Chapter 36: .36 Have you really never loved me?

Chapter 36: .36 Have you really never loved me?

    Lin Xiyu said: "There is nothing to discuss, I remember we agreed before we got married, and we will divorce after we have children."

    "I didn't think about getting a divorce, even if I promised you at that time, it was just an expedient measure."

    Hearing this, Lin Xiyu's heart was even colder, he really, what else did he lie to her and she didn't know?

    "I lied to you, but I lied to you for a reason, if you really destroyed Cheng Subaru, now Cheng Subaru does not exist, do you understand? I will make up for it in the future, you It can also be seen that I have never treated your mother and son harshly. Everything can be resolved, please don't divorce."

    He held her hand and kept his voice down, as if he was coaxing her. Lin Xiyu didn't even want to listen to him now, she suddenly pulled her hand away, packed the things, and closed the box, Lu Junting came back to his senses and hurriedly said, "Are you really going? No more children? He You're still so young, you're willing to ignore him?"

    Did he decide that she would not get a divorce when she had a child, so she suggested that he would agree to divorce after the child was born, because he knew that she could not run away, and she would just have a child With chips tied to her. Not only can he control her life, but he even knows her thoughts. He is really a man who is good at penetrating people's hearts.

    Lin Xiyu carried the suitcase and turned to face him, the sky outside the window was very good, blue sky and white clouds, just like that day, the family went out to play together, he bought a balloon she liked for her, he Said that she was also a child. His tender eyebrows and eyes that day made her heart soft. The balloons he bought for her are still hanging on the head of her bed.

    "My mother was a college professor and an educator, she taught me to be self-respect and independent, before I became anyone's wife or anyone's mother I was myself first, I was independent A person, you don't have to use the child to restrain me, I love him, but I will not ruin my own life for him and live with a person who deceives me."

     After she finished speaking, she pulled the suitcase and turned to leave.

    In these years, Lu Junting has been working hard in the shopping mall, his heart has long been trained to be indestructible, and he has become accustomed to being calm in case of trouble, but now, his indestructibility is watching her turn and leave In an instant, the chapped cracked into pieces, his face was full of panic, and he chased after him without even thinking about it.

    Lin Xiyu went downstairs, and the nanny Wu Sister was playing with the baby. Seeing that she was carrying a suitcase, she asked, "Where is this going?"

    Guangbao saw her and hurriedly crawled over to her, Lin Xiyu walked over and hugged him, he didn't know anything, with a smile in his innocent eyes, he patted Calling her with a chubby little hand: "Mom."

    Cry and laugh.

     

    There was too much reluctance in her heart, but she knew that Lu Junting was watching from the side, watching her struggling and resisting, but she was still restrained by him after all.

    There was an air in her heart, she didn't want him to do so.

    She handed the child to Sister Wu and explained to her: "Take good care of him."

    After he finished speaking, he pulled the suitcase and walked out. The baby didn't know if he noticed something. He was anxious and called her with a crying voice.

    "Mom, Mom, Mom."

    One after another.

    Lin Xiyu stopped, at that moment, she really struggled, or just let it go, or stay with the baby, for the baby, she can compromise anything, even if she knew she was being Playing can also compromise.

    But in the end, she still retained her last self-esteem, she did not look back, she pulled the suitcase out the door, and the sound of hurried footsteps caught up behind her, and her wrist was quickly touched by an iron claw-like arm Clamp down.

    Lu Junting pulled her around and turned around, the man's face was full of anger, but there was a panic in his eyes that seemed to be broken, he said to her: "You didn't hear him Are you crying? Why did you just leave like this?"

    The nanny has walked to the door with Bao Bao, and Bao Bao cried very sadly when she saw that her mother was leaving. Lin Xiyu felt a colic in her heart, she didn't want to say anything, suddenly broke away Lu Junting's hand and walked towards the gate.

    She walked quickly, Lin Xigan was waiting outside the gate, he helped her load the suitcase into the car, Lin Xiyu asked him to go quickly, the car turned around and drove away quickly, she looked in the rearview mirror To Lu Junting, who quickly chased after him.

    This man who has always been confident and noble, when he hurriedly chased after him, his demeanor and actions showed a bit of embarrassment, as if after his confidence was broken, everything was out of his control, making him unable to accept.

    Lu Junting stood on the side of the road, watching the car she was sitting in disappear. The freshly drawn wicker was swayed by the wind. This street is full of willow trees, and the streets are green and full of vitality. It was a good weather. He opened the car window when he went to work today and took a few deep sniffs. The air smelled of fragrant and clean smell of spring, but now, in just one day, his throat seemed to be Something got stuck, and there was an unbearable sting after breathing.

    When Lu Junting returned home, the nanny was hugging the crying child Lu Chengsuba and coaxing him. Lu Junting was sitting on the sofa and crying made him a little irritable. It was his son's face that was wet with tears, and those eyes were red from crying.

     He rubbed his head a little.

    "Don't cry baby, Dad promises you will find your mother, don't cry, okay?"

    Lin Xiyu found a house next to the club to live in. She hadn't slept well for three days in a row. It's really scary to get used to this kind of thing. She's used to being Lu Junting's wife. Good treasure accompanies me. Now that I move out alone, I can't adapt to this lonely life for a while. Lying in bed at night and flipping through the photos of Gubao repeatedly, he couldn't think about it, did he cry, did he sleep, did he eat obediently, whether he would miss her when his mother was not around, and even thought about whether he should run away secretly. Go back and see him.

    She knew that it was the hardest time to leave, and Lu Junting was also waiting for her to turn back. Now he is silently watching her struggle, watching her desperate, and finally sent it to his door for him to use.

    Three days later, Lin Xiyu came home from get off work and saw a familiar car downstairs where she lived. He moved so fast that he found out where she lived in three days.

    Lin Xiyu pretended not to see it, turned around and walked into the community, and saw the back door opened, Lu Junting came out from the inside, and called her directly, "Lin Xiyu."

    Lin Xiyu turned her head to look at him, she rented an old community, the house and ground looked dilapidated, he was wearing a suit, shiny leather shoes, and well-dressed. The man with outstanding temperament is in stark contrast with the dilapidated community next to him, which is so incongruous.

    Lu Junting stepped up to her and said, "I have something to tell you."

    "Nothing to say."

    Her attitude was very cold, he remembered that she would greet him timidly when she saw him before, and would call him "Brother Junting".

    "Didn't you want a divorce? Don't want to talk about divorce?"

    Lin Xiyu glanced at him, and Lu Junting said again, "I don't want to talk about divorce on the street."

    This surprised Lin Xiyu, but after thinking about it, they didn't have any feelings, didn't she, she wouldn't believe that Lu Junting liked her nonsense, her child was born, the task was completed, he Maybe he has found another tool person, and it is not surprising that he will agree to divorce.

    Lin Xiyu thought about it and said, "Come with me."

    Lin Xiyu lives on the third floor. Although the neighborhood is dilapidated, the stairs are quite clean. Lin Xiyu took out the key and opened the door. Lu Junting followed her in. He glanced at random, very In a small apartment, there are only one pair of her slippers on the door, so she should live alone. He breathed a sigh of relief.

    Lin Xiyu didn't want to talk nonsense, and asked him directly: "Tell me, when will the divorce agreement be signed."

    "I didn't think about getting a divorce."

    Lin Xiyu glanced at him, he said calmly.

    "Why do you want to talk to me about divorce if you haven't thought about it?"

    He didn't speak, his eyes kept on her. Lin Xiyu understood, "Those who lie by nature will never forget to lie."

    Lu Junting didn't get angry, but said to her in a negotiating tone: "Let's discuss how to solve it, it's not just divorce, Cheng Subaru is still so young, she needs a mother , you are so cruel to leave him?"

    "If you really think he shouldn't lose his mother, then give him to me, and I can raise him."

    "For you? Do you think it's possible?"

    "If it's impossible, don't say that again, I won't go back."

     

    "Aren't you willing to forgive me at all? We've been together for so long, don't you have any feelings for me at all? It's my fault that I lied to you, do you even make up for my fault? You don't want to give me the chance?"

    He stood in her room, and the small room was full of his powerful aura. These words of forgiveness, being smothered by his aura, gave people a strong sense of oppression, as if Facing his apology, you should bow your head obediently and accept it.

    Lin Xiyu didn't want to be the person he arbitrarily manipulated anymore, she was silent for a while, and then said to him in a very calm tone: "I think about it, I think I'm probably right. You don't have any feelings. If I really like you, I will probably forgive your deception, and I will probably turn a blind eye to your toying. After all, although you played with me, you still gave me a little sweetness. But I found that I don't even like you, so I don't want to forgive, and I don't want to continue with you, I just want to end everything and avoid you, a dangerous person, as far as possible."

    This statement is too direct, as if every word has a needle hidden in it, needle after needle, sticking tightly on him, piercing him from the inside to the outside all hurt.

      I didn't even make love? Was the person I made love with at the beginning a piece of wood? If it was a piece of wood, how could I continue to do it? Which time did I not make you happy?"

    He was hurt by her piercing, and his heart was hurting so much that he only felt a rush of fire rushing to his head. He almost said this through gritted teeth.

    He came over step by step, Lin Xiyu retreated subconsciously, she looked at the man in front of her with a look of astonishment, he couldn't say such words.

    "You really refreshed my understanding of you again and again."

    He stopped, looking at her cold and mocking eyes, he was so self-controlling, yet he was so easily provoked by her anger.

    He sneered: "Really?"

    After he finished speaking, he suddenly stretched out his hand and hooked her waist, he pulled her closer, lowered his head and kissed her, Lin Xiyu was startled, and subconsciously blocked him, she said angrily: "Lu Junting what are you going to do?"

    Lu Junting stopped her by the waist to fight her on his shoulders, carried her and walked to the bedside, he threw her on the bed, his tall body pressed down, he grabbed her hands and raised them to the top of his head , greeted her on the lips without saying a word.

    "I'm going to give it a try, does it really feel nothing to me."

    He pursed her lips and kissed her fiercely. At first Lin Xiyu was still struggling, but he held her hand tightly, she was completely unable to fight against him, and finally gave up. Leave him motionless.

    Lu Junting kissed her for a while, but there was no response. When he looked down, he saw her staring at the ceiling with her eyes empty. This was not the expression of kissing someone at all.

    This made him very frustrated, his confidence collapsed again and again in front of her, he was angry, angry and panic, he asked: "I really don't feel at all? Really not at all like me?"

    She shook her head at him calmly, "No, you are not my type, I have never liked you."

    His eyes were full of scarlet, and he almost gritted his teeth and asked her: "Why do you agree to have **** with me if you don't like me? How do you agree, you say!"

    "Because of the child, I want to stay with the child, all because of the child."

    He was stunned for a moment, and when he was absent, she broke away from him, fled a few steps to distance himself from him, Lu Junting kept the action of being pushed away by her, motionless Sitting on the bed.

    He looked up at her, there was a clear pain in his eyes, like a seriously injured beast, his expression surprised her, after all, this was the first time she saw Until Lu Junting showed a fragile and injured expression, this person has always been very confident, and he can even tell a lie without changing his face.

    With such an expression, it was as if he was really hurt, really stabbed by her words.

    He slowly got up from the bed, without saying a word, opened the door and walked out.

    Lu Junting got into the car and unbuttoned two shirts to make breathing easier. He instructed the driver to go directly back to the company, and the car slowly drove away from the dilapidated community, but her words still lingered in his mind.

    "I think I probably don't have any feelings for you."

    "I see that I don't even like you."

    "I don't like you, you're not my type, I never liked you."

    Lu Junting frowned in discomfort, rubbed his forehead with his slender thumb and forefinger, but this elegant and noble man in front of outsiders couldn't help but let out a foul language.

    Lu Junting likes work very much, he doesn't like that kind of boring empty state, and work does give him a lot of sense of accomplishment. After getting married and having children, he intends to reduce his work, but he has never stopped working during the working day.

    However, today, Lu Junting deliberately came out empty for a long time. He had already explained to the nanny last night, so the nanny was ready the next morning.

    Guaibao has changed into the clothes he wants to go out, and is now sitting on the cushion playing with toys, Lu Junting walked over and picked him up and said, "I will take you to find your mother, okay?"

    When she heard that she was looking for her mother, her eyes lit up and she nodded with a smile. His soft and cute appearance really makes people feel happy, and Lu Junting can't help laughing and teasing him: "I just like to find your mother? Huh?"

    He took the baby to the club where Lin Xiyu worked. He knew that she would come to a restaurant near the club for dinner at noon. He had driven here to see her secretly.

    He brought Gubao over and wanted to have a meal with her, but it was too early, she hadn’t gotten off work yet, so Gubao couldn’t stay in the car, there happened to be a commercial street nearby , Bao Bao likes to be lively, and points to the crowded commercial street and wants to go shopping.

    Lu Junting glanced at the time, she still had half an hour to get off work, so she could take her son for a walk. The little guy was very excited when he went to a place with many people. He looked at this and that with big eyes, and the little meat pointed at a certain place, babbled and didn't know what he was talking to.

    Passing by a jewelry stall, the boss put a shelf outside the door, with silk scarves and hats hanging on the shelf, bypassing the stall, Gubao grabbed other people's hats and wouldn't put them away.

    "Do you want a hat?"

    The little meat hand clenched the hat tightly and looked at him with big eyes, which means he wanted.

    Seeing that there was business, the boss hurriedly came out and introduced to Lu Junting: "This is a parent-child hat, suitable for the family to wear." The boss picked up the smaller one below and put it on for the baby, smiling. : "This one is for children."

    Lu Junting glanced at the other two, a men's hat and a women's hat, the men's hats had a boy printed on them, the women's hats had a girl's print on them, and the one that the darling was wearing had a print on it. a heart.

    The family has a heart-to-heart bond and looks very loving.

    Lu Junting said: "Take the other two as well."

    The boss immediately packed the bag for him, Lu Junting put on the men's hat, looked at his son, and the boy touched the hat on his head and then touched his father's Hat, giggling, presumably happy to wear the same hat as Dad.

    "Shall we bring this hat to your mother?"

    Good baby's happy eyes curved into two crescents, "Mom, mom."

    "Okay, for mom."

    Lu Junting came back from a stroll with the baby, Lin Xiyu happened to be out for dinner, Lu Junting saw her at a glance, she happened to be sitting by the window, the whole floor-to-ceiling window, he could clearly see she.

    It's just that she is not alone, and Lin Xigan is sitting opposite her.

    Lin Xigan also came to find Lin Xiyu for dinner, Lin Xiyu told him about the incident she met with Lu Junting yesterday, she sighed and said, "Lu Junting doesn't agree to the divorce, I don't know what to do now. "

    "If you can't think of what to do for a while, just don't think about it and be happy."

    Lin Xiyu nodded her head, but she couldn't really be happy because she had something on her mind, so Lin Xigan said to her, "Why don't I tell you a joke?"

    “…”

    "There was a candy, it was walking in the North Pole, and then it became rock candy."

    Lin Xiyu laughed, and Lin Xigan continued: "A black cat rescued a white cat from the river, guess what the white cat will say."

    "What? Say thank you?"

    "Meow"

    “…”

    Lin Xiyu was successfully amused.

    Lu Junting stood outside watching this scene, she was in a relaxed state and smiled very relieved. Such a smile would never appear in front of him. She was afraid of him. Even if she had **** with him later, she smiled at him cautiously and with reservations.

    And when she kissed him, she never looked at her, and she closed her eyes every time in the same room, or she had to turn off the light, only when he forced her to open her eyes.

    He thought of the conversation he had with her.

    "How can I agree to have **** with me if I don't like it? How can I agree, you say!"

    "Because of the child, I want to stay with the child, all because of the child."

    She stayed because of the child.

    At this moment, he suddenly understood that she really didn't love him, not at all. I don't love him, so I don't want to look at him more when kissing, I don't love him, so I have to close my eyes every time I have **** with him, I don't love him, so as long as he makes a little mistake, she can say Just leave, no matter how nice he has been to her.

    Like fate, she doesn't love him, even if he tried his best to get her to marry him, she still doesn't love him.

    He is such a rational person, why does he think that she will like him more or less after getting along with him during this period of time? Isn't liking this kind of thing destined from the beginning?

    He still remembered that time he overheard her talking to Lu Yuan, and Lu Yuan asked her, "What kind of man do you want to marry in the future?"

    She held her face and thought about it seriously, it was the season of spring flowers, and she held her face like a blooming flower, she said: "I don't know, I haven't thought about what kind of marriage I want to marry."

    "Then do you have someone you don't want to marry? That kind of person will never be considered in your mate selection criteria."

    She didn't want to say: "Brother Jun Ting is like that." She said that here, her body shivered very cooperatively, "Of course I didn't mean Brother Jun Ting to be bad, just For me, I think it's too depressing to be with someone like Jun Ting."

    I never wanted to be with him, I never liked him from the beginning, even after getting along for so long, I have no feelings for him.

    He closed his eyes and felt a pain in his ribs, as if he had been punched hard, and it hurt when he breathed. I don't know how long it took, he gradually opened his eyes, and there was scarlet spreading in the bottom of his eyes.

    So what if she doesn't want to marry him, she doesn't marry him in the end, what if she doesn't like it, she will always be his Lu Junting's wife.

    As long as he doesn't die, she will always be his.

    Either don't, if you want it, it will take a lifetime.

    This marriage, no matter what, he will never leave!