at nine o'clock to urge her to go home. Yan Zhi excused herself to pick out textbooks in the bookstore, and drank cocoa with Huo Xingchao for more than two hours outside.
At this moment, the lights outside were all turned off, and only a little light could be seen from the crack of the door between the parents and Gu Zhi'an's room.
She took advantage of this light to change her shoes, went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water, and then slowly returned to her room.
Although, she and Gu Zhian have been in a cold war for more than a week, and the atmosphere at home has become a bit awkward.
Although, the teacher told her that if she recruited herself, she might not be able to apply to the ideal school.
Although, there are still several months before the college entrance examination, the road ahead is long, and it seems that I can't see my head for a while.
But Yan Zhi's mood these days was surprisingly relaxed and calm.
Probably some of the emotions that had been suppressed in the bottom of my heart had been vented.
Suddenly I found that many things are not as important as I once thought.
She knew too well what she was going to do in the future.
When the illusory future has a clear direction in front of us, no matter how dark and rough it is, it will not be so difficult.
Yan Zhi closed the door, and the mobile phone in his pocket suddenly made a WeChat "ding dong" sound.
It was Huo Xingchao's voice.
She took it out and turned it on, and while pressing the light switch, the whole room was instantly lit up, and the boy's lazily voice came from the phone's external speaker.
"Yan Zhi, in another 42 minutes, don't forget to check your phone, the young master will send you some lucky money."
Yan Zhi glanced at the time at the top of the screen again—11:18.
October 16th.
Oh yes, her birthday is October 17th.
In 42 minutes, she will be 17 years old.
Yan Zhi is young, so she should go to school with the next class, but when she was in elementary school, the regulations in this regard were not very strict, so she went to the first grade according to her age.
Unexpectedly, when she came to Gu's house, she found that Gu Zhi'an was younger, and her birthday at the end of the twelfth was in the same grade as her.
She put the phone back in her pocket and planned to put the water glass to chat again, but as soon as she raised her head and glanced at her bed, she was suddenly stunned.
—In the originally small room, there was one more person besides herself.
When the door was opened before, the curtains in the room were drawn and it was dark. Yan Zhi didn't even notice that Gu Zhi'an was sitting quietly on his bed.
Now with the lights on, everything is clear.
The girl hugged her knees and leaned against the wall, her head bowed, and she couldn't even smell her breathing, as if she was dead.
Yan Zhi frowned, with hesitation in her tone,
"Gu Zhian?"
Silence for half a minute.
The other party finally raised his head and looked at her blankly.
She was silent for so long like a ghost, her tone was light, and the first sentence she said was:
"Didn't you say you broke up with Huo Xingchao?"
......
Yan Zhi stared at her for three seconds, very calm,
"Well, we broke up."
"But it's back together again."
She held the quilt, leaned against the door, looked at her dark eyes,
"If you're just asking about him, you can go. I'm not interested in talking to you here."
Gu Zhian got off the bed and stood in front of her.
She is half a head taller than Yan Zhi, her eyes are lowered, and she has a condescending sense of questioning.
"Yan Zhi, did you do something to make me sorry?"
Yan Zhi was stunned, frowned, and said nothing.
what.
What is the problem?
However, Gu Zhian thought she was guilty of not speaking, and took another half step closer to her,
"He talked to me before, but inexplicably mentioned his childhood. Why? And why did you break up as soon as I found out that you were dating? I just asked a few more questions that day, and you suddenly became so angry and excited. Yan Zhi, I just ask you, was it because of me that you broke up with Huo Xingchao before?"
......
After talking with Huo Xingchao about something inexplicable that day, the more Gu Zhian thought about it, the more wrong it became.
Her innate keen sense of smell convinced her that she must have played a role in Huo Xingchao and Yan Zhi's relationship.
Relying on the other party's words, she rummaged through all her photo albums and classmates' records, and asked her father's neighbors and playmates before moving house when she was a child.
But after excluding it, I did not find any useful memory in the end.
Until tonight, she hid behind a birch tree to watch Yan Zhi get along with Huo Xingchao, the profile of his face looming in the dark, and the smile that appeared on the corner of his lips when he faced Yan Zhi, a sudden light flashed in her mind. .
Think of an equally dark night.
She thought of the last day of the sports meeting, when Lin Xiaoming happened to be standing next to her during the relay race.
She pretended to ask casually, "Hey, how did my sister and Huo Xingchao know each other, obviously they are not in the same class, is it really fate? Hahaha."
Lin Xiaoming ate candied haws with his head supported, vague,
"Ghost knows, it seems that the two of them knew each other when they were young. They got lost in the jungle? No, Huo Xingxing was very enthusiastic when he saw Yan Zhi for the first time."
......
— She felt as though she had guessed something.
Filled with excitement, doubts, and an indescribable excitement, she sat in Yan Zhi's room all night.
But the longer she sat in the room, the more she thought about it, the night was silent, and before Yan Zhi came back, those excitement, doubts and excitement became less and less.
Later, Yan Zhi finally came back, and a familiar male voice came from the external speaker of the mobile phone.
He called Yan Zhi with a smile that he had never heard before.
All the heat in Gu Zhi'an's bottom suddenly cooled down.
No matter what role she played in their relationship, or whether the timing of her appearance was right or not - in the end, Huo Xingchao was still with Yan Zhi.
They were very affectionate, and they were together without any grudges.
...But why?
"When I was a kid, I went on a spring outing, got lost in the forest, and spent a terrifying night with a dark-phobic boy."
"Later he was going to transfer schools, and we made an appointment to see you later. But the art competition was about to start, and I forgot to tell him my name. I think he may have never been clear about who I am."
"Hey, Yan Zhi, does he recognize you as me?"
"You lied to him for so long, knowing that I discovered your relationship in the cafeteria that day, and knowing that you couldn't hide it, that's why you broke up?"
The girl curled her lips, with a hint of sarcasm in her tone,
"Yan Zhi, since childhood, you have liked to rob me of things. Why can't you change this virtue even today?"
......
It was quiet at night.
But the sound insulation of the room is good.
The LED lights glowed at the window sill, melting away the darkness pouring in a little bit.
Gu Zhian's voice was soft and fell into the air, but it was very sharp, stabbing the opponent's heart with a knife.
With eyes full of disdain, contempt, and a sense of superiority that has been hidden in the bottom of my heart.
The negativity that has been suppressed by each other for more than ten years has been exposed in this night.
Many times, the family is never as happy and harmonious as they thought.
"Gu Zhian."
Yan Zhi looked at her, suddenly bent her lips and smiled, with a casual expression,
"Don't think so much."
"I am honest with you, with a clear conscience."
"Heh, Yan Zhi, you stole my things under the guise of my identity, and kept it from me for so long, yet you still have the courage to say that you have a clear conscience? Are you pretending to be stupid, or do you have no morals at all?"
"But things like morality are determined by the other party."
Yan Zhi smiled,
"If I don't tell Huo Xingchao about this, I'll feel guilty. But for you, even if I don't tell you for the rest of my life, I feel that I'm extremely just."
"I thought that this kind of behavior is a normal three views for you."
"Yan Zhi!"
"Don't call me, I'm listening."
She suddenly restrained the smile on her face and looked at her calmly, with a soft tone,
"Gu Zhi'an, you have a low self-esteem."
Gu Zhian sneered,
"what are you saying?"
"Since I was young, I've been prettier than you, smarter than you, and better grades than you. If I learn the same thing as you, I'll always be in front of you. Actually, you have low self-esteem, right?"
Yan Zhi picked up the corners of his eyes,
"For so many years, I don't understand your abnormal mentality caused by low self-esteem, so all the things you do to me, the words you say behind your back, and the little things you do, I take it as envy of me."
"Including your words today."
"Oh, right."
She took out her phone, flipped through the Moments, and clicked on a chat log box. Lin Xiaoming sent her a small video at around nine o'clock last night.
In the video, it was Huo Xingchao's house. They were playing games with a bunch of boys. The background was very noisy.
It was Lin Xiaoming's voice at the beginning,
"Hey, brother, what if, I mean, what if you didn't admit the wrong person at first, but what about Gu Zhi'an?"
The boy is facing the video, his hands are lazily on the keyboard, and his tone is casual, "What should I do?"
"Look, you met Yan Zhi because of something mysterious when you were young. If you didn't recognize the wrong person at the beginning of the fight, wouldn't you like Gu Zhian?"
"Ah."
He sneered, his tone was lazy, but with an unrelenting determination,
"impossible."
"Then why, didn't you fall in love with Yan Zhi because she saved you when she was a child?"
The boy tilted his head, the corners of his eyes swept over him lightly, there was no expression on his face, only the slight curvature of the corners of his lips showed his mockery,
"Ah."
Then he turned around and continued playing his own game, ignoring him.
......
Yan Zhi leaned against the door quietly,
"I didn't want to show you this video at first, because I thought it was a little bit like a little girl arguing with others, very naive. But if you insisted that I stole your things, I couldn't help it."
"Gu Zhi'an, it's not that you don't let me learn the piano, you can play it well by yourself, and it's not that you pre-emptively asked my mother for a dress that I like, and it will fit your size. In this world, A lot of things, it's not that I don't want it, I don't have it, you can hold it in the palm of your hand."
"You're so old, you should understand this."
She opened the door with a soft tone,
"It's late, I'm going to bed. You go."
Gu Zhian looked at her, her eyes were red, and she didn't move.
After a while, he suddenly curled his lips, showed a smile, lengthened his voice, and looked surprised,
"Mom! Come on! Yan Zhi seems to be in love!"
Yan Zhi was stunned for a while, she frowned, her tone became a little colder, and she held her back,
"Gu Zhi'an, don't go too far."
Gu Zhi'an sneered and threw off her hand, the water in the water cup splashed on the ground, and even the cup fell.
"Clap" sound.
torn apart.
......
"What is this doing?!"
The door to the room on the right was opened.
The parents were wearing pajamas, standing at the door, looking at the broken glass in shock.
Mother Yan raised her head, and saw Gu Zhian with red eyes at a glance, frowning, and her tone softened.
"An An, what happened?"
The girl blinked, blinked away the tears in her eyes, and smiled, with the usual liveliness and seriousness in her tone,
"Mom, you can never imagine what I saw when I went out for a walk today."
"Yan Zhi is actually in love with a boy!"
"Mom, the third year of high school is so heavy, and my sister is still in love early. You have to teach her a lesson and let her change her wrongs as soon as possible. The teachers have said that she has such good grades, but she has to be admitted to the top student in Qingbei."
Mother Yan was stunned for a moment, her expression immediately cooled down, her eyes fell on Yan Zhi,
"Yan Zhi, is what An An said true?"
Yan Zhi lowered his eyes and looked at the water and glass fragments on the ground, but did not speak.
"Yan Zhi, you're really going against the sky! You don't know when it is now! You're still giving me puppy love in the third year of high school?"
Mother Yan's chest heaved and her voice was full of anger.
"I said why you didn't come back until midnight when you went out for a walk during this time! Yan Zhi, how could you not love yourself so much!"
"Who is that boy? Give me the contact information and I will talk to him in person!"
Yan Zhi remained silent, holding his phone, looking non-violent and uncooperative.
"How are you? Are you still with me now? Yan Zhi, I worked so hard to raise you so big, and that's how you repay me? Fall in love! I'll let you talk! Give me your phone, can you give it to me? give me!"
Mother Yan walked to her side and reached out to grab the phone in her hand.
Father Gu pulled her from behind,
"Okay, okay, the child is still young, there is nothing to say."
"Say it well, how can I say it well! Lao Gu, look at her attitude! Since I was a child, I didn't let me worry about it. How much effort did your father and I spend on you! We ate the same rice as Zhian since we were young. When you grow up, how could you end up like this! Bring your phone, Yan Zhi, I will say it one last time, give me your phone!"
"Okay, calm down first. If the child makes a mistake, teach him well. Don't be angry yet."
"Mom, don't be angry. You have to go to work tomorrow. Let's sit down and talk if you have anything to say."
......
Yan's mother was really in a hurry. Three points were due to Yan Zhi's puppy love, and seven points were due to her indifferent attitude.
She grabbed the broom beside her and hit her,
"You won't give it, right? You know how to disobey your parents before your wings grow hard, right! Yan Zhi, I brought you up since I was a child, how much hardship I have suffered and how many hairs have turned white, now you have an ambition, You don't love yourself at a young age, you have to ruin your life to be content!"
......
It hurts when the broom hits the body.
Especially now that it is early autumn, Yan Zhi's clothes are not thick, but no matter how painful his body is, it doesn't seem to be as profound as the loneliness in his heart.
Puppy love is not something that does not exist in the Gu family.
In the first year of junior high, Father Gu saw Gu Zhian and a boy going home hand in hand.
Mother wrote a long letter to Gu Zhian.
The next day, Gu Zhian broke up with the boy.
She also cried with her mother.
She was really curious. A few days later, when she was in class, she pretended to have a stomachache and secretly asked for leave to go home. She stole the letter from Gu Zhian's drawer and opened it to read.
It was the first time Yan Zhi had done such a thing. With nervousness and a guilty conscience, he thought he was extremely despicable, but he still couldn't suppress the curiosity in his heart.
Later, she saw the contents of the letter.
The mother said that she was not at ease, afraid that her little daughter would be hurt, so she secretly went to check the boy and listed many bad behaviors of the boy.
She said, An An, at your age, it is normal for you to fall in love. As long as it doesn't affect your studies, your mother will never be so open-minded.
It's just that the guy isn't worth it.
She said An An, your future is still very long, and you will meet more and better people in the future.
The entire three-page letter is full of a mother's love and care for her daughter.
I don't know why, she looked at it, and tears suddenly fell.
For the first time, she could see so clearly a mother's patient love for another daughter.
It was the first time I felt so cold.
Before the glass scum on the ground was swept away, the broom slammed into the corner of his knee. Yan Zhi couldn't stand still and fell to the ground, his hand directly supporting the glass **** pile.
After a while, the place was stained with bright red blood.
Mother Yan was stunned for a moment and panicked. She threw away the broom and squatted down.
"Zizhi, are you alright?"
Yan Zhi raised his head.
Her expression was calm, neither unwilling nor wronged.
"Mom, in fact, I was with him during the summer vacation of the second year of high school. After I entered the third year of high school, my monthly test scores did not fall out of the top three. The matter of puppy love does not affect my studies."
"Don't worry, I won't affect your studies. I will go to a good university and find a good job, and I won't make you lose face in front of your relatives and friends."
"As for the rest, will I be deceived, will I be hurt, will I be sad if I break up, all my emotional life and mood changes, I hope you will not interfere, okay?"
She raised her head, bent her lips, and said in a gentle tone,
"Because I don't think it has much to do with you either."
Yan Zhi stood up, picked out the glass **** in her hand, and found that she was still stunned and did not move. Thinking of something, she smiled.
"Oh, you all go to bed. You have to go to work tomorrow, so don't stay up late."
This was the first time Mother Yan saw her daughter's unusual attitude. She was frightened and couldn't react a bit. All she could see was the broken glass and the blood on her hand, so she subconsciously took her hand.
"Jizhi, your hand, mom will help you first..."
"Need not."
Yan Zhi withdrew his hand, his voice was gentle,
"Mom, go to sleep."
"Don't worry, it's your left hand that hurts, it won't affect your writing."
"Citrus citrus..."
"Mom, I won't interfere with my studies. It's a matter of not being hurt,"
She curled her lips, her tone was light and calm,
"I said, it has nothing to do with you."