Chapter 239: world-weary
It was dusk, and the **** soup prepared in advance was already cold.
Jiang Xuening still hasn't returned.
Yan Lin sent someone to invite him to discuss the next move, Xie Wei lowered his eyes, picked up a snow-white handkerchief to wipe off the blood on his fingers, and said calmly: "I'll come later."
He put down the towel, asked people to clean up the mess in the house, and ordered the back kitchen to warm the **** soup, and then went out from the house.
The front hall for the discussion happened to pass by Jiang Xuening's courtyard.
He unexpectedly met Shen Zhiyi in the Tao.
This former imperial princess no longer loves the old palace clothes. She only wears a deep red and white dress with wide sleeves and long sleeves. Looking in the direction, she just came from Jiang Xuening's courtyard, but she doesn't seem to see anyone, her brows are light Frowning lightly, his expression was not very relaxed.
There was a faint scar around her eye.
It was the scar left on her cheek more than 20 years ago when Tianjiao and Pingnan King Party rebelled and broke through the capital. When she was in the palace, she was always very concerned about the beauty of a woman's appearance, so that she was so worried about this scar; now, after going through thousands of miles of marriage, frontier fortress and sandstorm, and being turned into a puppet again, she doesn't care about the appearance of the skin on the contrary. Therefore, she didn't even put on any cover-up makeup, but she was a little more frank and faced the real appearance.
Because of some things, turning a blind eye and whitewashing the peace are just deceiving yourself and deceiving yourself. What should be there will not change because of the hypocritical pretense.
She met Zhang Zhe in the afternoon, and she was emotional. Although there were many people in this huge mansion, she couldn't think of anyone else who could talk, so after sitting for more than an hour, she decided to ask Jiang Xuening.
It's just unfortunate that she wasn't there.
After turning around the corridor, Shen Zhiyi looked up and saw Xie Wei. At this moment, the footsteps of both of them stopped strangely, and the surrounding rain had not yet stopped, but there was a sudden stagnation in the air.
Some things don't need to be explained to others, they are clear to each other.
What is the teacher of the king, what is the princess's decree, what is the respect for His Royal Highness...
Everything is nothing!
Shen Zhiyi neither issued any imperial edicts, nor said that she wanted to return the court, everything was just a big hand behind the scenes manipulating the overall situation, using her as a puppet on the stage, thinking that they were going to do all kinds of things Find a suitable and legitimate reason so that all this can continue in a legitimate and dignified manner.
And the so-called noble princess...
Even the gate of the city cannot be freely stepped out.
Shen Zhiyi felt a bit of sarcasm in her heart, but she didn't show it in the end, she just asked first: "Ning Ning said that he would go out of the city to find Wei Liang in the afternoon, and now it's so late, have you come back yet?"
She had only met Zhang Zhe not long ago.
Xie Wei folded his hands behind his back and didn't answer, but asked instead: "It's time to come back and I will come back. She had already visited His Highness at noon, and His Highness came to look for him again at night. He wanted to tell her that Zhang Zhe was here, and told her to go see His Highness." Shall I see you?"
There are eyeliners among the people who serve her, and her every move is reported to the higher authorities. For Shen Zhiyi who grew up in the court, this is really commonplace, and it is no longer a rare thing.
It's just that when he knew for sure that Xie Wei knew everything, he still couldn't help but feel chills.
Even hate.
Her face turned cold, but she said: "It's just that there are some things I want to say to her. Now that Mr. Xie is in power and has acquired most of the world, there is no need to be so afraid of me, a puppet who is about to be abandoned. After all , the reason why you still dare to let her see me is because you are sure that I will never talk too much in front of her to embarrass her?"
Although Jiang Xuening rushed to the border and rescued her together, the Xinzhou Army and Huangzhou Army were rebels who were actually plotting rebellion. A princess of the royal family was rescued by a rebel, and her position was already very embarrassing.
If only that's the case.
But the person she really cares about has inextricably close ties with the leader of the rebels behind the scenes.
You Fangyin has passed away.
Shen Zhiyi also knew that all of this was for herself, even if there were thousands of difficulties in her heart, even if the surface was far from the truth, she would never confide or complain to Jiang Xuening.
Just because she's her only friend—
She didn't want to add any trouble to her, and then push the situation into an unsolvable abyss.
Xie Wei was well aware of this, and he didn't deny it, he just stared at Shen Zhiyi, his calm voice without ups and downs had a particularly ruthless flavor: "Since you know my taboo, you shouldn't always come to her .”
Where is this young master Xie from Fengchen Hall?
Shen Zhiyi could hardly believe how he could say such a thing.
For a moment, anger surged.
She asked coldly: "Is this the way you like someone? Have you ever asked her if she knows it, and is she willing? She is sincere and kind, with a free nature, but you are hypocritical and cunning, step by step, scheming everywhere, and let her know nothing! What do you think of her? A prison bird locked in a cage by you?!"
Xie Wei said, "What should she know?"
Shen Zhiyi sneered: "As for the Heavenly Sect, you catch them first and then let them go, and let them do harm to the world and ruin lives! Along the way, how many people were displaced and killed in the flames of war! Even if you want to rebel, the world has always been ruled by others, but the common people He Gu? If you say that you are powerless, you can’t stop it, that’s fine. But you have the power to do nothing, and deliberately condone evil deeds, just to show your own selfishness! You want to destroy the imperial court, take the country, and everyone But you can fight it openly, but you don't need to use such low-level methods that treat human life like nothing!"
Xie Wei knows what he has done.
He was indifferent, and he was indifferent to the life and death of the so-called people in the world, he only said: "So what?"
so what?
What I saw along the way was devastated, there were businessmen who had been robbed of their life's efforts, there were wives whose husbands were killed, and there were homeless children...
Crying and shouting!
Shen Zhiyi traveled with the army, unlike Jiang Xuening, Wei Liang and the others, who were always a few days behind, but everything they saw and heard was in their hearts, and they often couldn't sleep at night.
At this moment, she looked at Xie Wei as if she was looking at a monster.
What kind of cold-blooded person can say such a sentence?
She blinked, but finally calmed down, and said clearly: "Jiang Xuening treats people with sincerity and sincerity. She deserves everyone to treat her forever, but you are not worthy of her."
After speaking, he walked away.
The three words "not worthy of" are really sharp.
Xie Ju'an also didn't want to talk to her, but after walking a few steps, too much, too much of the past emerged, so that the hostility that was already lingering in his heart became more and more difficult to suppress. !
At this moment, the footsteps stopped suddenly.
He turned around, his voice seemed to be mixed with cold malice, and he said coldly: "The weak are preyed on by the strong, and fools in the world are only worthy of being slaughtered by others! Your Royal Highness stands on a dangerous wall, so you should be careful with your words. One day, I will kill all the people in the world, and I will kill you!" It is only to blame that the people of the world are willing to be straw dogs!"
After saying that, without looking at Shen Zhiyi, she went straight to the meeting hall.
Shen Zhiyi watched this person's back disappear between the stacked pillars, and felt that under that peaceful body, there was a ferocious and madness that was about to get out of control.
When a gust of wind blows, I feel the chill all over my body.
She gently spread her palm, and the soldier talisman made up of two fragments lay quietly in her palm. After watching for a long time, I felt an absurd sadness. I closed my eyes and clenched them bit by bit, letting them hurt.
Jiang Xuening didn't know how she came back, she was in a trance like walking through the fantasy dream of two lifetimes, the shadows of flowers and trees around her overlapped and left, suddenly it seemed that she had transformed into those people she had seen and known in two lifetimes, making her top-heavy, I couldn't tell where I was.
Until a palm in the oblique stab suddenly grabbed her arm.
She just came back to her senses.
The rain had lightened, and Yan Lin didn't hold an umbrella.
He was wearing a strong attire, and seeing her in despair, he couldn't help frowning his handsome sword eyebrows, but there was a strange emotion surging in his chest, which made him not speak for the first time.
Jiang Xuening looked at him.
His mature silhouette was covered by the falling night, and there was an indescribable depression. He should have asked "Where have you been?", but the words came out: "Ning Ning, I made a nightmare."
Jiang Xuening was stunned.
Yan Lin's hand was still holding her arm, and he stared at her with dark eyes: "I'm a little scared. In that dream, I treated you well..."
Dream…
If it was said that she was in a trance at first, but she was awakened at this moment.
A fear left over from the previous life came to my heart almost instantly.
Yan Lin's face in front of her eyes overlapped for a moment with that of her previous life when she was looking at her deeply in her bedroom. Jiang Xuening's heart trembled fiercely, and she could hardly control her subconscious reaction, and she broke free from his grip on her. Palm, take a step back!
Yan Lin watched, but felt like a knife was piercing his heart.
Before saying this to Jiang Xuening, he was still thinking that it was just a dream, a dream.
But why, is she really so scared?
In the boy's voice, there was a little hoarse sobbing faintly: "The dreams you talked about, and the dreams I had, are all real, right?"
He is still Yan Lin in this life.
Jiang Xuening looked at him, and when she realized this, she immediately knew that her actions had hurt him, but she couldn't control it.
Is there such a strange thing in the world?
Or, after listening to what Zhang Zhe said today, it gave rise to an illusion that the past and the present are intertwined, and it is difficult to distinguish the true from the false?
No…
She shook her head, but felt her head aching like it was about to split, she didn't want to stand here and say another word to Yan Lin.
It's just that she walked a few steps, and the young man who had faded from his old youth still stood there as if he had been left behind.
Then the guilt welled up.
Jiang Xuening thought, they are not alone after all.
After standing still for a long time, she finally turned her head and said to him: "It's just a dream, it will be gone when you wake up, don't take it to heart."
Yan Lin stood under the wall covered with withered yellow vines, watching her walk away.
The slim and slender figure was illuminated by lamps.
But in his eyes and reflected in his heart, there was only a piece of desolation left.
By the time we reached Dexiewei's courtyard, the rain had stopped.
Jiang Xuening had so many things in her mind that she didn't want to think about what Yan Lin's words meant just now, even when she went to the gate of the courtyard and heard Dao Qin say that Xie Wei was still waiting for her, she still didn't want to think about it. With an inexplicable emptiness.
She went into the house.
There were delicate bowls and plates on the table, a few dishes were cooked, and a jug of wine was placed. The two wine cups were already filled, but the wine inside was no longer shaking. Obviously, it had been placed on the table for a long time after it was poured. So that the cup is as smooth as a mirror.
There is a new piano on the piano table.
The original mess in the room had been cleaned up, Xie Wei was sitting on the other side of the table, watching her walk in, there was nothing unusual on his face, he just handed her a glass of wine, and asked, "What are you talking about with Wei Liang?" Come back so late?"
When Jiang Xuening and Wei Liang met the rain, they naturally finished their work early, but on the way back to the city, she saw Zhang Zhe and chased after him, talking for a long time before returning.
It's just that she didn't want to tell Xie Wei.
As a result, the wine cup he handed over, she lowered her eyes, avoiding his direct gaze, and said with a smile: "I was left by a farmer's family to talk for a long time, and I forgot the time."
Xie Wei sat at the table, watching her quietly.
After all, her mood was more chaotic than usual, and she didn't even think about why Xie Wei prepared a table of dishes and wine, and the wine cup was handed to her, and she wanted to drink it after speaking.
Xie Wei's eyes fell on her fingers holding the lamp.
However, just when the wine cup was about to touch his lips, he stood up suddenly, snatched it off with his hands, threw it directly on the ground, and smashed it into pieces with a "pop"!
At that moment, his face was indescribably cold.
I don't know whether it's more anger or more hatred, so I scolded her mercilessly: "Jiang Xuening, are you a fool?!"
Two drops of the splashed wine landed on the silver chopsticks, staining it black.
It's just that Jiang Xuening didn't see it.
She even looked up at him in a daze, without reacting.
After a rain in the afternoon and evening, when she came back from outside, the tips of her crow-green hair were covered with moisture, and when Xie Wei reached out to grab her shoulder, his palm was also cold.
Then the anger became more intense.
He directly dragged her into the room, asked someone to prepare hot water for bathing, and with a cold face, he took off all the clothes on her body that had been invaded by the rain and cold, and threw her whole body into the bathtub.
Jiang Xuening fell into it and was almost completely submerged in hot water. The wet bun was immediately scattered, falling on her white and greasy shoulders, and resting on the undulating curves.
When a person emerges from the water, drops of water hang on his thick eyelashes.
She just felt that this person suddenly became unreasonable. Just as she was about to ask what happened, Xie Ju'an had already pinched the back of her neck, and her lips turned over, tightly controlling her. With some desire to vent, according to his lips and tongue that penetrated into her mouth, she was imprisoned to the fullest.
He made Jiang Xuening wet.
But the water droplets from her body also stained his original neat robe, she whimpered, and had the illusion of suffocation.
This time it was obviously more intense than ever before.
But Xie Wei's eyes were calmer than ever before.
He said, "I want you."
Jiang Xuening looked at his paranoid madness, for some reason, she felt that the beating heart in her chest was cut open with a knife, and the blood gushing out from the wound made her feel extremely sad, but Can't say a word.
It's hard to imagine that she would feel sorry for this person.
Xie Wei suddenly hated her eyes like this, raised his hand to cover her eyes, then buried his head in a deep kiss on the crimson lips below, finally suppressed her, and slowly penetrated bit by bit.
An almost extreme pleasure.
But what was left after the end was a messy void, a fear that could not be filled, and a kind of hatred for oneself.
She lay on her side beside him.
Xie Wei was quiet for a while before asking: "Let's get married, okay?"
Jiang Xuening did not answer.
She bit her lips tightly, and clenched one hand against her heart, trying to suppress something. The pillow was already wet with tears, because I was afraid that I would cry out as soon as I let go.
Xie Wei waited for her for a long time.
But dare not ask a second time.
Putting on his clothes and getting up, the residual wine in the house was tilted, and the clear light outside the window was all over the place, and he remembered the words that Lu Zhaoyin used to tease him.
Although Xie Ju'an won't win all the time, he will never lose.
But what if...
This time he wants to win no matter what?