Chapter 471: Gu Jinzhou Tang Linfan
Chapter 471 Gu Jinzhou Tang Lin Fan
When I took the ID of Yiye Guzhou, I didn't think I was lonely, but because of the **** input method, I made Gu Zhou a lonely boat.
Because the Nine Nether Realm changed the ID rules, I have not changed them.
One is that I am lazy.
One is that I think the ID of One Leaf Lonely Boat is quite good.
It's just that I didn't expect that this ID would accompany me for the rest of my life.
Acquaintance
I met Erlin in the game.
That day, she seemed to be playing darts.
I usually like to confront people in the court. When I saw Erlin dressed in brocade clothes, I couldn't hold back, and then shot her to death.
She let out an ah.
"It's over, it's over, I failed again, and I will return to Xinshou Village if I surrender again."
The little girl's voice was full of tears, but I just felt that she was not sad at all.
"Forget it, let's go back to Xinshou Village after meeting Xinshou Village." The little girl gave up on herself.
After a long while, she seemed to remember that there was someone like me next to her.
"Ah, who are you? To **** my old lady's dart, you are so brave... Ah! My God!" The little girl was startled, and looked really lively.
I thought, dealing with such a little girl, I shouldn't feel too bad.
Later, we became friends.
I escorted her to **** the dart.
Protect her to complete the mission.
She didn't seem to feel that something was wrong.
Everything is taken for granted, but I am actually quite upset.
But I don't want to just leave it at that.
Maybe it was because I had some bad thoughts about her.
"Erlin, tell me, why do you take it for granted that I protect you?"
"Ah, aren't we friends?" Erlin seemed a little unresponsive.
"Friends?" Can friends take it for granted? And, is it just friends?
"What's wrong?" It seems that in her cognition, friends are taken for granted.
Of course, she doesn't seem to realize that this friendship is only my unilateral contribution.
However, when I knew that she really had friends who didn’t ask for anything in return, I realized why she could take life for granted.
Her friend's ID in the game is [Xingyao], she is a girl who doesn't talk much.
From their conversation, I know that they are roommates.
I've run several missions with both of them.
No, every time Xingyao draws Erlin and asks her to complete the task.
Even sometimes take her to upgrade.
"Don't you think it's unfair?" I asked Xingyao.
"Huh? What's unfair?" Xingyao seemed a little puzzled.
"Well, she has been protecting her, but she didn't do anything." I don't know why I asked, maybe it's because I was really confused.
"Well, is there?" Xingyao asked me back.
I am a little puzzled, how can there be such a person.
It wasn't until later, after getting along with Erlin for a long time, that she realized that she was just a little nervous.
Moreover, she seems to have no feelings at all.
Specifically, she has no emotions about love.
My sister-in-law told me a word.
She said, Tang Lin and I are not suitable.
At that time, I already fell in love with Tang Lin.
I asked my sister-in-law why.
She said, because Tang Lin didn't care.
Tang Lin was born with a cold heart, so she couldn't give me any response.
And I want to ask for something in return.
What I think is that if I give, I have to get something in return.
Sister-in-law said, Tang Lin can't give me what I want.
She said, this relationship is doomed, only my own unilateral contribution.
Because Tang Lin has no heart.
No, specifically, she doesn't know how to like someone.
Her most beautiful appearance is her free appearance.
However, once she encounters something related to Qing, she will gradually lose her freedom.
I dated Erlin for a year.
During this year, Tang Lin always felt at a loss when we were together.
There are also some wariness.
I admit, I feel bad.
But, I don't want to let go.
However, looking at her cautious and somewhat at a loss.
I suddenly don't want to continue.
A year later, we broke up.
Erlin said, take care of it in the future and find the one that suits you.
Er Lin said, she is not suitable for me.
I said goodbye.
Silently added a sentence in my heart, you are the most suitable for me, but I am not suitable for you.
I still like Erlin's free look.
I don't want to restrict her freedom.
Maybe, it's really because my love is too heavy, and it's a burden for her.
So, I chose to let go.
After several years, I thought I would forget Erlin.
However, I found that I still can't do it.
I have never been married in this life.
Clearly knowing that Erlin will never be forgotten, but still going to marry someone else, it would be too unfair to that person.
Er Lin has also never been married.
Several times, I knew she had gone on a blind date.
But she is still not married.
I do not know why.
I even had a little joy in my heart, maybe she likes me.
We, will it be possible.
Later, Erlin disappeared from my sight.
Sister-in-law said, she went to travel around the world.
She, find herself.
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Tang Lin
The day my mother passed away happened to be summer.
That day, the weather was very, very hot.
Mom has been waiting for Dad to come back.
But Dad didn't show up.
Later, my mother died.
I crouched beside the bed and watched over my mother.
When Dad came back, Mom's body was broken.
I was only five years old at the time.
Dad came back without saying anything, and cremated his mother's body.
Then, took me to an aunt's house.
That aunt is Dad's new wife.
It turns out that the father still has a daughter.
My new aunt doesn’t like me, she always gives me bad looks. My bedroom before junior high school was a small attic.
Until junior high school, I chose to live on campus.
My father and my aunt have a daughter who is one year older than me, and she always bullies me.
None of this has anything to do with me.
When I was five years old, I knew nothing.
But I always remember my mother's words, what my mother looked like before she died.
In the future life, I will live heartlessly.
Pretend to be crazy, a little silly, easy to bully.
Pretend that I can't remember the day my mother died.
After a long time, I really got used to it.
Everything I do I become nervous.
Maybe, I pretended to believe that I was such a simple person.
I never thought I would be in love.
It's just that this love is doomed to fail.
Because, I don't believe in love.
Before she died, my mother took my hand and said, "In this life, don't be tempted."
I persisted for twenty years.
In the twenty-first year, I fell in love with a boy named Gu Jinzhou.
In the twenty-second year, I broke up with him.
Because, I can't pass the test in my heart.
I can't forget what my mother said, and I don't believe in love either.
The year I graduated from college, that is, when I was twenty-three years old, I personally sent my father and stepmother to the prison.
Because they and their hands killed their mother.
Then, my life seemed meaningless.
I don't want to see any of the people I knew before, because, seeing them, I can't help but feel guilty.
Because, the me they saw was a fake.
I'm actually not lively at all, not cheerful at all, that Tang Lin they like is all pretended by me.
And I, have been lying to them.
I started traveling around the world.
In the new journey, I no longer have to pretend.
I am still the cold and heartless me.
In my twilight years, I met a man.
is my college roommate.
Her name is Yuan Mochen.
A very mysterious girl.
"Long time no see." This is what I said to her.
"Long time no see." She smiled, still as gentle and lazy as before.
"I'm sorry…"
"I never cared." She still spoke to me in a familiar tone.
It seems that I have always been that Tang Lin.
"thanks."
"You should know, but no one cares."
But I care.
It's just that I don't believe until now that it turns out that I've always been the cocoon of myself.
(end of this chapter)