Chapter 77: 】
"Fei'er—"
Chu Junyi called out again, as if all the tenderness overflowed from his abdomen, Huang Fei'er's heart trembled. love
But soon, she calmed down the trembling, and a wave of hatred welled up spontaneously.
"I don't know you, go away!"
She said to Chu Junyi coldly, and then closed the door with a bang, her back leaning against the door, her body trembling slightly, her lips were about to be squeezed, and all kinds of complicated emotions were spraying in her eyes.
"Fei'er, open the door and listen to me!"
Chu Junyi, who was shut outside, knocked on the door and yelled.
"I'm not your Fei'er, and I don't want to hear what you have to say, you go away with me." Huang Fei'er's voice was a little hysterical, and she was even more excited than when she first saw Chu Xian and the others.
Su Junli looked at Chu Xian and asked in a low voice, "Did you tell your father?"
Chu Xian shook his head, "I don't have any contact with him, and I don't want to contact him about this matter."
In Chu Xian's mind, his biological mother was important, but his adoptive mother was more kind and affectionate to him. It was impossible for him to tell his father about this and hurt his adoptive mother.
"It is estimated that he has been sending people to follow our tracks." Murong Changkong said.
"Fei'er, I'm sorry."
Chu Junyi outside the door said guiltily, "It's all my fault that I wasn't brave enough to hurt you."
It's fine if he doesn't mention it, but when he mentions it, Huang Fei'er's heart will hate it even more.
That day, she didn't blame him when he left her because he didn't dare to resist his father because he was cowardly, but he actually took a child, Chu Xian, away abruptly. On the way to chase him for a child, she accidentally lost Chu Xuan, making her a childless mother.
This kind of pain has been haunting her for more than 20 years, making her abandon herself and go to degeneration.
"I've never been hurt. A coward like you doesn't deserve to hurt me." Huang Fei'er gritted her teeth, her tone became more indifferent and blunt.
"..."
There was a moment of silence outside the door.
"Fei'er, I know, I betrayed you, and I don't ask you to forgive me. Now, Chu Xian and Chu Xuan are back. No matter what, they are all children of the Chu family. Father hopes that they can recognize their ancestors and return to their clan." Chu Junyi said.
Hearing this, Huang Fei'er's heart felt like being stabbed fiercely by a cold sharp blade again.
It turned out that he came to him not to ask for his forgiveness in order to remember the old relationship, but to want his two children to return to the Chu family.
She didn't know what happened to Chu Xian, Chu Xuan and the Chu family, but it was none of her business. She believed that her two sons would be fine even if they left the Chu family.
Moreover, she is very happy that they have broken with the Chu family.
The misfortune of her life was falling in love with Chu Junyi.
Therefore, she hated Chu Junyi and Chu Qinglian.
However, she can't interfere with her son, she can do whatever they want.
Huang Fei'er found that any remaining feelings for Chu Junyi had disappeared at this moment.
She looked at Chu Xian and Ye, "If you have anything you want to say to him, just say it, anyway, I don't know him anymore."
Chu Xian looked at Huang Fei'er in pain.
He also has feelings for his father, and he really doesn't know how to deal with the relationship and situation in front of him.
To a large extent, Chu Xian inherited Chu Junyi's indecisive character, except for falling in love with Su Junli, he was the bravest and most decisive.
"Let me talk to him."
Ye looked at Chu Xian and his mother and said, "He is our father, and you are our mother. I really don't want the two of you to be in an awkward relationship. Of course, I also know that there is no possibility of you two getting back together. , the past has already passed, no matter how resentful you are, you can't come back, it's better for everyone to meet each other calmly."
Hearing what he said, Huang Fei'er's heart shook.
Yes, the past has already passed, no matter what I do, I can't go back to the past. Now that my child has been found, if I still keep the heart of resentment, what good will it do me? And it will bring pain to the sons.
"Mother-"
Ye put his arms around her thin shoulders, "You don't have many years in your life, so it's better to be more open-minded."
Huang Fei'er nodded, and the complicated emotions in her eyes slowly returned to calm.
She walked to the door and opened it again.
When Chu Junyi saw her, he was slightly startled.
"come in."
Although Huang Fei'er's tone sounded light, there was still a bit of discomfort and bluntness in it.
"Fei'er—"
Chu Junyi called her, with surprise in his eyes, "You forgive me?"
"I can't say forgive or not. I have been wrong all along, not you." Huang Fei'er said bluntly, "Now, to me, you are nothing but the child's father."
Hearing her cold tone, Chu Junyi's heart was stabbed.
After so many years, he didn't know if he still loved Huang Fei'er.
He has always been afraid of his father, and also afraid of hurting his wife. Even though he knew that Huang Fei'er was in Xinjiang, he never thought of coming to find her. Of course, he also felt deeply guilty towards her, and really didn't know how he should face her.
A few days ago, after he told Chu Xian where Huang Fei'er was, he couldn't help secretly sending someone over to investigate.
He was shocked by the results of the investigation.
Huang Fei'er has actually been reduced to become a lowly street girl who sells herself by laughing.
It hit his heart like a blunt weapon, making him feel even more guilty.
If it wasn't for him, Fei'er would have married into another wealthy family and lived a life of wealth and wealth, because there were many rich businessmen and sons who pursued her back then.
He also learned that Chu Xian and the others found her and moved her.
Therefore, he couldn't wait to come over.
When she opened the door and saw that her plump face that once charmed the world had turned into thin, old and haggard, his heart felt more self-blame, and he really wanted to beg her for forgiveness, so that he could make up for the mistakes he had made to her.
He also saw her hatred for him from her eyes!
This resentful look made him feel better.
Now, just for a moment, she actually changed into a coldness like a stranger, which made him very uncomfortable, like a needle prick.
He walked in and his eyes fell on Ye.
Ye looked at him coldly.
"Sit down." Ye said lightly to him.
Chu Junyi sat on a chair beside him a little uncomfortably.
Huang Fei'er sat beside Su Junli, lowered her head slightly, without looking at Chu Junyi.
"I…"
After a long time, Chu Junyi opened his mouth and said a word, but he didn't know what to say.
"dad-"
Chu Xian yelled, breaking the embarrassment in front of him, "Don't say anything more, my surname will still be Chu."
"And you?"
Chu Junyi looked at Ye Wen.
Ye glanced at Su Junli, "For a long time, my name has only one word 'Ye', which was given to me by Grandma Junli, and I will not discard it. Maybe you can call me Yexuan, Not Chu Xuan, I will not live according to the will of any Chu family. Of course, I don't need anything from the Chu family."
"You mean, you don't want to recognize me as a father?" Chu Junyi asked uncomfortably.
"You are my father. This is an irreversible blood relationship, and I don't want to deny it."
"Our Chu family is the largest family in China, and the surname Chu will not treat you badly." Chu Junyi said, "Your grandfather said that if you are willing to return to the Chu family, the position of the head of the Chu family must be yours, and he will also be the head of the Chu family." I will vigorously support you to become the head of state, so why do you hold resentment towards us and refuse to return?"
"Hehe, father, I also said that I don't need anyone to give me anything, and I don't covet anything. I just want to be by Junli's side." Ye smiled, "If you come this time, it's to persuade me This is really unnecessary."
"..."
Chu Junyi didn't know what to say, so he cast his eyes on Huang Fei'er, hoping that she could help persuade her.
Huang Fei'er met his gaze and sneered, "Oh, my son is not like some people who are afraid of losing their position in the Chu family and giving up their love."
Chu Junyi's face turned slightly red.
Indeed, when he gave up Huang Fei'er that day, it was largely not because he was afraid of his father, but because he was afraid that his father would deprive him of everything and leave him with nothing.
If I had the backbone and courage like Ye, maybe everything would be different.
"I know, grandpa has always been dissatisfied with me, so I only have the surname Chu. As for the Chu family's property, I don't care. You can do whatever you like. I just want to be by Junli's side, and you don't want to look for it." What excuses to object." Chu Xian also said.
The corner of Chu Junyi's mouth twitched again.
The son's courage further set off his uselessness and greed back then, making him even more shameless in the face of Huang Fei'er.
He stood up and said to Huang Fei'er, "I'm leaving. From now on, I will take care of everything for you so that you won't suffer any more."
"Oh, thanks." Huang Fei'er sneered, "I am in charge of my life, no matter how bad it is, my son and daughter-in-law are also in charge. You should take care of your Chu family."
"I'll make it up to you."
Chu Junyi looked at her with a bit of pain in his eyes, "When she recovers, I will file for a divorce and stay with you."
"Are you giving me charity or pity?"
A bit of anger appeared on Huang Fei'er's face, "It's none of my business who you like to be with, anyway, I will never be with you."
"Fei'er—"
Chu Junyi called her name, "Do you still hate me so much?"
"Hate you? Don't elevate yourself too high." Huang Fei'er sneered, "I don't want the rest of my life to be clouded by you. Now you are just the father of my child to me That's all."
Chu Junyi would rather she say that she hates him than that.
When he saw her just now, he really wanted to divorce and be with her to make up for his past mistakes.
Now, she doesn't need it anymore.
This is really a big blow.
It seems that the antonym of love is not hate, but indifference and strangeness!