Chapter 72:
There is no room for things to turn around.
After Jiang Xiao made this decision, he still met Lin Heyuan once.
Lin Heyuan persisted a little longer than he did, but he soon discovered that such persistence was useless.
Not only Jiang Xiao has a tendency to give up, his family cannot give in, not even a single step, and if he goes on, Jiang Xiao will only be troubled.
The essence of the family problem is that he has not yet had the strength to make his own decision and fully bear the consequences of this decision.
"...If I knew this earlier, I wouldn't go to the competition," Lin Heyuan took Jiang Xiao's hand, he seemed to have grown a few years older all of a sudden, and his eyes began to look a little gloomy, "Jiang Xiao, I am still very worried. Like you, if I don't take the exam, we can go to the first university and things won't turn out like this."
But at that time, it was for Jiang Xiao that he worked so hard to win the prize in the physics competition.
But many times, you can't go on just by liking, what's more, no matter how deep the liking when you were young, it lacks support.
Seeing the gloom in his expression, Jiang Xiao felt a dull pain in his heart, which he couldn't describe.
"How can you say that? The grades belong to you," Jiang Xiao said with a smile on his face, and reached out to rub his frowning brows away, "This is the one thing I don't regret the most."
He still remembered the first time he looked at Lin Heyuan's physics class notes. His notes in other subjects were very serious, only the physics class was different. His physics class notes were interesting. In some places, it was like an essay, and it could be seen that he was writing these moods.
Lin Heyuan had always liked physics.
A good relationship means that both parties have become better people here.
He also hoped that Lin Heyuan would get through this ups and downs and still be that high-spirited and super powerful person.
I will get better too.
Jiang Xiao thought.
Although he and Lin Heyuan never said the word breakup, they eventually separated.
He later met with the Lin family's mother.
"I'm sorry to you on behalf of my husband for what happened before. I never meant to hurt you," she said. "I also want to thank you."
If Jiang Xiao is also stubborn, Lin Heyuan will not give up either, things will fall into a vicious circle, and I don't know what will happen.
Although she also felt that sooner or later her husband would suffer in the future because of his old-fashioned and sexist character, but at this time, the children hit the south wall and hit a head of blood, and she was even more reluctant to see it.
Jiang Xiao didn't say anything. She didn't really want to accept her apologies and thanks.
He just still remembers the two words that his mother gave him in his previous life, and learns to let go of things that don't belong to him.
Maybe Lin Heyuan at this time is destined not to belong to him.
During the third year of high school, Jiang Xiao was destined to be unforgettable for the rest of his life.
It's not that Lin Heyuan's resistance was completely fruitless. Lin Qingyu seemed to be affected a bit by this incident. She transferred schools, and the entire Lin family had to move out to the provincial capital, and she never planned to come back.
The girl came to see Jiang Xiao before she left.
"Thank you for giving me so many things. This time it's our family's problem. Jiang Xiao, you are very nice. I hope you can be happy in the future."
She brought Jiang Xiao the last gift that Lin Heyuan prepared before leaving.
A small box.
After the box was opened, there was a note on the top. On the red note with gold sprinkles, there was a sentence written in calligraphy. It was Lin Heyuan's handwriting, and he also knew it.
- Don't worry about having no confidantes ahead.
When he saw this, he really laughed. I also hope that Lin Heyuan can meet other confidants even if they are separated.
In addition to this note, there is a small box inside the box. It is locked, and the small key is put aside. There is a note on the key, which says, please Jiang Niannian wait until the college entrance examination is over before opening it.
Jiang Xiao has always been very obedient. He said that he would put the box away after the college entrance examination.
Lin Chengyu actually had a conversation with Lin Heyuan.
The two did not deal with each other all the time, but that day Jiang Xiao took Lin Heyuan to his house to get medicine. After saying those words, Jiang Xiao went home, and Lin Heyuan stayed there for a while.
"Thank you for helping Jiang Xiao for the previous incident."
Lin Heyuan was talking about what his father did. If he was not stopped, it would be useless for him to apologize to Jiang Xiao.
Lin Chengyu glanced at him and replied, "No, I'm not for you."
Lin Heyuan was silent for a while, and then said, "I don't know what happened between you and Jiang Xiao...I envy you now."
In the open and secret fight between the two of them, Lin Heyuan always had the upper hand, because Jiang Xiao was biased in his heart, and Lin Heyuan never thought that he would also envy each other one day.
Lin Chengyu transferred from Liujiang to Houlin. He doesn't know exactly how he persuaded his family, but in this situation, being able to do this is indeed enviable.
At least he can avoid being imprisoned by his family, and he can also prevent his family from hurting the people he likes.
Lin Heyuan had previously thought that this person was somewhat neurotic, but after looking at it for such a long time, even if he was neurotic, the side facing Jiang Xiao was always good.
Because of the opposition of the family, others will finish their studies after going abroad, and there will be a day when they will come back. It may not be impossible to continue the relationship until then, but Lin Heyuan does not dare to make such an assumption.
Because Lin Chengyu.
Jiang Xiao has him by his side, is it possible that he will wait for several years just to wait for him to come back? Even if it wasn't for Lin Chengyu, after such a long time, he would always meet other people.
No matter how good the relationship is, you can't bear to wait for a long time.
"No one's going to stand there and wait all the time, do they?"
When Lin Heyuan said this, it was more like he was talking to himself, he was trying to accept the unacceptable reality.
Lin Chengyu was also stabbed by this sentence.
I will stay with Jiang Xiao this time, he thought silently.
After Lin Heyuan left, he also knew that Jiang Xiao was uncomfortable.
People like Jiang Xiao, who don't want to bother me with my studies, would be in a trance in class last semester. In the final exam of the second year of high school, he was ranked third in the city, and in the first month of the third year of high school, his grades dropped to the eleventh in the grade. , fell out of the top ten of the grade.
Lin Chengyu had read his papers, and the mistakes were all very simple questions.
The teacher also felt that his state was not right, even if his grades fluctuated, he should not be like this. He talked to Jiang Xiao a few times, and his tone was also very good, but Jiang Xiao couldn't say it.
"It's okay," Jiang Xiao said to the head teacher, "I will adjust it myself."
But he didn't.
Houlin No. 1 Middle School usually holds parent-teacher meetings on the next Saturday after the mid-term exam results. Xia Wanwan also knew that Jiang Xiao was in a bad mood recently, and she was more worried about her son's problems than the results.
About Jiang Xiao and Lin Heyuan, although Jiang Xiao never said anything about it, Xia Wanwan can still guess a little about it.
The gifts he gave Jiang Xiao's birthday every year, the last time he fought with Jiang Cheng's group, and now, as soon as Lin Heyuan left, Jiang Xiao's mentality about his grades changed. How could Xia Wanwan have no idea at all?
But Lin Heyuan had indeed left.
After the parent-teacher meeting, Xia Wanwan led Jiang Xiao back home.
Jiang Xiao kept his head down. After entering the house, he said sorry to her in a low voice.
"I'll pass the test later," he said, "I..."
He couldn't say anything, so he huddled on the sofa and was silent.
Xia Wanwan rubbed his hair, and then asked him, "Do you like boys every year?"
Jiang Xiao shivered all over, and he shrank back again on the sofa.
"I like Lin Heyuan, right?"
After waiting for a long time, Jiang Xiao slowly came out of the curled state, and replied in a hoarse voice: "Yes."
Xia Wanwan reached out and hugged her son, and patted his back again and again, as if coaxing him to sleep when she was a child.
"Blame me," she said. "Should have found out sooner."
"Aren't you angry?"
Jiang Xiao asked her.
"It's not Nian Nian's fault," she said. "Why are you angry? Xiao Lin left. If Nian Nian is not feeling well, you can tell her mother."
Jiang Xiao buried his head on her shoulder.
"I'm just..." He choked a little, "I'm just a little uncomfortable."
When he was studying at school and taking exams, he couldn't control himself and was always distracted. Sometimes he can't help but wonder if there is something wrong with him?
But where am I doing wrong?
Many people told him, Jiang Xiao, you have no problem at all, Lin Qingyu said it, Lin Heyuan said it, and even the Lin family's mother told him.
But it always turned out like this, like a curse.
"It's not every year's fault," Xia Wanwan told him. "It's hard to talk about this kind of thing."
She slowly told her son about her childhood experiences.
Xia Wanwan is good-looking now, and even more beautiful when she was young. She also met a few people before getting married, some good and some bad, and finally she met Jiang Xiao's father Jiang Hai.
"...After meeting your father, I think this is how my life should be. It's the same person, but things backfired," Xia Wanwan sighed. "When your father just left, I couldn't understand it for a while."
Later, it was her son who gave her courage and made her survive.
"Whether men and women, no matter who they are, it is always fate to be together. When I was younger, I felt that the relationship was to stay together forever, but now I understand that it is of course good to be able to stay together forever. But that's very little.
When two people are together, they face too many uncertain factors. It is a great blessing to be able to get it forever, and it is often with regret. "
She rubbed Jiang Xiao's hair and continued: "It's the same when you grow up, every year, maybe you will meet other people, they may stay, and they may leave, every year, you have a clear conscience. Okay. You will always understand in the future that what matters in a relationship is not only the time you spend together, but what the other party left for you after separation is equally important. Your father left me with you, and that would be very good. "
Jiang Xiao didn't have anything to answer, he just listened carefully.
He thought about all the happy past when he and Lin Heyuan were together. Every time he went to Liujiang to buy goods, he went with expectations, because he could bring something back to Lin Heyuan, and every time he went to self-study with the other party, he would With the feeling of two people moving forward together, he was a little more motivated to study.
During this period of time, when he was studying, he always felt that something was missing, and he was easily distracted.
He replied sullenly, and after Xia Wanwan found out and said these words, he seemed to be unable to hold on any longer, and buried himself on his mother's shoulder, unable to hold back his tears and wept.
The first love in his life has passed like this, and there are always discomfort and grievances, but such emotions can never last. After crying a lot, people still have to look forward.