Chapter 46:
In the last month of the fifteenth year of Xingping, Luoshen returned to Bailuzhou.
The reason is not that her parents are arguing again, but that she is sick.
After that night, the next day, she was so restless and couldn't eat much. Xiao Yongjia and Aju thought she was just having a bad appetite, but after a few days, she fell ill and developed a fever.
Although Luoshen is delicate and weak, but from childhood to adulthood, he has been raised smoothly, and he has never been sick a few times. Xiao Yongjia was very anxious, and immediately called several imperial physicians in the palace to come for diagnosis and treatment. The imperial physicians took turns to look, hear, and ask questions, and they met for a consultation. In the end, they all said that it was a disease of wind and cold.
After the imperial doctor went, Xiao Yongjia took good care of his daughter. After taking the medicine for a few days, Luoshen's symptoms were reduced a little, but it was still not fully recovered, and his appetite was also very bad.
Seeing that their daughter's little face seemed to have lost weight in a few days, Xiao Yongjia and Gao Qiao were extremely distressed. After raising them for a few more days, seeing that she was in better spirits, the two discussed it and decided to send their daughter to Bailuzhou for a few days, because not only is it more open than Jiankang, and although it is located in Jiangzhu, it is three sides of the continent. Surrounded by hills, it is warm in winter and cool in summer, and the climate is much better than that in the city. Especially in such winter, the city is dark and cold, compared to the continents which are much warmer.
After negotiating and choosing a day, Gao Qiao sent his wife and daughter to Bailuzhou. After settling down, he returned to the city.
Luo Shen was sick this time, but it was not because she was angry with her parents and deliberately insulted herself - she had no reason to do so.
After she found her father that night, the next day, she learned that her cousin Gao Yin had rushed to Jiangbei and dispatched troops to assist Li Mu.
She could not predict the final outcome of the battle in Shu, and it was beyond her ability.
But her father finally made such a decision, for which she was extremely grateful, and even more gratified in her heart.
From childhood to adulthood, her father was a god-like existence in her mind.
When he did not compete in the northern expedition, and sadly returned to the south, she was not long before she was born, and she did not witness that scene with her own eyes, and she was not even half impressed.
But this not only did not prevent her from admiring her father, but instead made her look up to her father like a tragic hero whenever she thought about it.
She studied at the same table with her brothers since she was a child, and when she was not studying, she listened to them arguing about state affairs. Although she didn't say anything, as she grew up, she knew more or less that her father was no longer as sharp as she imagined when she was a child. Such a hero.
But she has always understood her father, who is in the position of the head of the Gao family, and he has his helplessness and various considerations.
But this time, she was really disappointed when she learned that her father had acquiesced to those people who would use Li Mu as a chessboard to fight against each other in the dark, in order to seek her own selfishness.
Fortunately, in the end, her father was still the father she knew, and she was really happy about this.
In the first few days when she was the most ill, seeing her parents anxious, she also wanted to get better sooner, but her body was not good enough.
These days, I moved to Bailuzhou with my mother and lived there for more than half a month. Under the careful care of my mother and Aju, my body finally recovered and my spirit improved.
The end of the year is coming.
Because of the previous marriage of the Gao family, although it is still a topic of secret discussion by others, except for the Lu family, on the surface, the gates that used to walk with each other naturally still take the initiative to communicate. Chores.
Xiao Yongjia sent Aju back, and Mrs. Gao Yun dealt with it together, and she and her daughter still stayed here.
This afternoon, she went to Ziyun Temple to pray for her daughter, and Luoshen was alone in Zhuangzi.
Because I felt sleepy in the afternoon, I fell asleep, but I didn't want to but had a messy dream.
At first, I didn't know what I dreamed. I was confused, and gradually, the dream became clear, and I dreamed that Lu Jianzhi died.
She was horrified.
But it's not over yet. Then, a more terrifying dream happened.
She suddenly dreamed of Li Mu again.
He is dead too!
With blood all over her face, she was pressed down on her body, and the state of death was extremely terrifying.
She was awakened directly from the nightmare. When she sat up, she was covered in cold sweat, shivering, and her heart almost jumped out of her throat.
Even though he was awake, the **** eyes he stared at him in the dream and the two terrifying eyes in his eyes that she couldn't describe in words were still vivid in his mind.
She almost shivered, sitting alone on the bed, in a daze for a long time, until the maid found her awake, came in to serve, wiped off the sweat, changed clothes, and then slowly settled down.
But the mood has become extremely bad.
One afternoon, she held Madam Tang in her arms and stared at the faintly visible winter river view outside the window.
The riverside is full of cherry blossoms. In spring, it is full of crimson powder, and the distant view is like clouds.
In this season, the sight is bare. The silhouettes of a few white cranes that had returned from the north to hatch their eggs for the winter were the only striking color in this darkness.
After Lu Xiurong got married, Luoshen sent someone to give her a congratulatory gift in his own name.
Lu Xiurong also returned her gift.
At this moment, Luoshen suddenly wanted to send another letter to Lu Xiurong, asking her for news about Lu Jianzhi.
Since he went to Jiaozhou, she has never heard from him, and she doesn't know how he is now.
The night before he left, he came to say goodbye to his father, and the scene of her watching him leave, came to her mind again.
Luoshen took the pen and ink and wrote a letter.
After the letter was written, she did not send it out immediately.
Once, she and Lu Xiurong were close friends. The two grew up together and slept in the same bed. They talked almost everything, and there were no secrets between them.
But now, it seems like an invisible barrier, slowly separating her from her former best friend.
Luoshen stared at the letter in a daze for a moment, then silently threw it into the stove, watching the paper ignited by the charcoal fire, and slowly turned into a few pieces of gray-white ashes in the jumping flames.
She suppressed the upset in her heart, and asked Qiongshu to bring a cloak with white fur that she wore when she went out, put it on, and went out of the house to Ziyunguan.
She suddenly didn't want to continue living here, and wanted to go back to her home in the city.
Li Mu first came to Berkshire, and she knew the news of a victory.
But after so long, she had no idea how the follow-up of the war and how the cousin's rescue was going.
Back home, if there is new news about the war in Shu, my father should be the first to know.
The last time I had a bad time with my mother, and after she fell ill again, these days, my mother never mentioned anything about Li Mu in front of her.
She couldn't even open her mouth to ask.
But Luoshen knew that after the war ended, even if Li Mu could come back alive, no matter what the outcome was, her mother was determined and would not let her return to Jingkou.
For Li Mu's forcible begging to marry her, so that she completely changed her original life, she still broods, and once she thinks about it, she feels uncomfortable once.
Although, this man is not as despicable as she imagined before marriage.
His mother and Amei are also very good, but after just a month of getting along, she still cares about her.
But these are not enough to make her go and fight her mother to the end for them.
She was ready to leave him and never return to Jingkou.
But in the bottom of my heart, I still can't completely let go of the memory of his life and death.
Especially after a terrible nightmare like today.
She hoped that he would be safe and return home as soon as possible.
His mother and sister were really looking forward to his return day and night.
…
Luoshen arrived at Ziyun Temple.
The Taoist nun who looked after the door greeted her with a smile when she saw her coming.
Luoshen asked a question, and when he learned that the place where his mother was praying for blessings was Xianxia Hall, he went over.
When he got there, he saw that there were only a few Taoist nuns who were still chanting scriptures and the servants beside his mother, but his mother was nowhere to be seen.
Then the dust is not there.
The servant girl said that just now, the beating was over, and the eldest princess had been kneeling for a long time, her legs and feet were sore, and she could not stand steadily for a while.
Luoshen nodded, telling people not to follow, because he was familiar with the road, he brought Qiongshu and Cherry over by himself.
Turning to the apse, I came to the cloud room called Qingfu Immortal Mansion. When I saw the door was closed, I asked the maid to wait at the foot of the stairs. I picked up my skirt and went up to the door. I pushed it gently. The door was found to be locked backwards.
In the middle of the day, my mother just came here to rest for a while, and she had some secret things to discuss with the old Taoist nun, but she locked the door?
Luoshen couldn't help but wonder, raised his hand, and was about to slam the door when suddenly, a young man's voice seemed to be faintly heard inside. The hand stopped, in shock.
Bailuzhou, the whole is owned by the mother. Except for a few necessary servants and bodyguards kept in Zhuangzhong, all year round, no strangers are allowed to set foot on half a step.
Not to mention, this is a female Taoist temple, and there is a man's voice in the cloud room in the apse?
Luoshen thought he had heard it wrong at first, but turned his ears and listened again.
This time for sure.
At this moment, in the cloud house, there is a young man who is talking.
"Eldest Princess... Ask the slaves to pinch your feet for you..."
The cloud room has two entrances, an outer room and an inner room. The sound apparently came from the inner room.
Although there was some distance and it was not very clear to hear, but scattered, when Luoshen put his ear to the crack of the door, she still caught this sentence.
She opened her eyes wide, and her whole body froze, standing there, unable to move for a while.
Although her family never mentioned half a word in front of her, she grew up in Jiankang since she was a child. Luoshen had also heard about the private life of those romantic ladies in the city behind their backs.
For example, Zhu Jiyue, the princess of Yulin, is said to have raised several beautiful young men for her lustful pleasures.
There are countless ladies like Zhu Jiyue.
But Luoshen never thought that one day, his mother, Xiao Yongjia, the eldest princess of Qinghe, would do the same thing as those of Zhu Jiyue.
it's out of the question!
Although the parents are not in harmony, and they have been openly separated for several years, in the heart of Luo Shen, there is always a stubborn hope that one day, Aye and A Niang can be reconciled.
She was stunned!
A heart is beating fast.
A feeling of anger mixed with strong disappointment and feeling worthless for Aye quickly filled his heart.
Her face flushed red, and in a fit of rage, she was about to slam on the door and stop her mother's actions on the spot, when she stopped.
The mother still has an excellent age, beautiful and moving, but she is separated from her father all the year round.
Although Luoshen loves Aye very much, she also has to admit that Aye is really too busy.
His heart was occupied by many things, and it seemed that very little was left to his mother.
At least, she didn't feel it.
Although her mother never mentioned her loneliness and loneliness in front of her, sometimes from A Ju's words and sighs, Luo Shen also knew that A Niang was really lonely.
She lives alone on this small island in Jiangzhu, and the day is fine. After so many long nights, Luoshen doesn't know very well how she spends her time after falling asleep.
She stayed in place, and the anger that had just subsided slowly, leaving only a daze and sadness in her heart, and she didn't know what to do for a while.
Just when the tears were about to fall, suddenly, I heard a "crashing" sound from inside, which seemed to be a cracking sound made by the teacup being thrown to the ground.
"Get out of here! Tell me to see it again, and I'll kill you!"
The mother's voice suddenly amplified, and it clearly entered Luo Shen's ears.
Accompanied by the sound of begging for mercy mixed with the old Taoist nun and the man, the sound of her footsteps came, and she seemed to be rushing out angrily.
Luoshen's heart beat faster again, and without thinking about it, he turned around suddenly, lifted his skirt, quickly descended the steps, motioned for the maid to follow him, and then ran away, until he reached the corridor leading to here, and then stopped. Down, leaning on the railing, gasping for breath.
Before he could catch his breath, the sound of his mother's footsteps could be heard behind him.
Luo Shen tried his best to calm down, turned around abruptly, walked forward, took a few steps, looked up and saw the figure of his mother, then stopped, smiled, and called out "Aniang".
Xiao Yongjia's face was pale, his cheeks were a faint red color, and there was a trace of anger in his eyebrows. When he walked out quickly, he suddenly saw his daughter walking towards him. He was startled and stopped subconsciously. Footsteps: "Ami, why are you here?"
"Auntie, I'm fine, so I'll pick you up. They said you were here, so my daughter came to see."
Luoshen suppressed the tension in his heart and smiled casually.
Xiao Yongjia calmed down, looked at his daughter carefully, saw her expression as usual, and saw that she should have come here to pick him up, and happened to meet him here.
Thinking of the scene in the cloud room just now, I couldn't help but feel terrified.
Fortunately, I drank back in time and came out early.
If he is still inside at this moment, if his daughter hears something, how can he raise his head in front of her in the future?
Xiao Yongjia calmed down, stepped forward and smiled: "I was just tired, so I turned around and rested. A-Niang is already well, let's go, go back."
Luoshen nodded, followed Xiao Yongjia back to the front hall, went out of the Taoist temple, went to Nuanyu together, and returned to Zhuangzhong. The heart that was beating wildly just now finally calmed down.
"Auntie, my body is healed. I miss Aye a little, and I want to go back."
Seeing her face leaning against her mother's arms, she pleaded softly.
Xiao Yongjia hesitated for a while, then nodded: "Alright, we will go back tomorrow, it happens to be the end of the year, and there are still some things at home."
Luoshen was completely relieved, and hugged his mother's arm tightly, as if she would run away if she released it.
Xiao Yongjia looked down at her and saw that her small face was still pale with a hint of sickness, and she had not grown back to the fat she had lost before. She hugged her daughter, and her voice was full of love.
"You're not quite healthy yet, and the weather is cold, so why run out? In case it freezes again..."
Luoshen leaned against his mother, smelled the familiar fragrance of orchid emanating from her body, and slowly closed his eyes.
"Auntie, if Li Muwan can't come back, in the future, you can take care of his mother and sister, okay?"
Xiao Yongjia was startled, lowered his head, and saw that his daughter was still closing her eyes and her face was pale. After hesitating for a while, he murmured softly.
She felt her daughter's hand wrap her arm even tighter, and there was not only a complicated look in her eyes.
…
The mother and daughter returned to the village. Xiao Yongjia asked someone to **** Luoshen back to the house first, watched his daughter leave, turned his head, the smile on his face disappeared, and said coldly: "Go immediately and drive away all the people in the temple! Not a single one is allowed! Go, kill!"
The guards took orders.
A look of disgust flashed across Xiao Yongjia's brows, and he finally let out a long breath. Then he turned around and was about to enter when he suddenly heard the sound of hurried footsteps coming from outside the gate, as if someone was running in.
Here, only Gao Huan dared to walk like this.
Xiao Yongjia turned around, and sure enough, Gao Huan had already stepped into the threshold, with a look of excitement on his face, and shouted: "Auntie! Where is Auntie? Good news from Shu! Li Mu has won a great victory! Not only took Berkshire back, but also Liangzhou! I was able to return to Beijing a few years ago! As for my sister, I want to find her!"
As he spoke, he walked quickly inside.