Chapter 41:

Chapter 41:

Even if a child who is too bad is not liked by anyone, he will not blame anyone

Watching the surveillance video, Si Tian swallowed the sourness in her throat and let out a muffled "um".

"Mom will bring brother back." This sentence was an answer to Ji Zhile, and also to himself.

Ji Zhile didn't run away from home by himself, but Ji Ningyi did.

Si Tian didn't know what he was thinking at that time, but a child would run away from home, either because he was afraid of his parents' punishment, or because he was greatly wronged and felt extremely uncomfortable.

Ji Zhile also wanted to follow to find someone, Si Tian said: "Zhile, you are too young, just wait for us at home."

Ji Zhile curled his lips, he was a little confused now, and his brother threw him away, and he didn't want to go to his brother, it's just that he was too scared to be outside alone.

"Be good, don't run around at home." Si Tian said.

Ji Zhile said: "I didn't run around, I'm very good!"

Si Tian smiled: "Then who found Xiaomen and took brother out of the house?"

Well…

Ji Zhile faltered and stopped talking, looked down at the tip of his shoe and pretended to be dead.

Si Tianxin thought that she hadn't settled the bill for you yet, and she had other things to do now, so she rubbed his cheek vigorously: "Grandma Fang is also at home, I can ask Grandma Fang to cook for you what you want to eat."

Ji Zhile hummed.

As soon as Si Tian came out of the villa, she immediately called out the system, and when Xiao Ai responded, Ji Jiangzhou's voice sounded beside her at the same time, but she didn't want to talk to Ji Jiangzhou now, and was focused on talking to Xiao Ai.

"Where is Ning Yi, you have to tell me."

Unexpectedly, Xiao Ai told Si Tianning Yi's location without haggling this time, but it was still an approximate place and was still moving.

Si Tian keenly sensed something was wrong: "You have changed."

"Ah, is it?" Xiao Ai was quite flattered.

Si Tian pointed out in a calm tone: "When I asked about Zhile's location, you hesitated to say it. Now you are much more relaxed and the location is detailed."

Xiao Ai's voice was inexplicably weak: "Ah, this is what it should be..."

Si Tian asked sharply: "Is it Ning Yi who is in a very bad situation now?"

Xiao Ai: "No, no..."

But it seems that it can't hide it from the host, so it can only say: "A little bit."

"I saw Ji Ningyi's emotional ups and downs. This situation is prone to accidents. You must find him quickly, the host."

Si Tian's face also became serious: "I know."

"Go to the left, host."

Si Tian followed the route given by Xiao Ai, when Ji Jiangzhou's voice sounded beside him again: "Sorry, it's my fault."

Si Tian turned to look at him: "What?"

Ji Jiangzhou frowned slightly, and it could be seen that he was also in a depressed mood: "Ning Yi said he wanted to sleep, so I wanted him to rest alone."

He said, "I just realized that I don't know Ning Yi very well."

Ji Ningyi is a good boy, and a good boy is the one who needs the least energy from his parents.

When he bathed Ji Zhile, Ji Zhile was very sad, depressed, and his words didn't make any sense, and then he begged for his mother.

Ning Yi said very little, and the emotions of the two children seemed to be unified into frustration and loss. Ji Jiangzhou also learned the general outline of the matter from Ji Zhile, but he was not sure if it was really Ning Yi who abandoned him. Zhile, otherwise he wouldn't have left when Ning Yi said he was going to sleep.

After hearing Ji Jiangzhou's words, Si Tian was a little angry: "Ning Yi is still a child, how can you let him stay alone at this time?"

Ji Jiangzhou's voice was much lower: "It's because I didn't do well. If there are points for being a father, I might not even reach the passing mark."

The anger in Si Tian's heart disappeared a lot under his good attitude of admitting his mistakes. She thought of Ning Yi's refusal to tell her anything, and she felt disappointed: "I also failed."

"No, you did a good job." Ji Jiangzhou said, "Both children like you very much and rely on you."

Si Tian said: "But I don't know them, I don't even know what Ning Yi is thinking."

Ji Jiangzhou said: "Let's go to Ning Yi first. Since you chose the left side, I'll go to the right side."

"Ning Yi is here, we can find a different way." Si Tian has the cheating device of the system, her tone is very sure.

Ji Jiangzhou glanced at her, but he didn't insist on his opinion. He nodded: "Okay."

The two looked for people on different paths, and agreed that whoever saw Ning Yi first would send a message to the other party. According to Xiao Ai's vague guidance, Si Tian found Ji Ningyi despite taking a detour.

Ji Ning squatted under a willow tree by the lake, looking ahead, his back was thin and lost, he didn't know what he was thinking.

The moment Si Tian saw Ji Ningyi, she was pleasantly surprised, but she was a little timid before approaching.

"Xiao Ai, will I scare Ning Yi if I walk over like this?" She was really afraid that she would scare Ning Yi into the water.

Xiao Ai seemed to understand her concerns, and told her that the lake was not deep, and no one could be drowned.

Si Tian took out her mobile phone and sent a message to Ji Jiangzhou, telling him that she found Ning Yi and would take Ning home and let Ji Jiangzhou go back first.

Thinking in another way, if she did something wrong and ran away from home and was found, she would definitely not want to face many people in the first place.

Si Tian approached slowly, Ji Ningyi seemed to be immersed in his own world, and didn't notice her, until Si Tian picked him up and moved away from the lake, Ji Ningyi raised his head to look at her in a panic.

"Mom." His voice was low and hoarse. He cried too much just now. Although he didn't shed tears now, his eyes were still red.

Si Tian sat on the ground, sitting side by side with Ji Ning on the lawn, and asked him: "Is it fun here?"

She still spoke as usual, not angry, very gentle, Ji Ning glanced at her cautiously, and gave a muffled hum.

He thought he had gone so far that no one else could find him, but his mother found him, and her mother was not angry.

But Ji Ningyi's heart is full of ups and downs. He seldom does bad things, but today he did two things, abandoned Zhile, and ran away from home. Mom must think he is very bad.

Ji Ning lowered his head.

But someone held his shoulders, and he was half held in his mother's arms.

"If Ning Yi likes it and thinks it's fun here, can we go out as a family next time?" Si Tian said, "You scared us all when you went out alone today."

Ji Ning lowered his head and twisted his fingers: "I'm sorry, Mom."

"Since Ning Yi said I'm sorry, then mother will forgive you for this matter."

Ji Ning was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect to be forgiven so easily, he always felt that making a mistake is a very big thing.

Si Tian asked: "Would Ning Yi go home with mom now?"

Ji Ning was silent again.

Si Tian rubbed his hair and said, "Mom often wanted to run away from home when she was young."

After saying this, she secretly paid attention to Ji Ningyi's reaction. Although he still lowered his head, his hands stopped quietly, as if he wanted to hear her continue.

"I didn't pass the exam and was criticized by the teacher, and I was scolded by my parents when I returned home, so I thought about running away from home." I told you specifically, why did you make a mistake again? Parents also used the same words to educate her.

Many years have passed, but Si Tian is sure that the teacher did not tell her alone. She was very wronged at that time, and felt that the whole world did not believe her, so she wanted to run away from home.

Looking at this matter now that I am grown up, I feel that the idea at that time was so naive, but children are easy to get into the horns and have extreme ideas. This is unique to their age group, and it is as common as procrastination when everyone grows up. .

Ji Ning said softly: "Grandma, grandpa, and the teacher shouldn't scold mom, and mom didn't do poorly in the exam on purpose."

Hearing Ji Ningyi's words, Si Tian's eyes became hot.

Obviously she was comforting Ning Yi, but Ning Yi was comforting her when she was a child, how could there be such an obedient child, but she seems to be a failed mother, and she doesn't even know what he really thinks.

She hugged Ji Ningyi's arm tightly and pulled him into her arms, her voice was slightly hoarse: "So, mom also believes that Ning Yi didn't do it on purpose."

As soon as Ji Ning heard her changing voice, he glanced at her nervously, and then lowered his head again. He felt that he was good or bad, and his mother always believed in him.

"Mom, I did it on purpose..." His voice was extremely low, and he disappeared into the breeze in an instant. After saying this, his head drooped even more, feeling extremely guilty.

Si Tian took a deep breath: "Even if it was intentional, there is a reason, right, so would you tell me the reason?"

Ji Ning didn't speak.

Si Tian said: "Ning Yi, Mom doesn't know what you're worried about, but no matter what the reason you did it, Mom won't..."

"Well... maybe angry, but that's the biggest consequence."

Ji Ningyi seemed to be slightly moved by her words, and asked her in a low voice: "Will mom want me?"

"Of course not!" Si Tian said with certainty.

Why does Ning Yi think this way? Did she do something that made Ning Yi feel insecure? If a child asks this question, he must be extremely afraid of being left behind.

Si Tian thought of something, and said, "Didn't Ning Yi say that my mother is well, and that my mother will never get sick again."

She seemed to be able to think of only this. As for making this promise, it was not an empty promise. The success of the mission of the system was judged by whether Ji Ningyi and Ji Zhile could avoid the accident. It was already more than ten years later, when Ning Yi Already an adult.

"Mom won't want you." Si Tian repeated again, and said softly, "Ning Yi is my baby."

Ji Ning leaned slightly towards her, and seemed to have relaxed a lot.

Si Tian tentatively asked: "Then let's start with something simple, can Ning Yi tell me why you left home today?"

Ji Ning's eyelashes trembled, the child's voice was still immature, but his tone was a little timid: "Because I did something very bad, I..."

He choked up, and his voice changed slightly: "I threw Zhile in the woods, I'm very bad, I want to give Zhile back."

When Si Tian heard this reason, she just wanted to say that she was so stupid, but Ning Yi's thoughts were so pure, because she did something wrong, so she repeated the bad thing to herself.

"I'm still afraid, I'm afraid my parents don't want me anymore." After he finished speaking, two more tears fell, and he reached out to wipe them off, leaning softly in Si Tian's arms, even though Si Tian said no just now. He would not want him, but he still approached his mother through such a show of weakness, as if it would make people more pitiful and likable, even if he got the promise, he was still timid and afraid.

Si Tian's heart shivered, and she hugged him tightly: "Fool, Ji Ning, listen carefully, no matter what happens, Mom and Dad will never want you."

She said: "You don't know how scared me and your father were when we saw you leaving home. You are our child, and you have grown up to such a big age. How could we not want you?"

Ji Ning rubbed his eyes, and the weeping sound in his voice was obvious: "I'm sorry, Mom, I don't want you to be afraid."

He is very scared and scared today, this emotion is too bad, and he doesn't like that his parents are also troubled by the same emotion.

"Then don't run away from home." Si Tian said, "If I don't find you today, I will be very sad. If I never find you, I will always be sad for the rest of my life."

Ji Ning gently took her arm: "I don't want to make my mother sad."

But he made mom sad many times today, mom was sad when she couldn't see Zhile, and she was also sad when she couldn't see him.

"Mom, I'm not well."

Si Tian understood his way of speaking and said affirmatively, "You are fine."

She tried her best to find Ji Ning's usual performance, trying to make him more confident, instead of the depressed look now.

But as soon as she said it, Ji Ning shook his head: "I'm not good, I'm not sensible."

"You don't need to be a sensible child." Si Tian said, she remembered her mother-in-law's words, for a child, being sensible is a kind of praise and also a kind of imprisonment, she recalled how many times she said to Ji Ningyi, Ning Yi is really obedient, Ning Yi is really obedient...

Ning Yi will also be imprisoned by her praise one by one.

Si Tian said in a serious tone: "Even if you are ignorant, mom still likes you very much."

She gave an example: "Zhi Le is picky eater and mischievous, but mom still likes him."

Ji Ning blinked, and with a soft tone, asked Si Tian an unexpected question: "Am I the same as Zhile?"

Si Tian seemed to be hit by something in her heart, with a bang, the surroundings were silent for a second, and she seemed to have come into contact with Ning Yi's true thoughts, which shocked her.

In just a second, she quickly said, "Of course the same, you are all my children, you are all the same, as much as I like Zhile, I will like you as much."

Ji Ningyi didn't speak again.

Si Tian hugged Ning Yi's shoulders, she was actually a little scared now.

She has heard and seen all kinds of conflicts in the second-child family, so when she is dressed as the mother of the two children, she also pays attention to this, and tries to make no difference between the two children.

So in the beginning, even though he didn't like Ji Zhile, he would ask him if he wanted to go to the mall, and he liked Ning Yi very much, and he would try to balance their relationship.

When I saw Zhu Pan at my mother-in-law's house, I was even glad that I didn't have such a partiality, Zhu Pan was so pitiful.

But at this moment, Si Tian realizes that it doesn't seem to be the case, Zhu Pan is pitiful, but Ning Yi is not doing well, otherwise she wouldn't ask her if she would not want him, wouldn't she ask if I am the same as Zhile?

Ning Yi is usually well-behaved and sensible, but Zhi Le is lively and noisy, she seems to be able to involuntarily focus more on Zhi Le, but she has never ignored Ning Yi, why does Ning Yi have such thoughts?

After calming down, Si Tian spoke with a slightly astringent voice: "Ning Yi, does it mean that your mother treats you differently than Zhi Le?"

Many things are completely different from the perspective of children and adults, so she can only ask Ji Ningyi.

Ji Ningyi twisted his fingers again, pursed his lips tightly, and looked very tangled, Si Tian didn't continue to ask, but just hugged him quietly, she only touched a little of Ningyi's true thoughts, but it was far from enough.

Finally, as soon as Ji Ning spoke, his voice was very low: "Mom bought a lot of new clothes for Zhile and told many stories to Zhile. She will pick up Zhile from school first, and..."

He closed his lips again, and waited for a few seconds before continuing: "It's my fault, I'm brother, I should let Zhi Le, it's my fault..."

"That's not it!" Si Tian interrupted him sharply.

Ji Ning froze, did he make his mother angry again?

He didn't want to be like this, he seemed to be getting more and more ignorant, although his mother liked it when she said she was ignorant, but Ji Ningyi's long-standing thinking made it difficult for Ji Ningyi to change his mind.

"Ning Yi, you are Zhile's older brother, but older brother doesn't mean you have to give in to younger brother, you can tell mom what you want." Si Tian said, "otherwise mom won't know what you think. "

She bought a lot of new clothes for Ji Zhile because Ji Zhile wanted this and that. She told Ji Zhile many stories because Ji Zhile fell asleep very late that day. She went to pick up Ji Zhile first because Ji Zhile Le gets out of school earlier...

She thought it was a normal thing, so she didn't think too much about it. She didn't know that it was like this in the eyes of children, and she didn't know that Ji Ning always thought that he was an older brother and wanted to give way to his younger brother.

For more than a month, has Ning Yi been surrounded by such thoughts? No matter what unfair things he encountered from his point of view, he still silently endured them. He is very good to Zhile, sleeps with Zhile, and does homework with Zhile...

As Ning Yi's mother, she didn't notice any abnormalities, and she always thought that Ning Yi was a sensible and obedient child, so she added these words to Ning Yi.

She couldn't believe how much pressure Ning Yi had endured during this period, and he still had to whitewash the peace, obviously he was just a child who was not yet seven years old.

Si Tian felt deeply guilty. As Ning Yi's mother, she kept putting pressure on Ning Yi. Thinking of how she told Ning Yi many times after she found Ji Zhile, she believed that you were a good child. Will Ning Yi be more uncomfortable?

But even so, when she told about her childhood, Ning Yi would still comfort her.

She felt that the love she gave Ning Yi seemed to be less than one-tenth of what Ning Yi gave her.

It turned out that many things also came to Si Tian's eyes. Ning Yi didn't like to wear childish clothes, but would wear them because she liked them; Ning Yi didn't like eating vegetables, but would learn from her brother to eat them because of her words.

She was clearly aware of it, but she didn't care much after Ning Yi denied it. If she had asked more at that time, would Ning Yi not have endured until now to explode, and would not have done something wrong to make him feel so uncomfortable .

Her nose was sore for a moment, Si Tian hugged Ning Yi tightly, her voice hoarse: "I'm sorry, Ning Yi."

When Ji Ning heard his mother's voice, he panicked. He realized that his mother seemed to be crying...

Crying is a very serious thing, is it because of him?

He imitated his mother's previous appearance and patted her arm with his hand: "It's okay, Mom."

Why did my mother say sorry to him? It was obviously his fault.

But he said it's okay, but my mother didn't get better.

"Ning Yi, don't be sensible, I'm sorry..."

Mom really cried, Ji Ningyi was completely flustered, for a moment, he couldn't hold back his tears.

"It's okay, Mom." Even if Mom did something wrong, he would forgive her.

"Mom, don't cry." He stretched out his hand, touched his mother's cheek lightly, and wiped his fingers over it.

He felt as if he was being hugged even tighter. Why, did his mother think he was not good, so she didn't want to like him anymore?

Ji Ningyi's tears fell down big and big, and he was scared and flustered: "I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean it."

He kept saying that he did it on purpose, that he threw away Zhile on purpose, but at this time he finally changed his mind.

"I don't know why Zhile was thrown away at that time."

He didn't even want to look back after walking out of the woods. Why did he have that kind of thought at that time? He knew that Le was his younger brother and they grew up together, but he wanted to know that Le disappeared.

"Mom, I'm so bad."

Even if a child who is too bad is not liked by anyone, he will not blame anyone.