Chapter 110: a player's point of view
[I once met a fallen star, I picked it up and I wanted to help it get back to the sky.
It shook its head at me: "I am already a wreck, a star's corpse, a roadside stone."]
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Star Dou has been acting strangely recently.
As a veteran player and a good agent, I have the confidence to judge this, not to mention that he hardly hides his changes.
In the past, to find him, you only need to look at his course schedule or activity participation records to find it, or you can find traces in several training rooms.
In the past two days, except for the classroom, it was difficult to find him. In a certain episode, I did say to him that I hope he has a good rest. But the behavior of not going to the training room, or even watching from the sidelines, is really not in line with his character.
To the extent that Star Dou is focused on training, this is very abnormal.
I meet occasionally, his behavior is no different from before, everything seems to be normal, it seems that all doubts are just my doubts.
Intuition tells me what happened, and it must be a very important and critical thing.
Where will Star Dou go after leaving the training room? What the **** is he doing?
I thought about it after thinking about it, and I was ruthless. I still used the player's permission to open the perspective of God and browse the trajectory before Star Dou.
In fact, this game does not recommend the player to master the action of the character at all times, the reason is that this will affect the growth of the character and the player's game experience. Becoming a control freak who knows everything about the other person is not a good thing, even with virtual characters. Only by thinking with the mentality of treating real characters can the game feel more realistic.
Therefore, each player has only three chances to open the full perspective, and the rest can only be obtained by redemption of achievements.
Prior to this, some players have opened this perspective jokingly and discussed the content on the forum. The result was a big disappointment. The idols observed that day did not do anything special. They followed the rules of class, training, activities, and small competitions, interspersed with chatting with friends, eating and other daily routines.
It looks like a video recording a day, it's unremarkable, without any surprises, and it's no different from the daily table simplified by the system.
Afterwards, many people tried it and the results were similar. Except for a few people who found the little easter eggs, most players lost interest in this function after trying it once, and followed the game suggestions, no longer Stare at the lives of idols.
I always felt that it was unnecessary before, and Xingdou may be the most worry-free idol in this game. The problems that other agents have complained about: not being able to find people, not listening to persuasion, being sloppy, teasing, ignoring, cheating, perfunctory... all did not appear to him.
Compared to the domineering and indomitable appearance in the plot, when facing the agent in private, he is actually very good at talking. Training intensity, training weight, training type, only when he felt less, never complained too much or didn't want to do it.
Attitude is also polite, never angry in front of me, at most it will stop him from training unhappy for me, quickly walk to the corner with his back to me and silently do standing posture exercises. Even so, it's easy to coax, sweets or senior's experience records can make him angry.
I never thought that there would be a day when I would need to investigate him so carefully. Before that, Xingdou in my eyes was still an exceptionally outstanding idol reserve, but now I have to explore his secrets. Thinking of this, it is inevitable that there will be a heavy and guilty feeling.
This is the first time I've seen Star Dou's life comprehensively, but I guess it won't be much different from usual. Even if he's not in the training room, he won't get away from idol-related things.
The record started when Xingdou went out yesterday morning.
As usual, go out an hour before the first class and go to the cafeteria for breakfast. The breakfast content is the set A set in the training table I gave, and the desserts included are Xingdou’s favorite, and he usually eats it at the end.
Although the figure of the game characters should not change, as a value to measure the basic level of idols, figure management is necessary. Fortunately, the taste of most of the food in this era has been improved, and it will not taste like chewing wax. It is still very simple to keep healthy.
After breakfast, there is class.
Xingdou's class schedule is a little fuller than the average idol, and today is no exception. The whole morning is full of classes, and half of the afternoon is full. The rest of the free time is often not a rest, and it is normal to switch to the training room or activity room.
Sometimes it's hard for me to imagine what kind of belief he holds to insist on such a boring life without complaining at all. Maybe this is not an easy question to ask, but I have never dared to ask. I always felt that if I asked, Xingdou would probably not give a real answer.
Wen Lun also chose this class. Not surprisingly, this guy chose to sit next to Star Dou without blinking his eyes.
There appears to be a brief conversation between the two. Wen Lun smiled and said something that caught Xing Dou's attention, but couldn't keep it until the moment the teacher announced the class.
I'm used to this.
There are many people like Wen Lun who will surround Xingdou intentionally or unintentionally, Yang Yu, Xia Yuan, Anmas, Xiang Ming, Mushan Twins... There are also some idols who are not impressed.
This thing is too strange from God's point of view, but it is true - Xingdou has no friends.
Maybe this is my arbitrary definition, so far, Xingdou has no friends.
A friend should not be someone who cannot be approached, spoken to, or listened to. At least to Xing Dou, the people here should be more like opponents and classmates than friends. He also never stopped for any of them, and went his own way with one heart and one mind.
There are so many people around him, like the guards guarding the gem, full of expectation and love, and cautiously stretch out his hand, hoping that the gem will return the same feeling, hope that he will bring the same temperature, but never succeeded.
The gem is still cold and beautiful.
Even as an agent, I have a better position in Xingdou than them, at least Xingdou will not ignore me.
The feeling of their tireless and continuous attempts is inexplicably familiar. I have also seen such an almost stubborn look on Xing Dou.
At this moment, I had a magical idea chasing the target star, and them chasing the star. Maybe in a sense, they are similar, so they are attracted.
The morning class ended very quickly, during which there was a simulation training, and Star Dou completed it very well, as always. There seemed to be more and more people looking at him with longing and admiration.
Lunch and lunch break followed.
Xingdou finished the B set meal step by step, went to rest, and the afternoon class arrived as scheduled. When I met Yang Yu, I didn't say a few words, and I didn't pay attention to the little eyes that Yang Yu looked at from time to time.
Everything is normal and life is peaceful.
Just when I thought I was thinking too much and worrying too much, Xingdou ended today's class and left the classroom, the teaching building, and the campus.
Out of college? Where is he going?
The itinerary didn't show any activities or events he had to attend today, and Xingdou didn't mention it at all.
God's perspective clearly shows that Xingdou took the self-driving car and drove for half an hour to a commercial street.
After getting out of the car, he seemed to have no clear goal and began to wander around, staring at the big screen in the commercial street for a while, stopping in front of the new debut idol in the street performance, and for a while To listen to a guitar player...he seems to be looking for something and doesn't know where to start.
Time passed slowly, and the setting sun covered the ground with golden light, reflecting the colors of the curtain. The pedestrians gradually dwindle, and Xingdou meets a new idol who is attracting audiences for his concert at a corner.
That's definitely an unknown idol, I've never seen him on any idol profile in the game. Look at the tickets that didn't sell to confirm that.
It's just that the idol didn't seem discouraged, smiled and kept talking, as if he was selling his performance to Xingdou.
It stands to reason that this show will not be that good. I think with the current level of Xingdou, I can win this kind of half-baked, so it will not help Xingdou's idol career much. .
Xingdou listened quietly for a while, then reached out and took the ticket
The unknown idol instantly smiled more real, and his eyes began to light up.
I can't understand, Xing Dou has always shown that he is very persistent in strength, no one without strength can catch his eyes, and he will not pay attention to those people. At this time, for no apparent reason, he accepted the invitation of such a completely unknown idol.
Is it true that they knew each other? Or is there something special about this idol? For example, is it actually a hidden dark horse with superior strength?
I pressed my restless mind and waited for the follow-up.
The idol's performance was this afternoon, after Xingdou took the ticket, he didn't continue to wander around and went back to school. After that, today’s process is still the same, except for leaving school again and not going to the commercial street to make an appointment, there is no difference.
As I thought, the show was horrible.
The audience can count on one hand, and some people leave in the middle. The level of the performers is not enough, it can be seen that they have worked hard, but they are still not ideal. There are too many extra movements, the breath is not stable enough, the dance is not beautiful enough, and the stepping is not accurate... With the eyes of a professional agent, you can almost ask dozens of questions.
So I don't understand why Xingdou saw the end.
The half-hearted idol bowed breathlessly, the few audience members applauded sparsely, and the empty performance venue amplified the crisp applause, echoing another faint silence. It would never be a good memory.
Xingdou did not leave with the other audience, but waited until the curtain fell, then turned to the backstage and quietly watched the half-hearted idol.
Between the scene, the laughing idol in front of the stage is now sitting on a chair, raising his head to cover his face, breathing lightly.
Drop by drop of crystal water seeped from the gap between the fingers, slid across the cheek extremely quickly, rolled down the delicate costume, submerged into the dark environment, like a glowing pearl rolling down and disappearing.
Probably sad.
Xingdou stood not far or near, waited for a while, and asked something.
The idol wiped his tears and replied with a smile.
The show ended here, Xingdou didn't meet the idol again, didn't stop, didn't wander, and went back to school before the sun went down.
The encounter between the two is like a butterfly resting on a flower for a short time.
I am confused and desperate for answers
Why? what happened? what happened?
I didn't have time to think about it, I turned off the record, checked the time, and hurried to the last place I saw.
Hope he's still there.
Fortune favored me, and the moment I opened the rooftop door, the curling wind ruffled my hair, covering my sight, but failed to cover the black-haired boy standing on the high platform.
"Xingdou!" I couldn't help calling him, "It's dangerous there, be careful."
"Thank you." Xingdou was only surprised by my appearance for a moment, and then looked at the sun, which was gradually sinking in the distance. The golden light stretched from the horizon, and the purple clouds were moving steadily.
I don't understand what he's looking at or thinking.
The white shirt was rolled up by the wind from the high place. When he turned his back to me, it seemed as if his open white wings were about to spread their wings to meet the whistling wind.
In a trance, I thought he was going to fly away.
"Xing Dou, what did you say to that person, that idol?" I couldn't help but say it. After I finished speaking, I realized that the words were out of my mind. hard to understand
But Xingdou understood.
"It's not something worth mentioning." His voice was a little fuzzy in the wind, and for some reason I heard it surprisingly clearly.
"I just asked him what it was like to be on stage."
"He said he was scared, excited, nervous, and wanted to escape. But when he stood on the stage, he seemed to have the whole world."
"You can't betray your own world, so no matter how afraid or worried, you still stand up."
It was a calm tone, but it made me stunned.
I don't remember what expression I have, but I suddenly want to know, what expression does Xingdou have now?
What kind of mood does he have to say such a thing?
I don't know how to speak, and some are afraid to speak.
"Miss agent, do you know?" Xingdou calmly opened the topic, "Birds can fly with wings, but dandelions cannot. They have no wings and cannot fly freely, so they must Wait for the wind."
"You can fly when the wind comes, and stop when there is no wind. Up and down, travel between the winds. Before the wind comes, look forward to it every day until you find your own home A place to take root and grow.”
"Before the wind comes, waiting and hard work are necessary. Even if you fall, if you want to fly, you can still do it."
The black-haired and green-eyed boy turned his head and smiled at me: "But I want to be my own flying dandelion, I don't want to wait for the wind to come, and I don't want to continue to fall. If there is no wind, let me go Roll up the storm."
"You'll help me, won't you?"
I saw those eyes that were filled with obsession and fanaticism, but bright as stars.
"Of course."
No second answer possible.
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[I once met a fallen star, I picked it up and I wanted to help it get back to the sky.
It shook its head at me: "I am already a wreck, a star's corpse, a roadside stone."
I also shook my head and pointed to my heart: "But you are my star. You are here, always shining."]