Chapter 113:
I will never hate my mother in my life
After reading these records, Si Tian was stunned for a long time.
For the first time, she had complete access to the past of Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile, and clearly saw every stage of Ji Ningyi's growth from birth to three years old.
Ji Ningyi was not very sensible from birth, he knew everything, and he also made some mistakes that children often make.
When someone asks me whether I like my mother or my father more, I will honestly answer that I like my mother more.
He can play with a paintbrush to stain the clothes, and try to wash them with water, but in the end the clothes are all wet, and he feels wronged and comes to her.
He also likes to play games, holding her hand and begging her to play together.
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Ji Zhile was also born in the expectation of the family. Those simple written records and pictures can also tell that his mother likes him. Grandpa gave him several names and chanted them every day, and finally decided to call him Ji Zhile contains a very simple wish, I hope he grows up happily.
Ji Jiangzhou called him by his nickname Lele at first, but after calling him a few times, he felt that the duplication rate of this nickname was too high, so he finally called him Zhile, and he hoped that Ji Zhile would be unique.
But the two children who are expected and loved by the family are not doing very well. Si Tian doesn't know what happened between Ji Zhile's birth and her coming to this world.
At that time, Ji Ning was sensitive and fragile, he kept all his words in his heart, wanted to be a good boy in the eyes of adults, and only let himself be wronged. Ji Zhile is mischievous and loves to get into trouble, but she also has a stubborn mouth. The first time she saw him, she thought he was a bear, and she didn't even like him very much.
But not like this, if the "she" who recorded these can always be with the two children, they should live the happiest life.
Suddenly, Si Tian felt an unspeakable bitterness in her heart, her eyes turned red uncontrollably, and she had to exert a lot of effort to resist the gushing sorrow and sourness.
What about her?
She thought she had seen the ending of the two children, and she was here to save them, but they could have lived a good life. Something happened that changed their fate, and she came to correct these mistakes?
It's just that when she flipped through those written records and pictures, she felt so familiar, as if she had experienced them all, frame by frame flashed in her mind, the person who grew up with Ji Ningyi in those words and pictures was her .
In fact, Si Tian had already guessed that since the last time Ran Ying told her about the past, she was restless and inexplicably familiar. Later, she got a congratulatory confirmation from the system.
It's just that Si Tian still can't believe it, how could she be the biological mother of Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile.
She had her own working life before she came to this world, and she had more than 20 years of memories. She was sure that those were not instilled in her mind by others, but experienced by herself.
But now she knows that "she" also time-traveled and gave birth to two children, Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile.
So is she the "she" who wrote these words and took these photos?
Right, otherwise I can't explain the familiarity, the sourness in my heart.
"Xiao Ai." Si Tian asked hoarsely and astringently, "Is this my second time traveling?"
Although it was a question, the tone was certain.
Xiao Ai's voice was lower than usual: "Yes."
With this certainty comes a flood of lost memories.
It was the first time she traveled to a strange world, where there was no system and no people she knew. She was a little scared. Although she had read a lot of time-travel novels, she was still panicked when things really happened to her.
She has lived in this world for two years and has her own parents and life, but when she got used to the new life, her father died and her mother fell ill, so she assumed the responsibility of taking care of her mother.
It's just that it was too hard at that time, and she had just graduated, and she would do any job to make money.
At that time, Si Tian wondered if she had taken the script of the heroine of the abuse, and then she should meet the hero in some club bar, and run away with the ball in a one-night stand with a million lovers.
But none of what she thought happened. She still worked hard to earn money. When she was very tired, she thought about escaping, but she persisted in the end, and then met Ji Jiangzhou.
Their parents are related, so they provided her with a lot of help. Money is very useful, but nothing can stop people's death.
Ji Jiangzhou's parents like her very much, and Ji Jiangzhou also needs a wife. They are in free love.
At that time, Si Tianxin thought, after all these years, a protagonist event finally happened in her life!
She quite likes Ji Jiangzhou. Of course, these likings are limited to his appearance, family affairs, money and so on. Si Tian is very pragmatic and treats his wife as a job. The job benefits are simply not too good, the rich husband has food and clothing and is busy with work.
She thought she was going to spend her whole life here. She had a lovely baby. She didn't like children very much, but she would feel very happy when she saw Ning Yi. She once thought that there was no better-behaved child than Ning Yi in the world. .
Si Tian feels that her own mother's filter is too serious, but what does that matter, is it wrong to like her child?
With Ji Zhile in the back, the two children will be fine, and Si Tian's money will be enough.
She used to desperately need money for a long time, and only with money can she feel safe. After having Ji Ningyi, her mentality also changed a bit, being loved is happiness, Ning Yi's love for her has no reason, and she doesn't need to pay anything.
Ji Ningyi is a very well-behaved child compared to children of the same age. He doesn't like to cry at a very young age. He is also smart. He likes to listen to stories and learn how to speak from her. He can also create idioms by himself. Everyone in the family likes him very much.
At that time, Si Tian thought that her golden finger might be Ji Ningyi, why did she give birth to such a different child! Be proud of it for a long time.
Those days were too comfortable, so she didn't even think about the day she would wear it back, so it was very baffling.
She returned to her own world and continued to live her own life. From leaving to coming back, the time changed, she lost all the memories of crossing, and thought she just fell asleep.
So what kind of life did Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile live during the years she went back? Who is with them?
Si Tian felt very sad and powerless. In the past three years, they hadn't had a good time.
When she left, as soon as Ji Ning relied on her, he would act like a baby and make some weird requests, full of childishness.
When she came back, Ji Ningyi was already six and a half years old. Although he was still a child, he could already pretend to be a little adult to take care of others, and he could speak nice words, but he still relied on her but dared not ask directly, leaving all his grievances and sorrows to him. Swallow in the stomach.
When I made a mistake, I was so afraid that I shed tears. I felt that I was not a good boy and would not be liked by others.
Her Ning Yi shouldn't be like this, arming herself with strength, her forbearance makes people feel distressed.
At that time, Ji Zhile was just a newborn baby, unable to speak, crying loudly, with only one pair of eyes left to see.
When she saw Ji Zhile again, Ji Zhile was already three and a half years old, a child who had never been liked by his mother was covered in thorns all over his body, and he even beat people, and he wrote a book about his grudges.
But it's so easy to forgive people. When she says sorry, he can forget everything and tell her that it doesn't hurt.
Si Tian couldn't stop crying, she forgot about them for three years, when she lived her ordinary and peaceful life, they had a bad time.
Xiao Ai has never seen the host like this before. The host looks very optimistic. At that time, the life value was almost 0 when he just passed through, and the host can still discuss and threaten it with a calm demeanor.
Xiao Ai hated it at the time, but they had worked together for a long time, and Xiao Ai got used to it and fell in love with the job and the host.
"Host, don't cry." Xiao Ai knew that if it was a human being at this time, she would usually hand over a tissue, comfort her, and give her a hug.
But it is a string of data, without a human form, and has not comforted people much, so it can only say that sentence dryly.
But the host didn't seem to hear about it, Xiao Ai had no choice but to search the Internet, how to comfort a girlfriend in a long-distance relationship, this analogy is very suitable, it is impossible to directly comfort a human being in a long-distance relationship, Xiao Ai praised herself in her heart.
So when she saw the answer to singing, Xiao Ai played "Mother" for Si Tian
"Someone will take your new schoolbag for you, and someone will hold your flower umbrella in the rain..."
Si Tian was caught off guard and played music in her mind. Her first reaction was that she thought she was hallucinating, and then she was sure that it was Xiao Ai who did it.
"Turn it off!" Si Tian's voice was rustling but her tone was fierce.
Seeing that she wasn't crying anymore, Xiao Ai thought it was very effective, so she turned it off decisively, and said, "This is the host I know."
Si Tian tried her best to calm herself down, and now she wants to do it, but what Xiao Ai said actually revealed something, she is the most suitable person for this task, because she is the mother of Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile.
"Xiao Ai, I want to ask you some questions." Si Tian said.
Xiao Ai is easy to speak: "Okay, as long as I can answer, I will tell the host."
Si Tian took a deep breath: "Will I go back? Back to the world I used to live in."
This is the one thing she cares about the most.
Xiao Ai: "After the host completes the task, he can choose to stay or leave. We are a humanized system and will not do some forced things."
Si Tian remained suspicious of Xiao Ai's last sentence. She didn't ask her opinion during the second time travel, but now she can only feel lucky.
"Who lived in my place during those three years? Is it the original owner?"
Si Tian only knows what the two children have experienced in the past three years, and she really hates that man.
But if it's the original owner, she doesn't seem to have the right to criticize.
"Who needs the host to explore, but I can tell the host, not the original owner, the original owner lost his life before your first crossing."
Si Tian's eyelashes flickered slightly, and her voice was a little calmer: "The last question, is my two time travels related to you?"
"The second time has something to do with us." Xiao Ai said, "We didn't break up a home, we fixed bugs."
Si Tian was silent for a moment and said, "Thank you."
She was new to the system, and was somewhat hostile to it. She was living a good life and suddenly transmigrated into the book, and was bound to a task, and her life was controlled by others.
But now I can only be grateful. If she hadn't come here, would the fate of Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile have developed as in the book, and the family would be destroyed in the end?
Si Tian didn't dare to think about these endings anymore, she would change the ending.
Xiao Ai was flattered for a moment, and quickly said: "No thanks, no thanks, our help is limited, and..."
It didn't finish the last words, and silently held back its voice.
After communicating with Xiao Ai, Si Tian calmed down a lot. It was already early in the morning, and her eyes were sore from tears. Si Tian washed her face and walked into the room of the two children.
They've all grown up, and a lot has changed in three and a half years.
The two children were sleeping quietly on the bed. Ji Ning was lying on one side and was squeezed to the side by Ji Zhile, who was not in a good sleeping position. Ji Zhile grabbed Ji Ningyi's pajamas with one hand, and Make a fist and place it on your stomach.
Si Tian sat on the bed and looked at them quietly.
These are her children, they are connected by blood and heart, and it hurts her to know that they are not doing well.
Now that she is back, she will always be with them in the future.
They have suffered a lot in the past, and she will protect them well in the future.
Si Tian's hand landed on Ji Ningyi's hair and brushed gently, her eyes were reddish, she missed it for three years.
Ji Ningyi seemed to be touched, blinked his eyelashes, and then slowly opened his eyes. He saw Si Tian sitting beside their bed, under the warm yellow light, the silhouette was very gentle.
"Mom." He called softly, and his voice was a little rusty when he woke up.
"Why did you wake up?" Si Tian asked softly.
As soon as Ji Ning reached out and grabbed her finger, he still didn't wake up, so he rubbed his cheek against her finger lightly: "I don't know either."
The tip of Si Tian's nose was astringent, and her voice changed: "Then go on sleeping."
As soon as Ji Ning heard the difference, he rubbed his eyes to see more clearly. His mother's eyes were red, and he got up on the bed with the other hand: "What's wrong with Mom?"
She looked at her nervously, then stretched out her arms and hugged her neck, and whispered, "Mom, don't cry, tell me what's the matter, and I will accompany mom and help mom."
Si Tian closed her eyes, she didn't want to cry in front of Ji Ningyi, she knew it would make Ji Ningyi very uncomfortable.
"It's okay, it's just that mom remembered something." Si Tian said.
Ji Ning touched her cheek lightly with his fingers: "What did Mom remember?"
"Remember what happened when Ning Yi was just born. At that time, you were still very young, and you would cry and act like a baby."
Ji Ning's face was slightly hot: "I don't like to cry anymore."
Si Tian hugged him tightly, Ji Ningyi was obedient and didn't move, letting her hold him.
"Ning Yi, I'm sorry, I treated you badly." It wasn't something she did, but she also felt uncomfortable and guilty. During those three years, she forgot about them and lived her own life.
Ji Ning said softly: "It's okay, Mom, at that time Mom was sick, and the sick people didn't do what they wanted to do."
As soon as Ji Ning comforted her, he understood that when he had a cold, he would find that the taste of the food he usually liked had changed, and he didn't like it. Mom's illness is very serious, so he can accept more changes.
They always forgive her easily. Ji Ningyi is still very young, and he doesn't know that there are different souls living in the same body. He thinks that his mother is sick, but even if it is his mother, he will not blame his mother. .
Si Tian didn't speak, but her breathing was a bit heavy. She obviously didn't want to cry, but every word of Ji Ningyi could hit her heart accurately, just like at that time, before she left, she knew that Ji Ningyi gave I gave her a lot of love, even if I use up some every day, it will still grow back the next day, and it will be full again.
"But Ning Yi has changed a lot. She doesn't cry like she used to." Si Tian was brooding, always thinking about what would Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile look like if she was here all the time?
"It's fine if I'm not sick." She said softly, with strong sadness in her tone.
Although she thinks Ji Zhile and Ji Ningyi are already very good now.
Like a little adult, Ji Ning stretched out his hand to pat Si Tian's arm, turned his head slightly and was able to get close to her ear, and whispered, "Mom, that's because I've grown up."
"When I grow up, I will understand more principles and know more things. Everyone is like this. Even if my mother is not sick, I will grow up."
Si Tian's eyelashes fluttered slightly, is that so? Is it because of growing up, not her?
But Ji Ningyi's words really comforted her, letting her know that she is not such a bad mother.
Si Tian took a deep breath, her voice trembling, and asked softly: "When your mother treats you badly, will Ning Yi hate your mother?"
Ji Ningyi quickly shook his head, his tone was extremely serious: "No, I will never hate my mother in my life."