Chapter 78:
At the same time, countless voices came from Mo Ran's ears, those from the neighbors, the kindergarten teachers, all the people he knew and those he didn't know, their voices, one after another , it hit Mo Ran's head and heart like a hammer...
"Look! It's her! She killed her mother herself!"
"My God! Such a small child actually killed her mother! She is a ghost!"
"It's terrible! Don't look at her! If you look at her, maybe she will come and kill me at night!"
"Don't be with her! She'll kill you!"
"She can even kill her mother, let alone you!"
"Go away! You wolf cub!"
"Go away, don't live here!"
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Mo Ran hugged her head, and all those voices continued to amplify and hit her vigorously, making her terrified, and she couldn't help retorting loudly: "No! I didn't kill her! I killed her! It's just, I just pushed her, I just pushed her, she fell down, fell on the cabinet and died, I didn't kill her! It wasn't me!"
"It's you!"
"It's you!"
"You murderer!"
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Mo Ran kept running, trying to avoid those voices, but these voices followed her like a shadow, leaving her with nowhere to escape. She covered her ears and didn't want to hear them, but these voices exploded in her mind and made her It can't be blocked at all.
In addition, she heard low cries, which became more and more miserable as her fear grew.
At this moment, amidst the noisy and fragmented voices, there suddenly came a voice with a round and upright character. It became smaller and looser, and became the background sound of this upright and awe-inspiring voice.
"To become a mother, a woman has to work hard to conceive for ten months. She has endured countless hardships and pains. In the end, she has to cut seven layers of bones and ten fingers to give birth to a child. After birth, she has to raise him wholeheartedly. It can be said that the mother is the greatest person in the world and the person most worthy of our respect. If anything happens, the child should be the first to rush forward and protect her. It's filial piety!"
"To our mother, we must not only be filial, but also obedient. Normally, we can't even contradict, but now there are still people who dare to kill her.
"Come on! Forces of justice, let us judge this evil spirit!"
As the upright voice shouted loudly, Mo Ran suddenly felt that her whole body was tightly bound. When she went to look again, she realized that her arms were open, and her whole body was tied up. On top of a cross, and the cross has been hoisted high, looking down, the space that was empty just now was unexpectedly crowded with people.
They stood densely under Mo Ran who was hung up, all of them raised their heads, and made all kinds of accusations against her, but they had no face.
Mo Ran looked at them quietly, and suddenly the righteous voice shouted in his ears: "The trial begins!"
Then those same words that were indifferent just now suddenly turned into sharp arrows and shot towards Mo Ran. She couldn't dodge at all, and was shot dripping with blood in an instant, and these sharp arrows didn't stop at all. All the people standing below kept accusing Mo Ran, and those sharp arrows shot towards her continuously.
If these sharp arrows only made her feel the pain of tearing her body apart, then soon, when her body was pierced into a hedgehog, the sharpness of these sharp arrows began to harvest her soul. In an instant, She felt that her soul was thrown into the brimstone sea of hell and was hardened, which made her cry out in unbearable pain.
"Look, everyone needs to pay for what they have done, and you are no exception." The voice from the garden came out again, and it stuck to Mo Ran's ear like a shadow, whispering , the sarcasm in the tone is not concealed at all.
"Sinner! Do you plead guilty or not!" The righteous voice suddenly increased by three points, he yelled at Mo Ran, and following his voice, more sharp arrows pierced Mo Ran's body .
Mo Ran felt that she couldn't hold on any longer, and in a trance, she even had an idea, just give up like this, what are you doing so hard? What good?
But the moment this idea just popped up, Mo Ran realized that this was the real nightmare.
In my childhood, my mother was not a real nightmare, although on the surface, she did seem like my worst childhood nightmare, the source of all my misfortunes
Something that was stored in the most hidden place in my mind loosened, and something seemed to break free from the bound seal, roaring out completely.
The past was like a movie screen, one after another flashed through her mind quickly, like a movie, whether she wanted to or not, she had to watch it to the end.
It wasn't until this time that Mo Ran finally remembered everything, why she forgot her parents, why she forgot that her mother's death was related to her, why she forgot all these abuses and accusations, and why she went to the orphanage. She doesn't even remember.
It turned out that she was tested as having an antisocial personality back then, but she was too young and had no guardian, so all her memories were hypnotized and sealed by a psychiatrist, and even all her good memories in the orphanage were sealed. Remodeled.
And the real her was the one who was not welcomed since she was a child.
Born, because Mo Ran is not a boy, the mother thinks that her father will dislike her because she gave birth to a girl, so she is not good to Mo Ran; , she felt that Mo Ran took away her father's love for her, so she got angry with Mo Ran; when her father couldn't bear her mother's nervousness and cheated, her mother thought it was Mo Ran who failed to hold her father tightly, and she felt that she was useless and hated Mo Ran even more; After her father left the house and Mo Ran chased him out, it became that Mo Ran wanted to get rid of her original sin of betraying her, and became even more aggressive towards Mo Ran.
It is normal to not have enough to eat and not to wear warm clothes, and insults are just a necessary daily procedure. What makes the young Mo Ran unbearable is that her mother will use various harsh methods to punish her and beat her because of a trivial matter. Even many times, Mo Ran felt that he could no longer live, and this kind of life lasted for nearly a year.
However, at that time, Mo Ran had always had good expectations in her heart. She believed what her father said, and she believed that his father would come back to pick her up and take her away from her mother who was almost crazy. When going down, she thought about her father, and she felt that she could survive.
Until one day, when the mother found out about the news of her father's remarriage, she completely collapsed and exhausted all her strength to torture Mo...
The news of her father's remarriage may be a catastrophe to her mother, but to Mo Ran, it is very calm, as if the glimmer of light in a world has completely disappeared, and her world has returned to darkness again.
In fact, she was not so hard to accept the news of her father's remarriage, and was even very calm. Looking back now, she should have had such a premonition long ago.
It was also on that day that Mo Ran no longer passively accepted her mother's anger and madness, she fought back, but she never imagined that the long-term mental disorder had already made her mother look haggard, and she was easily pushed to her, and she He died so easily.
She died without even implementing the idea that she would pay back all the torture methods her mother had put on her.
After the death of the mother, the community contacted the father, hoping that the other party could take on the responsibility of guardian, but because of the newly married wife and children, the father gave up the custody rights, even changed the contact information, and disappeared completely.
After being identified as having anti-social personality, Mo Ran was sent to a mental institution, and after medication and psychotherapy, her final destination was an orphanage.
It's a pity that a child with a past is destined not to be raised, and there will be classes in the orphanage, and she will always be at the bottom.
All those years, those whispers behind her completely overwhelmed her, until a therapist hypnotized all the memories, and she finally seemed to be free from the past, until—this moment.
It turned out that those things had never passed, those things had never been forgotten, but she thought she had forgotten them.
She thought she had forgotten that she was unpopular from birth, she thought she had forgotten that she was hated by her mother since she was a child, she thought she had forgotten that she was loved and promised by her father but was betrayed and abandoned in the end, she thought she had forgotten that in the end she The counterattack against her mother ended her mother's life. She thought she had forgotten the past when she was regarded as a devil by everyone. She even thought she had forgotten that she was bullied in various ways in the orphanage. As long as others gave her a little smile, she would be happy. I think that is the best memory in the world.
She thought she had forgotten all of this, but she never forgot.
During these years of dormancy, these pasts formed the nightmare in her heart, almost devouring her.
"Do you plead guilty!"
Following the sound that kept ringing in my ears, countless sharp arrows pierced through Mo Ran...
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